This week was fun filled with doctors appointments and worrying about my mom who was in the hospital for a few days. And then of course working on launches and working some more on other items. By the end of the week everything turned out alright. Still working on results for and need more testing done to figure out where the low grade fevers are coming from, but in the end it’s all worked itself out.
Monday again and I wake up with some energy. I put on my comfy clothes and get to the treadmill and walked for about three miles. I then get a call from my husband asking me to check out our accounts to ensure that everything is in order. I stopped what I was doing and logged onto our account. All looks like it’s supposed to and we’re both relived. I don’t get back on the treadmill as by the time it’s said and done, it’s time to log on and work for the man. As for work, there is a lot of it. I’m all discombobulated this morning because I received a message last night that my mom is in the hospital for weakness and weight loss as well as her sugar levels being very high. She has diabetes and doesn’t take care of herself like she should. Her sugar levels are very high and she is very weak and fragile. I can’t go visit as there is only one person who can be in the hospital with patients. I have to rely on my sibling to provide information. Back to work, and there is a lot to do during the day, but I am very much not present as I keep on thinking about my poor mother. Later in the day I get a message that she is having issues with eating. The doctors were thinking of placing her on a feeding tube, we decided against it. As for work, I did as much as I could with all of this worry on my shoulders, which wasn’t much. I was requested to launch a product last minute and I did something stupid, overpromised and underdelivered. The item did not launch on the day that I had mentioned to the team. I had to wait for the developers to do a bunch of things on their end and it took longer than expected. Now I know to put some padding onto what I can promise as I can only do so much. I end my day at six as I can no longer push anymore. We have dinner and I get to bed earlier than usual.
It’s Tuesday and I wake up ready for the treadmill. I’m so stressed about my moms situation and my little one being sick. I’m also still a bit sick myself with remanence of the second covid vaccine. I figured, going for a walk would do me good. And it did, for a little while at least. I had enough energy to go ahead and take a shower and get dressed in a decent outfit and logged in for my nine o’clock meeting. The meeting was mainly technical talk. Mainly it went right over my head. During my lunch hour I am making phone calls to set up appointments for my little one and finding out pricing and further information for caregivers for my parents. I then had a quick lunch of cottage cheese with honey and back to work I go. I then have a meeting with my mentor. I am asking him how I can ask for a raise without bluntly asking for a raise. He tells me that it’s all about opportunity and if there is any opportunities to have more responsibility. I’m sure there is, but I am already fully booked with what I am currently doing now. If I get more responsibilities, I may have more work and then I will really have to work over the weekends. Meanwhile, I am doing my research on how to request for a raise without asking for money. Youtube has given me some ideas. Such as, requesting for more responsibilities and asking what I can do in order to expand my work abilities.
It’s Wednesday and I did not wake up with the alarm. Slept right through it. I wanted to get up early to get to the treadmill and walk a few miles, but my head must be too tired if I didn’t hear anything. I did get up on time for work and was ready for my morning meeting. Shortly after I was given some good news about a possible opportunity. The possibility seem to be very positive and for that opportunity, I am thankful. My mom continues to be in the hospital as they now found something in her heart and she may need surgery. We’re finding out if she is a candidate as she is old and fragile and may not qualify. As for work, it is a relative light day as I haven’t been bombarded, yet, with items to add to the sites. I have a bunch of things to do that will need to be postdated for the future. I am very surprised and delighted that things are being provided to me in advance. Usually, I have to drop everything to get things posted or completed. But not today, at least not yet. The day is still young… In the evening I continue to work and getting ahead as the time goes by. Trying to not think about what is actually happening around me too much, and not worry myself until I finally fall asleep.
Thursday comes and goes as I took the day off to take my little one to see a few doctors. She is still felling a bit under the weather and continues to need medicine. In the morning, I went to the store to do the major shopping and spent a lot of time, money, and energy. Having to put on the mask then make sure nothing except for the essentials is touched, looking for the needed items, then checkout is a long dreaded process. After that, taking all of the items to the car and stacking them in such a way to make sure everything fits in my small Honda. At which point there is a young man who is going around in the parking lot asking people for money because he is hungry. And, mind you, not wearing a mask. I offered him a box of cereal and he declined it. So yeah, he wasn’t hungry. He just wants money. I remember the days when we didn’t have much and only had the essentials. A box of sweet cereal would have been a delight, no one who is hungry would turn down such an offering. After that encounter, I had another encounter with that same young man. He was asking for a ride to the train station. I told him, sorry but I am going the other direction. I felt for him because he didn’t look high nor did he look like a drug user. Just a lost kid, hustling for money on the streets. I then went home and unpacked all of the refrigerated items and cleaned them all up with disinfecting wipes. I left all of the other items in the car and raced to the shower to get all of the shopping off of me. Then raced to get dressed as we already a bit late to take my little one to see the doctor. All good at the doctors. She is getting better and healthier. In the evening, after all of the doctors visits. I unpacked the rest of the groceries and cleaned everything up with the disinfecting wipes. This grocery shopping thing during covid season is exhausting. But the day is still young and I need to take out the garbage pails to the curb as tomorrow is garbage day in my neighborhood. Then I get inside and have dinner of leftover lasagna. Yummy. At this point I am tired and ready to relax, but I log onto my work email just to see what I have in store for me tomorrow. And I have a lot. There is a product launch on Monday and there is a lot to do for it. For some reason, I thought the launch was on Wednesday. But nope, I was completely wrong and it’s earlier than I had planned. I’m frustrated and I immediately log off the work email and looked through my personal and didn’t find anything important. I then get to the couch and join the family, my husband put on Netflix and we were watching Shadow & Bone. Seems like a good show, I was enjoying it for a little while. At one point I get up and get a snack and grab some more for everybody to enjoy. Shortly after it was nine thirty and it was bed time. I take my medicine and get to bed. I couldn’t sleep for a little while so I here I am, watching stupid things on tiktok, I mean really stupid mind numbing things. And eventually the mind goes numb and I fall asleep.
It’s Friday and I did not wake up with my alarm. My little one has yet another doctors appointment and I did not get up on time. My brain is exhausted from the frustrating week that I’ve been having. My mother in law was the one who woke me up. I rolled out of bed and ran to get dressed and make some coffee and toast for breakfast. Need something in my belly in order to take my medicine. At the doctors office, we checked everything and all is clear. Need to figure out where the low grade fevers are coming from. We will need to do more testing. After the doctors we go to McDonalds for a treat. My little one was so good at the doctors, she deserves a little treat, even if it is bad for you. After this, I get right to work. There is a lot to do as I’ve already missed almost half a day. I work and work and work and then I work some more. I have a launch happening on Monday and everything needs to be ready. We also have other items that need to be posted and it takes me a while to get everything done. I am on until seven and then my back and neck start to get achy. I take some medicine for that and keep on working. By nine I call it a day. I can’t and shouldn’t do it anymore. Working way too many hours overtime and not getting compensated for it. I do get some recognition though. My boss notices that I am online until late at night. I also copy her on emails that state as such. I’m a good employee! I get my work done and get it done on time and am responsible. I’m a good asset to have. I really am! Meanwhile, I am writing things down on my little book of things to do like setting up appointments, getting receipts for my FSA, and a reminder to clean the siding of the house. I have a lot of projects to do outside. We still have our Christmas lights out on the house and they should really be taken down. So I will be doing that this weekend, if it doesn’t rain of course. It seems that every time I make any sort of plan that has to do with the outside world it tends to rain. So I’ll play it by ear and will go by the weather.
Until next time.
Stay Safe!
Best,
Isabel
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