Back to work week #4

It’s Monday and like most Mondays of recent, I wake up at two in the morning and then can’t get back to sleep. This early morning I have been looking through twitter and reading all about our covid variants and how much worst they are than the original. Scary! I’ve also read through NYFW and see all of the new trends that are coming back from y2k. The thin eyebrows are back so my eyebrows are back in business. I did try to grow them out for a while, but they just became a bushy mess and turned them right back to the slimmer look that I’ve had a for a while. I then went on to my other social media platforms in order to see if they could lull me to sleep. But nothing! Today must be one of those days that I will be awake from two AM on. I haven’t gone to the kitchen yet to get a midnight snack, I think all of these midnight snacking is making my belly bulge out and it plainly needs to stop. I may need to eat a bit more during the day. More protein and less calories. We have protein bars at the house, but they fill me up way too much and I feel a bit sick after eating one of them. Maybe I’ll just have half of one and leave the other half for a different day. I just don’t want the thing to be stale and taste even more like cardboard than it already does. Today, for work, I have a full plate starting at ten in the morning. I have a meeting with my coworker and then another slew of meetings. This is great, it will keep me nice and busy for the entire day. It will also keep my mind out of stupid things from what happened over the weekend with my parents. If you’re interested, take a look at last weeks blog and skip right on over to my Saturday and Sunday. It’s always on the weekends that I get sh*t thrown at me. During the week I am working hard for the man and am all sorts of happy about it, but then the infancy family has to ruin it all. So… since I have bee awake for this long the plan is to get something to eat as my tummy is rumbling and then get onto the treadmill and walk a few miles this morning. If I get the courage, I may even run for a little while. But only after I eat something. When I feel like my belly is rumbling I force myself eat something. Since I am in the basement all by myself doing my exercises I fell like I may pass out and fall. Then no one will find me until the end of the day. I feel like I would rot in the basement all by myself until my husband comes home at five or six in the afternoon. At which point I may be dead, or have treadmill marks all over my face and body. Either way, it will not be a pretty site. Thinking on having English muffins before I head down to the treadmill. Or maybe some toast with butter. Either way, they will be smothered in butter. Dry bread is not for me, especially in the morning. Before heading to the treadmill, I am answering messages from linked in from a few dear friends that I’ve neglected for a few weeks. For some wild reason am in a good mood this morning and want to use this good mood to spread the wealth to others. Well…this good mood thing was short lived. I had to make a few phone calls before work started and that made me just plainly exhausted. By nine in the morning I was no longer in a happy mood. Wasn’t in a bad mood but was not in that peppy mood any longer. I had a meeting with my coworker at ten and I felt like I had just been hit with a brick. I could no longer pay attention to the meetings that were going on. After that long meeting it was lunch time and I decided to take a nap during my lunch hour. While I was napping the doorbell rang and woke me up. It was my mother in law coming in with the dog. She advises me there was a package outside from amazon. I get out the sanitizing wipes and wipe down the box and brought it inside. I am still sleepy so I place the package in the office and get back to bed. It’s days like these that I am glad that I am working from home, so I can take a nap on my own bed. I don’t have any more meetings this afternoon and I am dragging a$$. I feel really tired and just simply down and out. This weekend took a toll on me and I am still feeling it. I wish I had more energy today, but it doesn’t look like I’ll be having anything any time soon. There is a meeting on my calendar for four thirty, I thought it was going to be cancelled, but it continues to be on the darn calendar. I really hope that I don’t have this meeting. I have nothing to say for today. Finally, the email came through to cancel the meeting. Thank goodness as I am not in the mood to talk to anyone right now. I really hope that tomorrow is a better day for me. Because today has been a complete washout. I hate feeling like this, as if I’ve accomplished nothing. In the evening, we have dinner and then the family goes out as I have a lot of work to catch up on. I stay back and take yet another nap and the time passes by quickly. Before I know it, it is nine in the evening and they have come back from their excursion. Meanwhile, I am trying to work on my email and it craps out on me. I need to restart my system and do it all over again. Ugg, today!

Well hello Tuesday! It’s Tuesday and it’s three in the morning. Of course I am awake and ready to get my day started. I may just get down to the treadmill again this morning again, at a decent hour, of course. Who knows what the day may bring. Yes, I am still in a mood from the weekend’s events and I just can’t seem to be able to kick it out of my brain as it keep on playing over and over and over in my head. My heart is broken and I am working my hardest to place some of the pieces back together. This may be why I keep on waking up every morning at the wee hours of the morning and not being able to sleep a full eight hours as I should. I instead keep on taking medicine to calm my nerves and it’s affecting my day to day work. It’s making me groggy and slow to the punch. Also, I feel like I’m not getting things done like I’m supposed to in a timely fashion. This makes me nervous for my job. I keep on writing down notes of what needs to be done, and good thing I do because everything is going in one ear and out the other. Coming back to my notes has been godsent. Yesterday, however, was a bit of a washout. I couldn’t concentrate and just could not get my things done. As much as I tried, my brain was cloudy and I simply couldn’t get it done. Today, I will need to backpaddle and figure out exactly what it is that I will need to accomplish. I hate feeling like this. It’s one of those lingering feelings where I keep on thinking and thinking about the same rotten conversations and they ruminate in my head. As much medicine I take to numb the thoughts, everything else numbs too and I can not get through my day like normal. I keep on waking up at the early hours in the morning and then can’t get myself to fall back asleep. I should probably start my work day now and see what I can get done. But my brain is too much of a mush to get anything accomplished. I should instead, get back into bed and try to rest for a little while longer. But who am I kidding?! All I will be doing is looking through my social or listening to an audiobook, or both at the same time. And in essence not paying attention to either of them. I hate having these feelings. I feel like I just cant kick them out of my mind. They keep playing over and over in my mind like old tapes. The worst part of all of this is that my new job now requires me to have to deal with a whole lot of people and having to put on a happy face and I am not happy. Good thing there are teams and zooms calls and I can see my face and notice when I’m starting to droop. That’s when I automatically make myself perk up and put on a smile. As fake as it is, it is still there for others to see. They can probably see right through it, but hey, I’m giving it my best shot here. So I get back to bed and sleep until eight thirty. I wanted to get to the treadmill but must have overslept through all of the five alarms I have. I slept during lunch yesterday and slept in the evening and now slept all the way through the morning hours. What in the world is wrong with me? I probably need a mental healthy day. Can’t wait until next week. I have a few days off from work and I need the mental health days for myself. I still can’t believe I slept through all of those alarms this morning. Right before work I head down to the treadmill and run for about a mile and then walk a bit to cool down. I then head back to the bedroom/office as I have a very long meeting that I need to attend to, but just to listen in and not particularly participate in. Not gonna lie, but I was kinda falling asleep during this meeting. It’s not that it was boring. I’ve just been having trouble with my sleep and I am all off. So when they were talking about one of our competitors and how one of their products compares to ours, I was dozing off. Oops! Luckily I wasn’t called upon to give any feedback.

After the meeting, it’s lunch time and I head out to the bank to get some cash as I need it for my wallet. After lunch there are more meetings and I don’t get to do anything today. I have a request to put through and haven’t done it yet. In the evening I have a doctors appointment at five thirty and I also have a meeting that ends at five thirty. I had to send a message to the doctor to let them know I was going to be a few minutes late. I race to the doctor and got there in ten minutes. It should have taken about twenty. After the doctor I head on over to the store and make a couple of returns. I then do some shopping. I purchase a couple of dresses that I like and I take them home. As I’m driving home I see a beautiful sunset. I get closer to the farm that is near the house and I pull over to take a photo. Wish I would of had my real camera to take a couple of photos, I’m sure they would have made a wonderful framed photo.

After my photo shoot I get home and no one is there. I have dinner by myself once again. That’s ok, they have gone out to for a drive and play pokemonGo and I am not interested. I then am trying my hardest to fall asleep and am not able to. I am way too awake to lay down. So I am watching Cruella and surfing the net until I feel sleepy. It’s eleven and I’m still scrolling through buzzfeed. So far I’ve found about ten products that I’d like to purchase to make my life easier. But I’m frugal, so I won’t add them to cart. I’ve also drank about two bottles of water and continuously need to be heading over to the bathroom. It’s nice and quiet in the house, all I hear is the AC and the sleeping sounds of my husband as I am in the bedroom office. I eventually lay down in bed and fall asleep.

It’s Wednesday at three in the morning and low and behold, I wake up. Tossed and turned for a while, even turned on an audiobook, to no avail. I head to the kitchen and have some neutella and milk as a midnight snack. Eating all of these midnight snacks is going to make my belly larger than it already is. But what else does one do when they are bored and can’t sleep? After my midnight snack I do a bit of a beauty regiment. I add retinol oil to my face and belly. I’ve been adding oil to my belly so that I won’t get stretch marks. Not sure if its actually doing anything but at least I smell fantastic. The oil has a lavender scent and it is just delightful. At this point, I don’t know if I should take another sleeping pill or if I should simply suck it up and stay awake until about four and then get up and get to the treadmill. Yesterday’s morning run felt really good and I would love it if I could do it again. It makes my blood pump and it take my mind out of stupid things that keep on ruminating inside my head. Meanwhile, I need something else to watch as I am on the treadmill. I’ve been binge watching Empire and it is a fantastic show, but I need a break from it for a few weeks. Need to find out when Good Girls is coming back on netflix. I hear season four is going to be out soon. I really enjoy watching that show. They place one season at a time and I watch it as I do my exercises. Oh also The Crown is also coming back. I love that show. I really enjoy watching historical fiction. I love to see how they lived and the outfits from the piece period and the furniture, especially, the furniture. I love the intricate way furniture used to be made. Most were hand carved and all were unique pieces of art. Ok, it’s now half hour to four in the morning. Going to try and get some shut eye for a little while, hopefully for an hour or two. Low and behold, I’ve been able to sleep for another three hours. I basically wake up because I am hungry. I also heard my husband roll out of bed about an hour ago. I wait for a while so that he can get ready and so I am not in his way. I will need to use the kitchen to make something to eat before going to the treadmill. I don’t want to be hungry and be on the treadmill. I’ve done something like that before and passed out. Many years ago, I went to the gym without eating lunch and barely ate breakfast and was hungry. My dumb a$$ went to the gym anyway and was working out on the rower when I apparently passed out and fell to the floor. Someone woke me up when I was on the floor. They asked me if I was ok and I was coming to my senses. I felt so, so embarrassed that this had happened to me that I never wanted to go out to that gym ever again. After about a few weeks I went back and tried to not make eye contact with anyone, but never again. I will never again be hungry and do exercises. I will always ensure that my belly is full. Especially now that I am at home. While I am on the treadmill my husband is at work and my daughter and mother in law are sleeping during those hours. They may not realize that I’ve passed out for hours. I’m afraid that the mill will crape off my face or other parts of my skin if I happen to pass out without being able to turn off the machine nor pull the emergency string to stop the machine. Yes, this is a nightmare of mine. Being in the basement on the floor with the treadmill running and my skin being ripped as I lay there passed out. Anxiety much!? So after my husband left, I head to the kitchen and make toast and coffee. I practically drink my toast down even before the coffee was prepared, that’s how hungry I am. It has butter and cherry jam, yummy. Once the coffee is prepared I take my cup and head outside and have my morning coffee with just me and the birds.

I then decided to use my phone take a few photos of the yard this morning as the lighting is just right during sunrise. We have a dead oak tree in the front yard and I planted a few wisteria seeds around it so that the vines could climb up the tree and provide a beautiful perspective. The vines grew but I haven’t seen any flowers as of yet. This is what it looks like right now. Even though it is dead, I feel like I am giving the tree a purpose. Hopefully within a few years the wisteria will bloom flowers.

Another beautiful plant that I have in my yard is a hibiscus plant. It is light pink in color and I find it very beautiful.

For lunch I take a nap. Since I didn’t get much sleep last night, and I’ve been having a crazy headache today, I decided that it would be a good idea to relax for my lunch hour. I sleep for the entire hour. I heard a noise and woke up from my deep sleep. Good thing too because the hour was up and I have a meeting right after. Turns out that meeting was cancelled while I was napping, but I wouldn’t have known unless checked. During work I’ve been listening to ocean waves the entire day to help relax my mind. I have a lot that needs to be done and I’m not sure where to start. I’ve put a few lists together and still feel like I have more that needs to be accomplished. This evening our pup got his bath, his nails clipped and his hair cut. So much cuteness. As the family went out for a drive to get out of the house, I stay and work. I need to send out a few emails and they need to be well written and worded properly. Plus, these are being sent to the upper management people. It’s now nine in the evening and I’m still going at it. Starting to feel numb and my eyes are shutting down. The brain is too.

Oh boy, I’m in trouble. It’s midnight and I am fully awake. Already gone to the bathroom and don’t need a midnight snack. Well, happy Thursday! I just feel a bit chilly as my arms are cold since it’s 69-degrees in the room with the AC on. Put on my calm app to listen to soothing sounds of the night and nothing. Woke up to a movement or whatever and then tossed and turned a bit. Then got up and now I’m here with you typing away. Should I check my work emails at this time of the morning? I know there were a bunch that came through after eight last night that I ignored. I would rather answer them at like seven in the morning to show the bosses that I am up early as opposed to late in the evening. But good lord, this is ridiculous. I had a friend who used to talk about taking sleeping pills all the time because she couldn’t sleep and I always found it odd that she couldn’t sleep through the night. And now it’s happening to me. I should probably invest in those ZZ gummies or whatever they are called to help me to fall asleep. They are supposedly drug free and everything, right? Just melatonin or whatever is the ingredient… to help fall sleep naturally. Meanwhile, I am creating lists of people that I will need to work with in the future. This is so sad. Ok, maybe a midnight snack is in my near future. Not sure what else to do. My audiobooks are becoming boring, social media is also very blah. I don’t want to see any shows on the phone. There isn’t anything exciting in life right now. I’m completely bored to pieces. Luckily, I have a couple of days off next week. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself. I may just need to set up doctors appointments in order to keep myself moving along. No wonder people do stupid things all the time. They apparently need a hobby to keep themselves occupied. I’m in the need of one too to keep my mind busy. This is why I go for walks or runs in the morning hours, so I get enough exercise and get my body moving so I’ll be nice and tired for the evening. Looks like I will need to get my body moving a bit more in order to feel tired enough to rest at night. I mainly feel mentally tired but not physically tired. Is walking or running for an hour each day not enough?! Will I also need to get on the treadmill in the evenings as well? I may just need to try that and see how that goes. What I really feel bad for is that I tend to wake up my other half when I am online writing. Even though the AC is on for white noise and he has his earbuds on, he says that he can still hear/feel me leaving the bed and walking about the house. I feel bad for waking people up, sorry family. Seems like if I’m up, y’all up too. I’d really like to get some sleep, I really would, but this brain of mine keeps on waking up and wanting to do stuff. So, I head to the kitchen and have a small feast. I have a couple of spoons of peanut butter and then ships with spinach dip as well as some peanut m&ms. Hopefully this will satisfy my belly and will help me to get back to sleep. Unfortunately, the ships that I had with my dip were a bit stale and just about ready to be tossed into the trash. I will take care of that tomorrow, don’t want to make too much noise today with the rattling of the bag in the garbage. Tomorrow is another day for cleanup. Wonder if there is a movie that I can watch that would lull me to sleep. Maybe a princess disney movie. I used to have the movie shrek play all the time when I was younger and had a cd player on my laptop. I’d put the movie on in the evening and in the middle of the night I would hear the donkey saying ‘pick me’ when it got back to the menu screen. Ah the good old days of not having streaming available at your fingertips. Going to attempt again and going to lay down. Talk in a few hours, I’m sure. So, I was able to eventually fall asleep while listening to an audiobook. And then woke up at seven in the morning. Not bad, not bad at all. I’m glad I got to sleep for a few hours this morning. As for work, I started sending out emails this morning right at seven thirty. Hopefully management appreciates that I’m working hard and putting in extra hours in the morning as well as the evening.

By nine I hit a bit of a wall and need to take a break, so I take a breakfast break from work. I made the bed and opened up the bedroom/office windows to let fresh air into the room. I then lay down for a few minutes to rest my head. Then the phone rang and I got up a bit too quickly and got dizzy. It’s the grass guy for my parents house. Umm, don’t wanna talk to you right now, leave a message. For lunch I am in a meeting but not really paying attention to it. What I really want to do is take a nice nap but I have work to do so napping will have to be later. In the afternoon] I meet with my mentee and we talk about life and work and everything under the sun. In the evening the boss has us put together power point slides for a meeting for tomorrow. I worked on the thing until about seven. Then I have chicken leftover for dinner and cleaned up after myself. I then prep the kitchen for my husband for tomorrow’s work day. I set up his morning coffee, his soups, his sandwich, the works. Shortly after I head to bed. I am not sleepy but need to lay down and rest as tomorrow is another workday and I need my beauty sleep.

Well, good morning Friday. It is one o’clock in the morning and I am bright eyed and bushy tailed. Woke up about an hour ago and can no longer sleep. I’ve posted a nice photo to linkedIn with the plaque that I’ve earned for being a mentor and thanked my mentee for being the delightful person that she is. I also thanked Stony Brook University for the opportunity to be a mentor to a wonderful young woman. It’s too bad they got my last name wrong on the plaque. Not sure why they etched my maiden name and not my married name. Like my employer, they are confused as I have many names and it may be a difficult task to pick which to utilize. Nevertheless, it is a nice gesture and I am grateful I got to experience the program and may have made a friend for life.

After my thoughtful post I write a thoughtful, heartfelt email to my brothers regarding our father and the types of comments he has been making about us and our mother. They are the type that are hateful and destructive and quite frankly I am sick of them. Hopefully, they will now know the truth from my perspective and hopefully will react accordingly. As for todays work schedule, I have a meeting right at nine in the morning. Depending on what time I wake up, after I head back to bed right now, I may or may not be able to head down to my treadmill for my daily walk. We will see, hopefully, I will wake up by five or six and have enough time to get a workout in before going to that first thing in the morning, meeting. I then have another meeting in the early afternoon and another in the late afternoon. And who knows, maybe even another impromptu meeting in between all of these meetings. What I am looking forward to is next week as I have a few days off and nothing much planned. Besides the regular chores of going to the big box store and making returns. I may also go to my parents house and do some cleaning as opposed to going there over the weekend. We will see where the wind will take us. However, as luck should have it, it looks like it’s to rain on all days that I will be off from work. So I can forget about gardening and can start thinking about what kind of book I’d like to read or what kind of project the little on and I can do indoors. At four in the morning, I wake up again and put on my audiobook. I’m only half listening as the story is already half way through and I completely missed the beginning. However, there is a netflix show about it. So I may just watch that first and then get back to the book. I have issues! It’s five in the morning and I am sending out emails for work. I should be on the treadmill at this hour and not working for the man. Eventually, I get off line and get to the treadmill and walk for a few miles. I then have my breakfast outside as it is a beautiful morning. It’s in the seventies and just perfect for being outside. It’s just me and the birds out here.

At about eight thirty I’m back online and I’m feeling a bit sleepy. I have a meeting at nine on the dot, so I take my blanket, cover myself up and nap for a few minutes on my office chair. I fall asleep and wake up at five after nine. Oops! I quickly log on to the meeting and tell ]the team a white lie that I had to restart my system. After the meeting I actually had to restart the system as it became buggy and some of the programs stopped working. In the afternoon there were more and more last minute meetings. We learned about new items and new things that will be coming out in the coming year. What a day! In the evening the family goes out and I am not in the mood to leave the house. I opt to stay in. I want some peace and calmness. Also, I have bills to pay and planning to do for the weekend. Need to go to the bank, color my hair, take care of school things for the little one and I’m sure other things that I’m currently forgetting. Today, I take a photo in my bedroom/office during sunset and I have the sun gleaming in my eyeballs. Shortly after my photo shoot, I have dinner and then I am listening to the Elvis Duran Show from this morning and scrolling through my social media sites. I started getting cold so I take my warm blanket and wrap myself in it. I lay down on top of the bed for a little while, while listening to the outside noises since I turned the AC off and opened the windows in the bedroom. I was so cozy that I fell asleep for a bit while listening to the show. About an hour or so later I wake up and get myself ready to really go to bed by changing into my PJs and doing my nightly regiment. The family then comes home and I say good night to them and lay down in my comfy bed for some much needed rest.

Wellp, it’s now midnight whatta ya know, I am fully awake. Feels like I nap for a few hours and then wake up and am ready to go. Can’t seem to get myself a full eight hours straight of sleep. This is really going to make a difference with the skin underneath my eyes. All of this waking up every few hours is no good. This, ladies and gents is how one’s skin becomes very old looking very quickly. I’ve been using lotions and potions but nothing beats that full eight hours of beauty sleep. Probably going to go for that midnight snack again. I’m not hungry, but I could eat a little treat. We’ll see what is available in the kitchen for me to snack on. I settle for a banana and a cup of chocolate pudding. That hit the spot, if only for a little while. Hitting the sack and seeing how long I can last before waking back up again. So, I make it until five in the morning and that’s when I have to get up to use the facilities and of course, snack on some peanut butter. Not sure what to do now. Surf the net, get to the treadmill, lay back down and stare at the ceiling. Many possibilities! Surfed the web for a bit a I am working on a campaign for work for gamers to utilize my company’s equipment for their gaming needs. After a while I get back to bed and sleep until noon. I can’t believe I slept that much! As for today, I will be doing my hair and it will take all day. I first have to wash it and dry it. Then color it. After coloring there is the conditioning. I bought a new conditioner that needs to stay on the hair for about five minutes or so for it to do the work. It will take the entire afternoon in order to get all of this accomplished.

As I’m taking care of my hair I turn the bathroom into a mess. Got hair color all over the place. Some on the wall, some on the rug, some more on the floor. A bunch on my shirt and skin. Now I’m on my hands and knees cleaning up. I always take the rug out when I color my hair, but I completely forgot to do that today and of course, I get color on it. I scrubbed and scrubbed but it looks like the color may stay permanently on the rug. Feel like I’m a sloppy slob. I have made grave mistakes today lol. Another thing I’ve done today is put on Star Wars episode V as I’m doing my things, another mistake?! Didn’t realize the soundtrack to this movie is so over the top; pew, pew, pew! After a few hours of pampering, the below is the final result. And why, yes, that is road-runner on my t-shirt. This is a vintage shirt that I bought at six flags great adventure in New Jersey when I was in my teens or early twenties. I’ve got that vintage feeling this afternoon.

In the evening the family came back home and they brought me some ice cream. I had just had a plate of dinner and wasn’t hungry, and quite frankly didn’t have the room in my belly. So in the freezer it went tomorrow or who knows, maybe for later in the evening. I then go to the basement to pick up a few things for the house and my mother in law goes as well as she has somethings to do as well regarding laundry. At eleven in the evening, she decides that it is a great time to clean up some of my husbands older clothes that have been sitting in the basement for a few years. My husband has a lot of work clothing down there, and there are a lot that he hasn’t touched in a long time. So we looked at the clothes and their sizes and decided that they no longer fit him and that the clothes could go to good use. I place the in bags and will be donating them to the local church. We looked through all of the drawers and noticed bathing suits and other clothing as well that no longer fit and placed everything in large garbage bags in order for me to take to the donation bins. There is so much clothes that we were able to fill three bags with items that no longer fit him. Not sure why we’ve been accumulating so much. But now the area looks much neater and everything that is in the drawers, hanging up or folded in the area are all items that he can wear. And we won’t have to play scavenger hunt in order to pick out a shirt or pair of pants for him to wear. Tomorrow, I will tackle the drawers in the bedroom and see if I can empty out anything and make room for pieces that actually fit. Doing all of this work took a few hours and after that I had my appetite back. So, I sat on the couch and had myself the ice cream that they brought for me earlier this evening. The ice cream is a raspberry chocolate chip flavor with chocolate sprinkles on top. I had it all in one full swoop. So good! This was my midnight snack as today I decided that I would stay up later than usual and see the results of my sleeping pattern. Shortly after my evening snack I bid everyone good night and head to bed.

Well, my plan of going to bed later than my usual nine o’clock routine didn’t my pan out really well. I sill wake up in the middle of the night, at one o’clock in the morning this time. First off, I needed to head to the bathroom. After I eat ice cream I get very thirsty so I must have drank a bit too much water this evening. So now I am wide awake after using the facilities. Can’t win with this sleeping pattern being all over the place. Meanwhile, while I am awake, I am looking for a famous pizzeria in manhattan in the midtown area. We will need to go there in a couple of weeks to take care of paperwork and I’d like to go to a world famous NY style pizza joint. Been doing some research and the best places look like they are all the way up in the Bronx. Don’t want to travel all the way up there. Plus, is it safe to be there at this time of year?! I don’t know. I’d like to stay somewhere in midtown. in my comfort zone. May ask my facebook friends what they recommend and see what they have to say and then decide from there. After a while of doing my research I gave in and went ahead and had myself a midnight snack anyway. I eat some Portuguese treats that my husband brought home today. They are so yummy licious I had three of them. I had a pastel de nata and some other coconut flavored pastry. Probably not the best for my waist line, but oh well. Hopefully, making my belly full will help me to get some sleep. Luckily, having a full belly did help a bit, for at least a few hours. But, I’m up again at five in the morning. Think that’s it for today, sleep wise. I’ve been taking sleeping aids to help me to fall asleep and I can’t keep on doing that. One of these days I won’t be able to sleep at all without them. Will need to talk to my nurse practitioner about this issue I’m having. See what she recommends I do. She’s pretty flexible on telling me to take medicine. At one point one of the pharmacist warned not to take a few medicines together, but my NP told me that it would be ok and to go ahead and do it. As long as it is helpful and I am not jittery, it will be fine to mix them for now. So I follow her instructions and things were working out well for a long time. But now, now they aren’t working out so well any longer. I may need to get my medication adjusted again. Or maybe not and getting only five hours of sleep is ok for my body type and age. In the past I would need more hours than that because I would feel nauseous to my stomach if I didn’t get enough sleep. This is why I’ve been going to bed at nine in the evening and sleeping until seven or eight in the morning. Looking back, that’s a lot of hours for someone like me. Maybe my body has changed and I don’t need as much sleep anymore. Think I read somewhere that adults only need five to seven hours of sleep anyway. So I don’t know why I’m so worried. Anyway, I hope I can get an appointment next week with my NP and get to the bottom of this. As for today, I’m not sure what’s in store for me. There are some errands that I have to run such as going to the big box store, making product returns to other stores. Going to the grocery store for a couple of things the big box store doesn’t have. Banking. Oh and getting the flat tire on my daughters bike filled. I am off for a couple of days next week and I want to teach he how to ride. She’s had that bike in the garage for over a year and has only ridden on it a few times. She hasn’t touched it this year since the tire is flat. Daddy promised he was going to take care of the flat. But he fell flat on that promise. See what I did there? Anyway, my little one needs to learn how to ride like all of other kids her age. Since I have off, this will be an activity that we can do together. Hopefully I won’t get any comments from the peanut gallery about taking the precious one outdoors. Poor thing is always cooped up inside playing some sort of video game as entertainment and she’s getting hocked on the darn thing as she is always on when I see her during my lunch hour and after work. I know she does school work with grandma while I’m working but her off hours are always playing the game, roblox. I’ve see the game and it seems like the most boring thing ever. Don’t know why she likes is so much. Kids…am I right?! This morning, I decided that I’m going to purchase some dresses from our good old friends at amazon. I found a few really nice ones and added some to cart. Hopefully they will fit right and I will be able to wear them to work or church or wherever else I need to look a bit more presentable. After I wake up this morning, I go to the treadmill and walk for four miles, I’m in the zone today! After my workout, I eat my waffles like a fiend. I’m so hungry and my tummy is rumbling so much that I have four waffles with syrup and whipped cream on top, plus some coffee. Now I’m stuffed. I need to take a shower but I will wait for a little bit because my belly is so full from breakfast. Shortly after breakfast and showering I head out to the big box store. It opens early on Sundays, who knew, and I want to take advantage of going while there aren’t a lot of shoppers. Unfortunately, it is raining as I’m driving in to the store today. Bringing the items home is going to be a great big pain in the behind. Low and behold, it is still raining as I am bringing in the groceries to the house. I have to bring a few things at a time along with the umbrella so I wont get wet. I couldn’t get everything we need there from my grocery list, so I will have to go to the local grocery store to pick up the rest of the items needed. Towards the evening I am online adding items to card for my parents as they need home supplies and much needed underclothing. Sent an email to my siblings requesting method of payment. I can’t keep on paying for things out my own pocket for them. Especially home supplies. After doing that I head over to the basement and hand washed a few of my dresses that I’ve had an the closet for a long time and the white parts have turned yellow. And then did a bunch of cleaning up. My husband has clothing in drawers that haven’t fit him since before covid. I’ve placed them all in bags and will be donating them to the church along with the other items from that we collected the other night. I put the bags of clothing away in my car to take them away and I then get shopping. Went to amazon and purchased him a couple of pairs of pants and a few things for me as well. Since returns are as easy as going to kohls, I’m very comfortable purchasing from the site and returning to store. Plus, kohls than gives me a 25% off coupon to shop in their store. It’s a total win.

After a while the family comes back from their adventure and we have dinner together. My husband has his favorite, chinese food. And I have left overs that have been left in the fridge. My little on had already eaten something from mcdonalds and my mother in law wasn’t hungry. So it was a romantic dinner of me and my husband with plates on the table. After dinner we all play with the dog and roughhouse a bit with him and my husband has to be a bit alpha with him to ensure the dog knows who’s boss. The little guy can get really riled up and starts to nibble and at times bite a bit harder than he means to. We know he’s only playing but we need to ensure he knows not to go beyond a certain point. Shortly after I head to bed. I am not tired but I am starting to feel a bit cold and would love to be under the covers right about now.

Until next time.
Stay safe.
Best,
Isabel