It’s Monday morning and it’s the same routine. Wake up in the middle of the night and am having trouble getting back to sleep. Same old story different night. This morning I wake up at 7 with the alarm and then fall back asleep until my next and last alarm of 830. That’s when I really need to get up and at an to log on at 9 for work. Ahh , must scramble too het up and get ready for.my day.
By nine I’m procrastinating a bit, since I’m stilling a bit groggy from waking up later than I usually do. I get going nice and slow and try to see if I can get a bit of myself going. By then I’m pausing and taking care of shopping lists for both ourselves and my parents. I’m looking at grocery coupons and adding items to a list for next week. After finishing that I tackle a project that we are working on for next month.
Doring my lunch hour I head over to the cleaners to pick up clothes. But they weren’t all ready, so I’ll have to go back again this week to pick up the rest of the clothing items. I then passed by a food pantry to drop off the three bottles of honey mustard we didn’t like and I couldn’t return back to the store. I offered it to my parents but, duh it honey in it. Maybe not the best for someone with diabetes. Instead of tossing it in the garbage, I went to my local church and places it in an adorable food pantry created by the boys scouts.
I then head over to the grocery store and buy a roticiry chicken for the dog. The poor thing has been having diareah and not feeling so great, health wise. My mother in law cooked him a pan of rice and we mixed in the chicken for him to eat for his belly to feel better. I hope he does get better, otherwise we have a walk in appointment ser up for him for tomorrow morning at 8 in the morning, before work.
My next stop was the pharmacy. They have one of the scripts available for me to pick up and a months supply is costing me fifty bucks. And it’s the generic brand. Don’t know how these insurance company’s and pharmaceutical agencies get off and have people pay so much money for scripts. Here you go pharmaceutical, take all of my money. Bastards!
It’s Tuesday and I wake up later than I had planned. Woke up all groggy and in a bad mood. Then was in an even worst mood because I woke up so groggy. Vicious cycle! The day is really busy with work and meetings and phone calls to doctors offices. I barely had time to eat. I however put on a dress that was made by my aunt way back in the 1960s for my mom. I don’t think she was my aunt yet, but simply my mom’s friend. Who then happened to have married my uncle. It’s a very pretty dress and well made. It’s lasted all of these years.
In the evening, the time flies and it’s nine o’clock at night without me even noticing the time go by. I am moody and feeling nauseous and worst of all, I’ve been having insomnia and can’t just seem to be able to sleep. I toss and turn all night long. Always waking up at two in the morning and then again at four. Then by seven in the morning I’m all groggy and can’t seem to shake off this terrible cycle. Getting very annoyed at this old routine.
It’s now midnight and I’ve decided I’m going to give my husband a break and slwp on the couch as opposed to waking him up every couple of hours when I’m in bed.He’s been getting cranky because I keep on waking him up. And I don’t want to see him cranky anymore. So the couch it is, just for tonight. We’ll see how it work out for everyone.
Holly batman’s underpants, wokin on this site is a pain in the but just to add a few photos. First it was cutting them in half then placing text in the middle of my face. I find it much easier to use wordpress on my laptop than on mobile. Is it just me or am I old and can only work on the large screen?
Now that I’ve been able to get a couple of hours of sleep, it is four in the morning and I am fully awake. And, then the entire family is up too helping my husband get ready for his work day. Even the my daughter gets out of bed this morning and we are all hanging out in the kitchen and living room areas. Shortly after, I bid everyone my goodbye and go to my room to see if I can get some more, much needed sleep. I even have nighttime ambient sounds playing on YouTube so my mind can rest. Unfortunately, it’s no use, I keep on waking up. I then am itchy and put on an ton of eczema cream on my arms where I havr my breakout. I then get itchy all over and took a Benadryl to eliminate my body. By five was when I was actually able to get much needed rest. Undortuntely I woke up all groggy again at 8:30 in the morning. Good thing I’m working from home today otherwise I would have been very late to work.
My workday was busy, busy. Meeting here, meeting there..tons of emails going back and forth with upper management. Lots of concerts of dealers leaking information on ap roduct that wsd launching later in the day and they were leaked hours earlier than my company planned on launching it. The team is very upset about this and does not want to show this particular dealw or next launching peoduct. We don’t want any information being leached out prior to or scheduled date. Much drama at work regarding this issue and I can’t blame them. We plan and plan for a reason. And there comes along dealer who breaks the rules. This is no good.
The next day it is a busy vere day again. Have many things that need to be completed. Some items I need to have to concentrate on many little details that my eyes start to cross. And I have to send the items over to my cowrker as a second set of eyes.
Then it come the time that my poor daughter has what we think is a uti. I call the doctor for an appointment to check what the problem may be. And the shit the fan where it is insinuating that I was the one who caused this issue. Since I go to my parents house to clean their house especially their bathrooms so they don’t catch any UTI’s themselves. As they are older, in their 80s and can’t really do for themselves any longer. This insinuation throws me off the edge as my parents have been called dirty in the past as of they are a bunch of pigs. This bitch needs to watch her mouth before I go off on her for calling my family a a bunch of dirt pigs. My biggest regret is to confide in this asswhole about me having to do what I do to help my elderly parents a bunch of pigs. Who does this bitch thing she is talking like that especially in front of my daughter. Now my daughter stays runs away from me because she thinks I’m going to give her diseases since this bitch keeps on talking like this in front of her. I never in my life thought that my child would run away from me because she thinks I’m dirty and doesn’t want my dirt and so called diseases to be on her. I have no relationship with my daughter due to this kind of conversations in front of her. This bitch puts the scare of jesus on her and she is so little and easily influenced by this kind of talk. And her father is no better, he too talks about my parents’ hygiene and how they are also the dirty kind of people. Now. Don’t get me wrong my parents are old and my brothers and I have been having a hard time with their hygiene they are very tired and at times don’t want to shower because of the pain. They have moving around. However when we can, and they have a bit more energy we convince them to get in the shower. Meanwhile, I got their house every weekend to ensure their house is clean and bleach the hell out of it to the point of where I get high on the fumes. Then, and only the doing use the facilities if I need to. But to be frank I’ve work so hard and sweat my ass off so hard that I barely need to use the bathroom I sweat so much. And now I have a scumbag insinuating that it is my fault that my daughter gets sick because of the diseases I allegedly bring into my. I am so pissed off at these insinuations that I don’t even want to look at her face. So today I stay in my room all day. First off for work and the because if I see her face I’m going to want to punch this bich in her face go for having the nerve to insinuate that I bring diseases into my own home and transmit them to my family. What a piece of shit this woman is. I’m so disgusted by her and her assumptions.
So in interim I do what I do best and bury myself into my work and continue to work until about nine in the evening and then go to bed without saying good night to my daughter and telling her that her mom loves her more than anything in this world. It is due to her that I kept on going through all of my depression and thoughts of suicide and divorce. And now whith this awful woman putting terrible thoughts on a very young impretionable mind, she’s scared of me. I feel very disappointed and quite frankly confiding in her with my issues has been a big mistake. As she thinks she is high and mighty. Turns out she is slimy a bitch who likes to throw weaknesses in other peoples faces. Two faced snake that she is. Meanwhile she thinks she is a saint and doing us favors by claiming she’s a realist. Realist on what, telling me that my family from infancy is not good and no good for my daughter to be around and not have a relationship with her maternal grandparents.
Now don’t you worry because this will be in my memory bank and when this awful woman gets to be in her 80s and beyond and she will be much like my parents she will be treated the exact same way. As she has been treating my parents. Mark my word. Those who laugh last will laugh the loudest.
To change the subject as I’ve had enough of my rant about this piece of shit of a person. I’ve been very curious about my grandparents from my mom’s side of the family. I’ve sent a quick message to one of my cousins to see if she has any insight. It’s a shame that I don’t even know my grandparents’ character or even remember my their names. As for my grandmother, she passed awaywhen my mother was very young. From my understanding, it was my mother who who found her in the atticalredy deceased. I’m curious to understand what really happened. And why she passed in such a way also what she paeed away from. My mother has never really talked about it and I can understand. It must have been very traumatizing for her. Undortuntely, I won’t ask her husband because he likes talk tall tails and as years have passed by, I don’t believe much of what he says as he is very negative and only speaks of things that are sound to me as if he’s a gods gift to this earth. Although he forgets that all children are God’s gift.
Well it is now midnight and I’m having insomnia again. Unfortunately, I have run out of my my prescribed sleeping pills and am having a hard time getting some much needed shut eye. Will try something else to see if I can get my beauty sleep.
It’s Friday and I am tired and achy and generally plainly still pissed off. Work has been very, very busy and I feel like I’m having trouble keeping up. With my insomnia and now feeling like crap, back and head are achy. I’m fell like I’m crashing and burning. There is a meeting at two in the afternoon and I have officially crashed. Thank goodness it is being recorded so I may watch it later on, maybe over the weekend. The other meeting that I have is a complete disaster. I am unprepared and can’t seem to get myself together. After this disaster of a meeting I have another one that goes on way past five o’clock. I’m still out of it but trying very hard to concentrate on what is being talked about. I need to look through my notes and am afraid of what I will be looking at.
Now it is Sunday morning at three in the morning and I can’t sleep. I’ve already gone to the bathroom and had a few midnight snacks. Perhaps I ate too much to eat as I am feeling a bit nauseous. I eventually fall asleep and wake up at around nine thirty.
I get out bed and feel all sorts of cranky. My body aches, my brain hurts, and my soul is simply down in the dumps. However, I have responsibilities that I must take care of and went ahead and did what I needed to do. Go to the big box store for my purchases. Curbside pickup. Living this service. They do the shopping for you and you just sit pretty in the car and wait. No tip required. At least not yet, waiting for the day that it will be required.
It’s Monday and I wake up at midnight, like I’ve been doing these last couple of weeks. I’ve been told that I wake up the entire house when I get out of bed to snack or pee or whatever. I must make a lot of noise as I’m up and about in the middle of the night. The family has requested that I put a stop to my insomnia. As if one can stop their insomnia, just like that. I will however, do my best to stay in my little corner and not move about. I’ve decided to place some snacks at my bedside table and not drink anything past a certain hour.
At two in the morning get up then go back to bed and sleep until about ten in the morning. Today I have taken the day off and can sleep till noon, but it’s eight and I don’t wanna stay in bed any longer. During the day I am busy with cleaning up some clothing that no longer fit and placing them in bins to place them in the basement for later on in life, or simply collect dust and take up room…whatever comes first. In the afternoon, I receive some packages in the mail and they are articles of clothing from amazon. One of them is a dress for the winter time.
I try them all on and they fit well, especially around my stubborn belly area, so I am keeping them all.
Today, I also figured out how to connect a large monitor to my laptop so now I have two screens to work with. So excited about this! All I need is another outlet and we’re in business. Another thing I do today is try to find shoes for my daughter for school. They wear a particular type and brand of shoe and they are all sold out online everywhere I’ve looked. Found a similar pair on amazon, but the delivery date is a month from now. What a bummer.
Another adventure I’m planning is to find a place for lunch when when we go into the city in a few weeks. Looking for a pizzeria that has some good yummy NY style pizza. Placed a post on my FB feed to ask my friends what they recommend. I’ve also messaged a few friends directly. These friends have worked or currently work in the city, and ask for their opinion on where to go and grab a good tasting NY slice.
Ugg, it’s now midnight and I wake up again. Already had my midnight snack, that is on my bedside table, and watched me an episode of Downton Abbey. Thought Netflix had the movie, turns out, it’s just the show. But it’s cool, love the show and will watch it again. I’m seeing things that I missed the first time around. After an hour or so, I had to get up and walk around and used the facilities. I can’t use my laptop became it wakes everyone up. I feel like it’s nonsense and feel like I should just move out so I can be free and do what I want in the middle of the night. And what I want is to be able to move about whenever I please. If they’re upset that I wake them up, them put yourself in my shoes and have yourself some insomnia and feel what I feel. Most nights I cannot sleep and have energy to move around. I’ll need to ask my NP for her advise on how to proceed and get rid of this can’t get no sleep business.
It’s Tuesday morning and I have much, much to do. First, I drop off some clothes at the donation bin at my local church.
Donation bins for St. Vincent de Paul
Then, I drive over to the bank. After, I head over to the big box store and pick up items, curbside. Now, this was an interesting experience. I had to download the app for the store and check in via the app. But then I had to call the store anyway. So, downloading the app for checking in was a complete waste of space used on my phone. Once my check in was settled, the store worker guy came over to the car with my items in a shopping cart and I packed the items in the car and then went on my merry way.
Meanwhile, I called my parents church to see if they were able to provide food for them for the week. They did, so I dove over to them and picked up meals for my parents to have for the week. So, I get to their house and take a look at their fridge and notice it is practically empty. There is no milk or bread. No yogurts or fruit nor anything else they would eat. There is also a jar of tomato sauce that had expired two months ago and it already had mold growing in it. This made me very angry. I went to the store for them just last weekend and now there is nothing in their fridge for them to eat. Plus, I am now told that my brother was there the night before. Does he not look at what they need? Does this guy seriously just come over, close his eyes and not notice these people don’t have anything in the fridge. I took a photo of the empty fridge and am saving it for later in order to send out a nastygram to my siblings.
After leaving my parents house I go on over to another store for curbside pickup. This one took a while as they took a long time to come out with the products and then there was an item missing. And I had to wait some more for the worker guy to get the missing item. All the while, I used my waiting time to clean my car. I have car cleaning wipes and go to town while I wait for the order to be right.
I then head over to our local Arby’s to get food for the family for dinner. I pick up a bunch of meals to bring them home and feed the family. But before I go home, i have one more chore to do. I pass by the dry cleaners and drop off a bag of items to be cleaned. Finally, I get home and we have our Arby’s take out for dinner. After we eat, the family then goes out for a drive and I stay home and put the groceries away. I have energy left in me, and place clothing that no longer fit my husband in a bin and transfer that bin down to the basement next to all of the other clothing that is being stored down there.
Ugh working on this mobile as opposed to working from a desktop on this blog is much different an a bit annoying to get used to. Especially at midnight when I can’t sleep. He complains that the light from the laptop monitor bothers his beauty sleep.
Tonight I am very disappointed in my brother. He had the time to go visit our parents and take the old man out to dinner but not have the time to go to the grocery store an make purchases for the week for them. Don’t understand the plan here. What? Is he waiting for me to do all the work. Or maybe he’s waiting for the food fairies to get the work done. Real piece of work this guy. Who the fuck in their right mind leaves two old people in a state like this? Check out this fridge. It’s got a few slices of bread. Old tomato sauce. A pan with burnt rice and beans, a carton of eggs and onions. Now tell me this…what are they going to do with a bag of onions since they no longer have the capacity to cook meals. Unbelievable!
Trying my hardest to not think about it too much today. Every time I do think about the empty fridge it brings up all of these emotions of wanting to strangle someone. I don’t understand what trying we as the children are trying to accomplish here. To let them die of starvation or depression, or boyh?! I really don’t get it. I’ll have, of course do the leg work and head to the store and get them groceries. And you’d think the old people would make a phone call to let one of us know they were low on food, but nope. They sit there waiting for the food fairies. I’m surrounded by crazy.
It’s now Wednesday and I wake up, again, at midnight. I really need to get in touch with my NP to update my medicine. Unfortunately, I can’t can not seem get be able to get in touch with her. I’ve called, texted, left messages and nothing. #frustrating. Today is another day off from me for work and I am on a mission.
This morning I head over to the big box store and pick up groceries and other much needed items for my parents. I then go over to their house and am ready to take care of business. I put the groceries away and then start taking care of laundry as it takes forever to get all of the clothes, sheet and other items that need to be washed. Just today, I did five loads of laundry. The bed’s duvet cover also needed to be washes as it was dirty and smelled really bad of sweat. As well as a couple of rugs. Plus, clothing and towels. As the laundry was going, I cleaned their bathrooms. I bleached them down like it was nobody’s business. Then, on to the kitchen. Cleaned the counters, swiped the floor and then cleaned it with detergent and a mop. I also cleaned up the floor with clean water because the floor is always sticky and I don’t know if it’s because of the particular detergent that is used or what, but it’s always gross. Anyway, I didn’t want it sticky so, with plain water, I cleaned again. I then notice there is correspondence and lots of it. Before it gets lost of placed away in a “safe” place where we’ll never see it again. I sent text messages to my brother including photos of the correspondence. There was lots of texts. I must have sent about ten messages, including multiple phots in each message. All the while I am going up and down the stairs to take care of the laundry. I must have lost about 10 pounds today doing all of this work. I still wanted to get a bunch of other things done, such as vacuum the house and do some yard work. I even took my little weed wacker, boots and gloves so I could take care of the outside overgrowth. But the time passed by so quickly that I barely had time to eat lunch. I one point, I had to force myself to stop at around three in the afternoon in order to eat my sandwich. All the while, all I saw was my parents snacking on the items that I brought home to them. They didn’t eat a decent lunch nor dinner. Just snacked all day long. They’re like little kids, they will only so what they want and not so the right thing for themselves. By eight o’clock I had had enough and had call it a day and leave. There is still much left to do but I also have my own family to tend to. So away I go.
Me, working my a$$ off today in Medford, NY
After I left their house I passed by the store as I had a hair item to return. And of course I found a replacement for said hair item with a volumizing type. My hair has been very limp lately and it needs a product that will give it body. I purchase a spray that should do jut that. I will try it tonight after my shower and will see if it works.
So, the hair product feels like it is made out of tea tree oil or a mint type of ingredient as it felt like it burned my scalp a for a bit. And I’m not liking it. Will need to return this one.
Shortly after my bath the family came home and I finally had dinner. MIL made baked potatoes with salmon and a sauce that she calls a Spanish sauce. It is a cold sauce that has onions, salsa, olive oil, white vinegar and a few other raw ingredients. I really enjoy having it with baked potatoes.
So, it’s midnight again, and I am bright eyed and bushy tailed. I’d like to go on my laptop and type this blog there, but the light apparently bothers my husband, so I’m writing this on my phone and spelling everything incorrectly. I’m better and faster on my keyboard. But desperate times ask for desperate measures and the phone it is.
Thinking of having a midnight snack of peanut butter and Nutella. I so desperately need to get on that treadmill to get rid of these midnight snacking calories. Anyway, I find it funny that me being on my laptop and the light being too bright is very funny to me.
My husband has on his earbuds on all night and listens to something and there is also a video playing and therefor light, right underneath his eyeballs from his phone. It’s funny how me doing my thing bothers him, but him disturbing me with his phone is apparently no big deal. Hippocrate much? Let me stop myself here, so I don’t say something I’ll regret, and have some peanut butter.
Today is a very busy day. I got up with the seven o’clock alarm had my breakfast and for straight to work I go. I don’t have many meetings today so I can look through my four hundred emails that have accumulated curing my time off. A lot of them are trash and junk mail which are deleted right away. Other, are important and need to be followed up on. I am busy all day working on answering these emails. Oh what fun! Only joking, it’s a pain in the a$$.
On our last meeting of the day, my boss asks me to be the lead on a particular project. How exciting am I right? Problem is, I really didn’t understand the assignment. This is what I got… I have to count skus and what the team did with them. It doesn’t even make since while I’m writing it. I will have bite the bullet and ask for clarification for the assignment. Even though I yesses the boss to death, I’ll need to backpedal and ask again what needs to be done.
This afternoon one of the dresses that I ordered from amazon came in and I think it looks just fine. Not tight and nice and loose in all the right areas. I really like it and it is comfortable.
It is absolutely a summer dress due to it vibrant colors. But I really like it. It reminds me of a lily Pulitzer piece. With its pattern and colors. I also purchased a bracelet that I fell in love with which I am wearing in the picture below. It is a thick gold plated bracelet with a charm right in the middle. The way that it closes is much like a watch, it has notches in order to adjust it to your liking. Saw it online as I was searching for a good lunch charm to give to my daughter for the upcoming school year and this beauty came up. I showed to my MIL and she is also enchanted by the design. She also wants one for herself. So I bought one for her as well. It’s really pretty and I love it.
During my non sleeping hours last night, I found that Victoria’s Secret now has a specific underwear for when one has her period. I immediately add a pair to cart, but notice that for free shipping you have to purchase one hundred dollars worth of merchandise. So I think, do I really need this? And the answer is no. I will wait until the underpants I have already become no good and I’ll make my purchases then. But, I am very happy they finally have such an option for women. Since I’ve been adding a lot of items to cart on amazon an other sites. I feel like my husband will team up on me an ask if I really need to spend all that money on something that that I already have plenty of. The underpants are a bit on the pricier side, about $17 per pair. But most likely worth the investment.
Oh dear it, it’s now midnight and I need to get out of bed and pee again. I’ll see how longer I can hold it before walking over to the bathroom. I don’t think I can hold it for that long. Ok, so I go and use the facilities and doesn’t seem like anyone woke up because of me. Now I’m going to take more sleeping medicine as I can’t seem to be able to get some shut eye. Tomorrow is another fun filled day and I need my rest. All right, going to try and sleep now. Good night!
Nope, still not sleepy so here’s a list of some things that I purchased. At marshalls I purchased some hair products for volumizing as well as moisturizing for split ends. I gotta say, the volumizing spray isn’t really doing it for me. It leaves my scalp tingling. It’s either made with mint or tea tree oil or some other minty feeling product. It’s also made with castor oil, so not sure how that’s going to give volume if it has an oil base. May now have to return that one back to the store. I will try it one more time by using the product along with the blow-dryer and see if it gives me the volume I’m looking for. Ok, sleep now!
It’s now Friday at two on in the morning and I’m awake again. Seems like all I can do nowadays is nap for a few hours and then wake up, snack, drink water and then wait until sleep comes to me again. At this rate, I’m gonna turn into a whale if this snacking at midnight business keeps up. Walking on the treadmill every other day or so is not going to cut it eating like this.
This morning we have a meeting at nine o’five. The team member didn’t want to have a nine sharp meeting with us. Said she didn’t want to be that kind of person lol. At ten, eleven and twelve I have more meetings. Have to prepare for some of them and just listed to others. However, I have a bunch of slides that I must take care of that I’m a bit lost on what exactly I must do. Seems like I have to plan exactly what to do for the rest of the year. But I’m not exactly sure if this is correct.
For lunch, I am calling a slew of company’s. Doctors offices’ and insurance company. And all of these places are all out to lunch until one in the afternoon. WTF this is the time that office people have the time to contact these company’s. I now have to take time during work hours to contact the doctor’s office and be on hold for ten minutes, meanwhile, I have meetings to attend to at those hours. Meanwhile, I’m looking at the Walmart store to see if I can find a product that will take out hard water stains from the toilet at my parents house. I’ve scrubbed and scrubbers, with a variety of products and the stains continue. I’ve asked my FB friend if they have recommendations for products for the job and I’ve received a few food tips. I found one of the items at Walmart and have placed it in the shopping cart for future purchase. Another item I need is something to take out rust stains. The kitchen sink is starting to show some rust and I’d like to take it now before it gets worst. Going to try coconut oil as that works on rust at times and I have plenty of it to use as i have a large jar that I used to use on my hair as a trestmemt. I understand one can also do some cooking with this oil, but I’ve never tried. What I do is it on is on stainless items to keep them from rusting. I also use the oil in my own bathroom to protect the lighting fixtures and curtain rod. And other steel items. Hey, it’s been working so far. I will keep on putting the oil on those objects.
In the evening I take a job that I’ve wanted to do for a long time. To clean the upholstery fabric on my Victorian chair. I purchase a product tha is recommend by multiple websites and sprayed away. Also bought a brush to scrub the fabric as the stains have been there for a long time. So I spayed and scrubbed. Waited a while then sprayed again and scrubbed. I did not see a difference at all. I then used a steamer that we have on the worst spots and still nothing. The worst parts are the arms of the chair as they are darker than the rest of the fabric of the chair. Plus, the fabric is well worn out. I always place a blanket over the worst spot so I won’t see my beautiful chair falling apart.
As for work, I am having trouble coming up with marketing ideas for a launching camera. The boss wants our ideas for marketing the product and I am having what feels like writer’s block. Can’t think of anything catchy for a campaign. This new product is an improvement on two other products that we currently have on the market. The difference are theimporyant details of the specs. Since I’m no pro, these specs all seem similar to me. I’m wrecking my brain trying to figure out what pain points this new item will resolve for the pro photographers. I’m coming up with basically nothing spectacular. I was working on this until about midnight tonight. Taking breaks in between of course otherwise I’d go bananas.
Its two in the morning and here I am again awake. I don’t know what else to do about this insomnia that I keep o my having. I nap, wake up l, them nap some more. I also keep on taking medicine all night long for sleeping. This is probably not a good idea. However, we will figure it out when I finally have an appointment with her by NP. I’ve been trying to reach her for a couple of weeks now and I haven’t received any communication back from her. Called the office multiple times, left multiple messages. Also called and texted the Dr directly and not getting any answer. Starting to get worried because I’m running low on some of my medicines. And I need them to function properly.
Stay I get up eventually T seven in the morning. Has planned on going to my parents house to help with cutting overgrowth of plants in the front yard. However I started my day with a project where I’m working for the man! Creating an newsletter for our dealers informing them of a new url launching in the coming months. Since my husband I a wordsmith, I ask him doe his advise about the creative item I had just put together. This token a while as he had a lot of comments on the phrasings and images I used as examples on the entire creative. Made lots of changes to the original creative.
Then I procrastinated for a while. I did some shopping online for my folks. Got cleaning supplies, pjs, inderclothing, roundup for clearing up the front pathways. And a few other items they need for the house. I placed all of the orders online to pick up in store. This searvice is great. You don’t need to leave your car, they come to you with your items and even place then in the trunk for me. So I would have to waste hours in the store looking for items. It’s a great time saver. Along in the comfort of you car for less than half hour. Don’t need to be around other people either.
After I was done with my procrastination, I headed over to my a couple of store to pick up some supplies, then headed over to my parents’ house to so some yard work. They have much overgrowth in their front yard and I was ready with my weedwacker, roundup and a bucket o’bleach. I should have taken a before photo to see the results. Oh well, next time. Meanwhile, my brother shows up with his kids to help out with the cleanup. As they were removing tall weeds I was bleaching the entryway. The pavers need to be power washed as they have turned moldy. Plus, there are a bunch of weeds growing in between the pavers. So, I clean them with a bucket of bleach and water. Then sprayed week killer on them suckers. Well are what it looks like next weekend on my next visit. Rotten luck would have it that the are were my brother an nephew were wore working on, must have had an underground bee or wasp nest. He and his wife got stung. By something and then the cleaning party was all over. Everybody ran inside the house to get away from the bees. While we were inside I kept in working. There are a few areas that have rust stains and I was having a hard time cleaning them up. Used all sorts of detergents, baking soda, vinegar, tons of scrubbing and elbow grease, you make it, but nothing worked. Saw a product called old Iro Out and whatta you know.l, it worked. Took some time for it to seep in, and some scrubbing, but it did the trick. Check it out.
Next is the carpet in my parent’s room. That one is really bad. There are spill stains everywhere and other random stains that I don’t want to even talk about. I also brought a carpet cleaner and a brush. Sprayed th hell out the floor and let it sit for a while. Then for on my hands and knees and started a scrubbing party with my trusty scrub brush. The majority of the stains came up, but some of the older ones did not. The carpet need a shampooing or quite frankly, it needs replacing. It was an original light brown color and now it has turned a light shade of gray. But so have the other rooms minus all of the stains. Next cleaning the hard water out of the toilet bowl in the main bathroom. Used a material that had all the, get you high fumes. Left it on to so it’s thing for a little while, then scrubbed, but the hard water stain didn’t keep out. Will have to use the pumice stone next time as it was getting late and I needed to get home to my own family.
When I got home, I took a much needed shower. Just to get the negativity out of me, as well as I was sweating my behind off while doing those chores. So a shower is definitely needed. We then watched some random action figure movie. Don’t remember the name nor do I care. Some of them I like watching, but most I couldn’t care less. Shortly after it is bedtime.
Its Sunday and I need to head out to the big box store,but I also have a to of yard work to do at the house. So, I was multitasking. Placing in the cart on the app while getting my gear to head outside an get cleaning. The big box store has cilurbside pick up, so I scheduled it for 6pm. This will give me plenty of time to get what I need done at the house. I I weedwacked the back yar. As the batteries were charging, I am cleaning the cement patio with a big fat industrial broom that I borrowed from my husbands.woek truck. Once the patio is all swept I get back to the weeds. There’s so many spots that it can become overwhelming. But I progressed and took care of a lot. Especially the weeds around the house where the dog usually runs around on.
By five or so it was time to pause and get my car washed. The thing is filthy and has a.rom of black spots…looks like mold. I get the car cleaner out but that doesn’t clean out anything. I decide that dish detergent was.was going to be the way of getting those black dots out. So, dish detergent, a sponge and lots of scrubbing. And watta you know, the spots came out. I niced some of the same spots on the doors so, I went ahead and did the same. Dish detergent and sponge. Dis the trick hopefully doing this didn’t scratch the paint. It is now six in the evening and I am done. Both more qprkp please. So I sit on one of the chairs in the backyard and relax a bit. I take off my boots and socks and put on my flip flops. Then started putting everything away an that is when the family came back home. I told them I stilll needed to get to the big box store as I received had a message that my order is ready of be picked up.
It’s Monday and like most Mondays of recent, I wake up at two in the morning and then can’t get back to sleep. This early morning I have been looking through twitter and reading all about our covid variants and how much worst they are than the original. Scary! I’ve also read through NYFW and see all of the new trends that are coming back from y2k. The thin eyebrows are back so my eyebrows are back in business. I did try to grow them out for a while, but they just became a bushy mess and turned them right back to the slimmer look that I’ve had a for a while. I then went on to my other social media platforms in order to see if they could lull me to sleep. But nothing! Today must be one of those days that I will be awake from two AM on. I haven’t gone to the kitchen yet to get a midnight snack, I think all of these midnight snacking is making my belly bulge out and it plainly needs to stop. I may need to eat a bit more during the day. More protein and less calories. We have protein bars at the house, but they fill me up way too much and I feel a bit sick after eating one of them. Maybe I’ll just have half of one and leave the other half for a different day. I just don’t want the thing to be stale and taste even more like cardboard than it already does. Today, for work, I have a full plate starting at ten in the morning. I have a meeting with my coworker and then another slew of meetings. This is great, it will keep me nice and busy for the entire day. It will also keep my mind out of stupid things from what happened over the weekend with my parents. If you’re interested, take a look at last weeks blog and skip right on over to my Saturday and Sunday. It’s always on the weekends that I get sh*t thrown at me. During the week I am working hard for the man and am all sorts of happy about it, but then the infancy family has to ruin it all. So… since I have bee awake for this long the plan is to get something to eat as my tummy is rumbling and then get onto the treadmill and walk a few miles this morning. If I get the courage, I may even run for a little while. But only after I eat something. When I feel like my belly is rumbling I force myself eat something. Since I am in the basement all by myself doing my exercises I fell like I may pass out and fall. Then no one will find me until the end of the day. I feel like I would rot in the basement all by myself until my husband comes home at five or six in the afternoon. At which point I may be dead, or have treadmill marks all over my face and body. Either way, it will not be a pretty site. Thinking on having English muffins before I head down to the treadmill. Or maybe some toast with butter. Either way, they will be smothered in butter. Dry bread is not for me, especially in the morning. Before heading to the treadmill, I am answering messages from linked in from a few dear friends that I’ve neglected for a few weeks. For some wild reason am in a good mood this morning and want to use this good mood to spread the wealth to others. Well…this good mood thing was short lived. I had to make a few phone calls before work started and that made me just plainly exhausted. By nine in the morning I was no longer in a happy mood. Wasn’t in a bad mood but was not in that peppy mood any longer. I had a meeting with my coworker at ten and I felt like I had just been hit with a brick. I could no longer pay attention to the meetings that were going on. After that long meeting it was lunch time and I decided to take a nap during my lunch hour. While I was napping the doorbell rang and woke me up. It was my mother in law coming in with the dog. She advises me there was a package outside from amazon. I get out the sanitizing wipes and wipe down the box and brought it inside. I am still sleepy so I place the package in the office and get back to bed. It’s days like these that I am glad that I am working from home, so I can take a nap on my own bed. I don’t have any more meetings this afternoon and I am dragging a$$. I feel really tired and just simply down and out. This weekend took a toll on me and I am still feeling it. I wish I had more energy today, but it doesn’t look like I’ll be having anything any time soon. There is a meeting on my calendar for four thirty, I thought it was going to be cancelled, but it continues to be on the darn calendar. I really hope that I don’t have this meeting. I have nothing to say for today. Finally, the email came through to cancel the meeting. Thank goodness as I am not in the mood to talk to anyone right now. I really hope that tomorrow is a better day for me. Because today has been a complete washout. I hate feeling like this, as if I’ve accomplished nothing. In the evening, we have dinner and then the family goes out as I have a lot of work to catch up on. I stay back and take yet another nap and the time passes by quickly. Before I know it, it is nine in the evening and they have come back from their excursion. Meanwhile, I am trying to work on my email and it craps out on me. I need to restart my system and do it all over again. Ugg, today!
Well hello Tuesday! It’s Tuesday and it’s three in the morning. Of course I am awake and ready to get my day started. I may just get down to the treadmill again this morning again, at a decent hour, of course. Who knows what the day may bring. Yes, I am still in a mood from the weekend’s events and I just can’t seem to be able to kick it out of my brain as it keep on playing over and over and over in my head. My heart is broken and I am working my hardest to place some of the pieces back together. This may be why I keep on waking up every morning at the wee hours of the morning and not being able to sleep a full eight hours as I should. I instead keep on taking medicine to calm my nerves and it’s affecting my day to day work. It’s making me groggy and slow to the punch. Also, I feel like I’m not getting things done like I’m supposed to in a timely fashion. This makes me nervous for my job. I keep on writing down notes of what needs to be done, and good thing I do because everything is going in one ear and out the other. Coming back to my notes has been godsent. Yesterday, however, was a bit of a washout. I couldn’t concentrate and just could not get my things done. As much as I tried, my brain was cloudy and I simply couldn’t get it done. Today, I will need to backpaddle and figure out exactly what it is that I will need to accomplish. I hate feeling like this. It’s one of those lingering feelings where I keep on thinking and thinking about the same rotten conversations and they ruminate in my head. As much medicine I take to numb the thoughts, everything else numbs too and I can not get through my day like normal. I keep on waking up at the early hours in the morning and then can’t get myself to fall back asleep. I should probably start my work day now and see what I can get done. But my brain is too much of a mush to get anything accomplished. I should instead, get back into bed and try to rest for a little while longer. But who am I kidding?! All I will be doing is looking through my social or listening to an audiobook, or both at the same time. And in essence not paying attention to either of them. I hate having these feelings. I feel like I just cant kick them out of my mind. They keep playing over and over in my mind like old tapes. The worst part of all of this is that my new job now requires me to have to deal with a whole lot of people and having to put on a happy face and I am not happy. Good thing there are teams and zooms calls and I can see my face and notice when I’m starting to droop. That’s when I automatically make myself perk up and put on a smile. As fake as it is, it is still there for others to see. They can probably see right through it, but hey, I’m giving it my best shot here. So I get back to bed and sleep until eight thirty. I wanted to get to the treadmill but must have overslept through all of the five alarms I have. I slept during lunch yesterday and slept in the evening and now slept all the way through the morning hours. What in the world is wrong with me? I probably need a mental healthy day. Can’t wait until next week. I have a few days off from work and I need the mental health days for myself. I still can’t believe I slept through all of those alarms this morning. Right before work I head down to the treadmill and run for about a mile and then walk a bit to cool down. I then head back to the bedroom/office as I have a very long meeting that I need to attend to, but just to listen in and not particularly participate in. Not gonna lie, but I was kinda falling asleep during this meeting. It’s not that it was boring. I’ve just been having trouble with my sleep and I am all off. So when they were talking about one of our competitors and how one of their products compares to ours, I was dozing off. Oops! Luckily I wasn’t called upon to give any feedback.
After the meeting, it’s lunch time and I head out to the bank to get some cash as I need it for my wallet. After lunch there are more meetings and I don’t get to do anything today. I have a request to put through and haven’t done it yet. In the evening I have a doctors appointment at five thirty and I also have a meeting that ends at five thirty. I had to send a message to the doctor to let them know I was going to be a few minutes late. I race to the doctor and got there in ten minutes. It should have taken about twenty. After the doctor I head on over to the store and make a couple of returns. I then do some shopping. I purchase a couple of dresses that I like and I take them home. As I’m driving home I see a beautiful sunset. I get closer to the farm that is near the house and I pull over to take a photo. Wish I would of had my real camera to take a couple of photos, I’m sure they would have made a wonderful framed photo.
After my photo shoot I get home and no one is there. I have dinner by myself once again. That’s ok, they have gone out to for a drive and play pokemonGo and I am not interested. I then am trying my hardest to fall asleep and am not able to. I am way too awake to lay down. So I am watching Cruella and surfing the net until I feel sleepy. It’s eleven and I’m still scrolling through buzzfeed. So far I’ve found about ten products that I’d like to purchase to make my life easier. But I’m frugal, so I won’t add them to cart. I’ve also drank about two bottles of water and continuously need to be heading over to the bathroom. It’s nice and quiet in the house, all I hear is the AC and the sleeping sounds of my husband as I am in the bedroom office. I eventually lay down in bed and fall asleep.
It’s Wednesday at three in the morning and low and behold, I wake up. Tossed and turned for a while, even turned on an audiobook, to no avail. I head to the kitchen and have some neutella and milk as a midnight snack. Eating all of these midnight snacks is going to make my belly larger than it already is. But what else does one do when they are bored and can’t sleep? After my midnight snack I do a bit of a beauty regiment. I add retinol oil to my face and belly. I’ve been adding oil to my belly so that I won’t get stretch marks. Not sure if its actually doing anything but at least I smell fantastic. The oil has a lavender scent and it is just delightful. At this point, I don’t know if I should take another sleeping pill or if I should simply suck it up and stay awake until about four and then get up and get to the treadmill. Yesterday’s morning run felt really good and I would love it if I could do it again. It makes my blood pump and it take my mind out of stupid things that keep on ruminating inside my head. Meanwhile, I need something else to watch as I am on the treadmill. I’ve been binge watching Empire and it is a fantastic show, but I need a break from it for a few weeks. Need to find out when Good Girls is coming back on netflix. I hear season four is going to be out soon. I really enjoy watching that show. They place one season at a time and I watch it as I do my exercises. Oh also The Crown is also coming back. I love that show. I really enjoy watching historical fiction. I love to see how they lived and the outfits from the piece period and the furniture, especially, the furniture. I love the intricate way furniture used to be made. Most were hand carved and all were unique pieces of art. Ok, it’s now half hour to four in the morning. Going to try and get some shut eye for a little while, hopefully for an hour or two. Low and behold, I’ve been able to sleep for another three hours. I basically wake up because I am hungry. I also heard my husband roll out of bed about an hour ago. I wait for a while so that he can get ready and so I am not in his way. I will need to use the kitchen to make something to eat before going to the treadmill. I don’t want to be hungry and be on the treadmill. I’ve done something like that before and passed out. Many years ago, I went to the gym without eating lunch and barely ate breakfast and was hungry. My dumb a$$ went to the gym anyway and was working out on the rower when I apparently passed out and fell to the floor. Someone woke me up when I was on the floor. They asked me if I was ok and I was coming to my senses. I felt so, so embarrassed that this had happened to me that I never wanted to go out to that gym ever again. After about a few weeks I went back and tried to not make eye contact with anyone, but never again. I will never again be hungry and do exercises. I will always ensure that my belly is full. Especially now that I am at home. While I am on the treadmill my husband is at work and my daughter and mother in law are sleeping during those hours. They may not realize that I’ve passed out for hours. I’m afraid that the mill will crape off my face or other parts of my skin if I happen to pass out without being able to turn off the machine nor pull the emergency string to stop the machine. Yes, this is a nightmare of mine. Being in the basement on the floor with the treadmill running and my skin being ripped as I lay there passed out. Anxiety much!? So after my husband left, I head to the kitchen and make toast and coffee. I practically drink my toast down even before the coffee was prepared, that’s how hungry I am. It has butter and cherry jam, yummy. Once the coffee is prepared I take my cup and head outside and have my morning coffee with just me and the birds.
I then decided to use my phone take a few photos of the yard this morning as the lighting is just right during sunrise. We have a dead oak tree in the front yard and I planted a few wisteria seeds around it so that the vines could climb up the tree and provide a beautiful perspective. The vines grew but I haven’t seen any flowers as of yet. This is what it looks like right now. Even though it is dead, I feel like I am giving the tree a purpose. Hopefully within a few years the wisteria will bloom flowers.
Another beautiful plant that I have in my yard is a hibiscus plant. It is light pink in color and I find it very beautiful.
For lunch I take a nap. Since I didn’t get much sleep last night, and I’ve been having a crazy headache today, I decided that it would be a good idea to relax for my lunch hour. I sleep for the entire hour. I heard a noise and woke up from my deep sleep. Good thing too because the hour was up and I have a meeting right after. Turns out that meeting was cancelled while I was napping, but I wouldn’t have known unless checked. During work I’ve been listening to ocean waves the entire day to help relax my mind. I have a lot that needs to be done and I’m not sure where to start. I’ve put a few lists together and still feel like I have more that needs to be accomplished. This evening our pup got his bath, his nails clipped and his hair cut. So much cuteness. As the family went out for a drive to get out of the house, I stay and work. I need to send out a few emails and they need to be well written and worded properly. Plus, these are being sent to the upper management people. It’s now nine in the evening and I’m still going at it. Starting to feel numb and my eyes are shutting down. The brain is too.
Oh boy, I’m in trouble. It’s midnight and I am fully awake. Already gone to the bathroom and don’t need a midnight snack. Well, happy Thursday! I just feel a bit chilly as my arms are cold since it’s 69-degrees in the room with the AC on. Put on my calm app to listen to soothing sounds of the night and nothing. Woke up to a movement or whatever and then tossed and turned a bit. Then got up and now I’m here with you typing away. Should I check my work emails at this time of the morning? I know there were a bunch that came through after eight last night that I ignored. I would rather answer them at like seven in the morning to show the bosses that I am up early as opposed to late in the evening. But good lord, this is ridiculous. I had a friend who used to talk about taking sleeping pills all the time because she couldn’t sleep and I always found it odd that she couldn’t sleep through the night. And now it’s happening to me. I should probably invest in those ZZ gummies or whatever they are called to help me to fall asleep. They are supposedly drug free and everything, right? Just melatonin or whatever is the ingredient… to help fall sleep naturally. Meanwhile, I am creating lists of people that I will need to work with in the future. This is so sad. Ok, maybe a midnight snack is in my near future. Not sure what else to do. My audiobooks are becoming boring, social media is also very blah. I don’t want to see any shows on the phone. There isn’t anything exciting in life right now. I’m completely bored to pieces. Luckily, I have a couple of days off next week. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself. I may just need to set up doctors appointments in order to keep myself moving along. No wonder people do stupid things all the time. They apparently need a hobby to keep themselves occupied. I’m in the need of one too to keep my mind busy. This is why I go for walks or runs in the morning hours, so I get enough exercise and get my body moving so I’ll be nice and tired for the evening. Looks like I will need to get my body moving a bit more in order to feel tired enough to rest at night. I mainly feel mentally tired but not physically tired. Is walking or running for an hour each day not enough?! Will I also need to get on the treadmill in the evenings as well? I may just need to try that and see how that goes. What I really feel bad for is that I tend to wake up my other half when I am online writing. Even though the AC is on for white noise and he has his earbuds on, he says that he can still hear/feel me leaving the bed and walking about the house. I feel bad for waking people up, sorry family. Seems like if I’m up, y’all up too. I’d really like to get some sleep, I really would, but this brain of mine keeps on waking up and wanting to do stuff. So, I head to the kitchen and have a small feast. I have a couple of spoons of peanut butter and then ships with spinach dip as well as some peanut m&ms. Hopefully this will satisfy my belly and will help me to get back to sleep. Unfortunately, the ships that I had with my dip were a bit stale and just about ready to be tossed into the trash. I will take care of that tomorrow, don’t want to make too much noise today with the rattling of the bag in the garbage. Tomorrow is another day for cleanup. Wonder if there is a movie that I can watch that would lull me to sleep. Maybe a princess disney movie. I used to have the movie shrek play all the time when I was younger and had a cd player on my laptop. I’d put the movie on in the evening and in the middle of the night I would hear the donkey saying ‘pick me’ when it got back to the menu screen. Ah the good old days of not having streaming available at your fingertips. Going to attempt again and going to lay down. Talk in a few hours, I’m sure. So, I was able to eventually fall asleep while listening to an audiobook. And then woke up at seven in the morning. Not bad, not bad at all. I’m glad I got to sleep for a few hours this morning. As for work, I started sending out emails this morning right at seven thirty. Hopefully management appreciates that I’m working hard and putting in extra hours in the morning as well as the evening.
By nine I hit a bit of a wall and need to take a break, so I take a breakfast break from work. I made the bed and opened up the bedroom/office windows to let fresh air into the room. I then lay down for a few minutes to rest my head. Then the phone rang and I got up a bit too quickly and got dizzy. It’s the grass guy for my parents house. Umm, don’t wanna talk to you right now, leave a message. For lunch I am in a meeting but not really paying attention to it. What I really want to do is take a nice nap but I have work to do so napping will have to be later. In the afternoon] I meet with my mentee and we talk about life and work and everything under the sun. In the evening the boss has us put together power point slides for a meeting for tomorrow. I worked on the thing until about seven. Then I have chicken leftover for dinner and cleaned up after myself. I then prep the kitchen for my husband for tomorrow’s work day. I set up his morning coffee, his soups, his sandwich, the works. Shortly after I head to bed. I am not sleepy but need to lay down and rest as tomorrow is another workday and I need my beauty sleep.
Well, good morning Friday. It is one o’clock in the morning and I am bright eyed and bushy tailed. Woke up about an hour ago and can no longer sleep. I’ve posted a nice photo to linkedIn with the plaque that I’ve earned for being a mentor and thanked my mentee for being the delightful person that she is. I also thanked Stony Brook University for the opportunity to be a mentor to a wonderful young woman. It’s too bad they got my last name wrong on the plaque. Not sure why they etched my maiden name and not my married name. Like my employer, they are confused as I have many names and it may be a difficult task to pick which to utilize. Nevertheless, it is a nice gesture and I am grateful I got to experience the program and may have made a friend for life.
After my thoughtful post I write a thoughtful, heartfelt email to my brothers regarding our father and the types of comments he has been making about us and our mother. They are the type that are hateful and destructive and quite frankly I am sick of them. Hopefully, they will now know the truth from my perspective and hopefully will react accordingly. As for todays work schedule, I have a meeting right at nine in the morning. Depending on what time I wake up, after I head back to bed right now, I may or may not be able to head down to my treadmill for my daily walk. We will see, hopefully, I will wake up by five or six and have enough time to get a workout in before going to that first thing in the morning, meeting. I then have another meeting in the early afternoon and another in the late afternoon. And who knows, maybe even another impromptu meeting in between all of these meetings. What I am looking forward to is next week as I have a few days off and nothing much planned. Besides the regular chores of going to the big box store and making returns. I may also go to my parents house and do some cleaning as opposed to going there over the weekend. We will see where the wind will take us. However, as luck should have it, it looks like it’s to rain on all days that I will be off from work. So I can forget about gardening and can start thinking about what kind of book I’d like to read or what kind of project the little on and I can do indoors. At four in the morning, I wake up again and put on my audiobook. I’m only half listening as the story is already half way through and I completely missed the beginning. However, there is a netflix show about it. So I may just watch that first and then get back to the book. I have issues! It’s five in the morning and I am sending out emails for work. I should be on the treadmill at this hour and not working for the man. Eventually, I get off line and get to the treadmill and walk for a few miles. I then have my breakfast outside as it is a beautiful morning. It’s in the seventies and just perfect for being outside. It’s just me and the birds out here.
At about eight thirty I’m back online and I’m feeling a bit sleepy. I have a meeting at nine on the dot, so I take my blanket, cover myself up and nap for a few minutes on my office chair. I fall asleep and wake up at five after nine. Oops! I quickly log on to the meeting and tell ]the team a white lie that I had to restart my system. After the meeting I actually had to restart the system as it became buggy and some of the programs stopped working. In the afternoon there were more and more last minute meetings. We learned about new items and new things that will be coming out in the coming year. What a day! In the evening the family goes out and I am not in the mood to leave the house. I opt to stay in. I want some peace and calmness. Also, I have bills to pay and planning to do for the weekend. Need to go to the bank, color my hair, take care of school things for the little one and I’m sure other things that I’m currently forgetting. Today, I take a photo in my bedroom/office during sunset and I have the sun gleaming in my eyeballs. Shortly after my photo shoot, I have dinner and then I am listening to the Elvis Duran Show from this morning and scrolling through my social media sites. I started getting cold so I take my warm blanket and wrap myself in it. I lay down on top of the bed for a little while, while listening to the outside noises since I turned the AC off and opened the windows in the bedroom. I was so cozy that I fell asleep for a bit while listening to the show. About an hour or so later I wake up and get myself ready to really go to bed by changing into my PJs and doing my nightly regiment. The family then comes home and I say good night to them and lay down in my comfy bed for some much needed rest.
Wellp, it’s now midnight whatta ya know, I am fully awake. Feels like I nap for a few hours and then wake up and am ready to go. Can’t seem to get myself a full eight hours straight of sleep. This is really going to make a difference with the skin underneath my eyes. All of this waking up every few hours is no good. This, ladies and gents is how one’s skin becomes very old looking very quickly. I’ve been using lotions and potions but nothing beats that full eight hours of beauty sleep. Probably going to go for that midnight snack again. I’m not hungry, but I could eat a little treat. We’ll see what is available in the kitchen for me to snack on. I settle for a banana and a cup of chocolate pudding. That hit the spot, if only for a little while. Hitting the sack and seeing how long I can last before waking back up again. So, I make it until five in the morning and that’s when I have to get up to use the facilities and of course, snack on some peanut butter. Not sure what to do now. Surf the net, get to the treadmill, lay back down and stare at the ceiling. Many possibilities! Surfed the web for a bit a I am working on a campaign for work for gamers to utilize my company’s equipment for their gaming needs. After a while I get back to bed and sleep until noon. I can’t believe I slept that much! As for today, I will be doing my hair and it will take all day. I first have to wash it and dry it. Then color it. After coloring there is the conditioning. I bought a new conditioner that needs to stay on the hair for about five minutes or so for it to do the work. It will take the entire afternoon in order to get all of this accomplished.
As I’m taking care of my hair I turn the bathroom into a mess. Got hair color all over the place. Some on the wall, some on the rug, some more on the floor. A bunch on my shirt and skin. Now I’m on my hands and knees cleaning up. I always take the rug out when I color my hair, but I completely forgot to do that today and of course, I get color on it. I scrubbed and scrubbed but it looks like the color may stay permanently on the rug. Feel like I’m a sloppy slob. I have made grave mistakes today lol. Another thing I’ve done today is put on Star Wars episode V as I’m doing my things, another mistake?! Didn’t realize the soundtrack to this movie is so over the top; pew, pew, pew! After a few hours of pampering, the below is the final result. And why, yes, that is road-runner on my t-shirt. This is a vintage shirt that I bought at six flags great adventure in New Jersey when I was in my teens or early twenties. I’ve got that vintage feeling this afternoon.
In the evening the family came back home and they brought me some ice cream. I had just had a plate of dinner and wasn’t hungry, and quite frankly didn’t have the room in my belly. So in the freezer it went tomorrow or who knows, maybe for later in the evening. I then go to the basement to pick up a few things for the house and my mother in law goes as well as she has somethings to do as well regarding laundry. At eleven in the evening, she decides that it is a great time to clean up some of my husbands older clothes that have been sitting in the basement for a few years. My husband has a lot of work clothing down there, and there are a lot that he hasn’t touched in a long time. So we looked at the clothes and their sizes and decided that they no longer fit him and that the clothes could go to good use. I place the in bags and will be donating them to the local church. We looked through all of the drawers and noticed bathing suits and other clothing as well that no longer fit and placed everything in large garbage bags in order for me to take to the donation bins. There is so much clothes that we were able to fill three bags with items that no longer fit him. Not sure why we’ve been accumulating so much. But now the area looks much neater and everything that is in the drawers, hanging up or folded in the area are all items that he can wear. And we won’t have to play scavenger hunt in order to pick out a shirt or pair of pants for him to wear. Tomorrow, I will tackle the drawers in the bedroom and see if I can empty out anything and make room for pieces that actually fit. Doing all of this work took a few hours and after that I had my appetite back. So, I sat on the couch and had myself the ice cream that they brought for me earlier this evening. The ice cream is a raspberry chocolate chip flavor with chocolate sprinkles on top. I had it all in one full swoop. So good! This was my midnight snack as today I decided that I would stay up later than usual and see the results of my sleeping pattern. Shortly after my evening snack I bid everyone good night and head to bed.
Well, my plan of going to bed later than my usual nine o’clock routine didn’t my pan out really well. I sill wake up in the middle of the night, at one o’clock in the morning this time. First off, I needed to head to the bathroom. After I eat ice cream I get very thirsty so I must have drank a bit too much water this evening. So now I am wide awake after using the facilities. Can’t win with this sleeping pattern being all over the place. Meanwhile, while I am awake, I am looking for a famous pizzeria in manhattan in the midtown area. We will need to go there in a couple of weeks to take care of paperwork and I’d like to go to a world famous NY style pizza joint. Been doing some research and the best places look like they are all the way up in the Bronx. Don’t want to travel all the way up there. Plus, is it safe to be there at this time of year?! I don’t know. I’d like to stay somewhere in midtown. in my comfort zone. May ask my facebook friends what they recommend and see what they have to say and then decide from there. After a while of doing my research I gave in and went ahead and had myself a midnight snack anyway. I eat some Portuguese treats that my husband brought home today. They are so yummy licious I had three of them. I had a pastel de nata and some other coconut flavored pastry. Probably not the best for my waist line, but oh well. Hopefully, making my belly full will help me to get some sleep. Luckily, having a full belly did help a bit, for at least a few hours. But, I’m up again at five in the morning. Think that’s it for today, sleep wise. I’ve been taking sleeping aids to help me to fall asleep and I can’t keep on doing that. One of these days I won’t be able to sleep at all without them. Will need to talk to my nurse practitioner about this issue I’m having. See what she recommends I do. She’s pretty flexible on telling me to take medicine. At one point one of the pharmacist warned not to take a few medicines together, but my NP told me that it would be ok and to go ahead and do it. As long as it is helpful and I am not jittery, it will be fine to mix them for now. So I follow her instructions and things were working out well for a long time. But now, now they aren’t working out so well any longer. I may need to get my medication adjusted again. Or maybe not and getting only five hours of sleep is ok for my body type and age. In the past I would need more hours than that because I would feel nauseous to my stomach if I didn’t get enough sleep. This is why I’ve been going to bed at nine in the evening and sleeping until seven or eight in the morning. Looking back, that’s a lot of hours for someone like me. Maybe my body has changed and I don’t need as much sleep anymore. Think I read somewhere that adults only need five to seven hours of sleep anyway. So I don’t know why I’m so worried. Anyway, I hope I can get an appointment next week with my NP and get to the bottom of this. As for today, I’m not sure what’s in store for me. There are some errands that I have to run such as going to the big box store, making product returns to other stores. Going to the grocery store for a couple of things the big box store doesn’t have. Banking. Oh and getting the flat tire on my daughters bike filled. I am off for a couple of days next week and I want to teach he how to ride. She’s had that bike in the garage for over a year and has only ridden on it a few times. She hasn’t touched it this year since the tire is flat. Daddy promised he was going to take care of the flat. But he fell flat on that promise. See what I did there? Anyway, my little one needs to learn how to ride like all of other kids her age. Since I have off, this will be an activity that we can do together. Hopefully I won’t get any comments from the peanut gallery about taking the precious one outdoors. Poor thing is always cooped up inside playing some sort of video game as entertainment and she’s getting hocked on the darn thing as she is always on when I see her during my lunch hour and after work. I know she does school work with grandma while I’m working but her off hours are always playing the game, roblox. I’ve see the game and it seems like the most boring thing ever. Don’t know why she likes is so much. Kids…am I right?! This morning, I decided that I’m going to purchase some dresses from our good old friends at amazon. I found a few really nice ones and added some to cart. Hopefully they will fit right and I will be able to wear them to work or church or wherever else I need to look a bit more presentable. After I wake up this morning, I go to the treadmill and walk for four miles, I’m in the zone today! After my workout, I eat my waffles like a fiend. I’m so hungry and my tummy is rumbling so much that I have four waffles with syrup and whipped cream on top, plus some coffee. Now I’m stuffed. I need to take a shower but I will wait for a little bit because my belly is so full from breakfast. Shortly after breakfast and showering I head out to the big box store. It opens early on Sundays, who knew, and I want to take advantage of going while there aren’t a lot of shoppers. Unfortunately, it is raining as I’m driving in to the store today. Bringing the items home is going to be a great big pain in the behind. Low and behold, it is still raining as I am bringing in the groceries to the house. I have to bring a few things at a time along with the umbrella so I wont get wet. I couldn’t get everything we need there from my grocery list, so I will have to go to the local grocery store to pick up the rest of the items needed. Towards the evening I am online adding items to card for my parents as they need home supplies and much needed underclothing. Sent an email to my siblings requesting method of payment. I can’t keep on paying for things out my own pocket for them. Especially home supplies. After doing that I head over to the basement and hand washed a few of my dresses that I’ve had an the closet for a long time and the white parts have turned yellow. And then did a bunch of cleaning up. My husband has clothing in drawers that haven’t fit him since before covid. I’ve placed them all in bags and will be donating them to the church along with the other items from that we collected the other night. I put the bags of clothing away in my car to take them away and I then get shopping. Went to amazon and purchased him a couple of pairs of pants and a few things for me as well. Since returns are as easy as going to kohls, I’m very comfortable purchasing from the site and returning to store. Plus, kohls than gives me a 25% off coupon to shop in their store. It’s a total win.
After a while the family comes back from their adventure and we have dinner together. My husband has his favorite, chinese food. And I have left overs that have been left in the fridge. My little on had already eaten something from mcdonalds and my mother in law wasn’t hungry. So it was a romantic dinner of me and my husband with plates on the table. After dinner we all play with the dog and roughhouse a bit with him and my husband has to be a bit alpha with him to ensure the dog knows who’s boss. The little guy can get really riled up and starts to nibble and at times bite a bit harder than he means to. We know he’s only playing but we need to ensure he knows not to go beyond a certain point. Shortly after I head to bed. I am not tired but I am starting to feel a bit cold and would love to be under the covers right about now.
It’s Monday, it’s three in the morning and I’m fully awake. I am ready to go to work. I have to be at the office today and am way too excited to sleep. I still have two hours that I can lay in bed and rest, but who has time for that? As they say, I can rest when I’m dead. The now is for the living. This morning, I have itchy eyes, allergies maybe?! I’ve been scratching at them and now they are all red and dry. I will need to put some lotion on my skin and will try to get a couple more hours of shut eye before getting back up and getting ready for my day. Well thank goodness that I have another alarm going off as I fell asleep after I got back into bed this morning. I woke up at six with the alarm and raced out of bed to get ready for my day. Good thing I had already picked out my outfit for the day. I have a red shirt and a pair of capri pants. I ironed the shirt last night as it was a bit wrinkled and made sure it is pressed and ready for the day. I get to work by a quarter to eight and sit in the car for a little while and put on some makeup on my face. Definitely some mascara and eyeliner kind of day. I then go ahead on into the office.
At this time the office is pretty empty. Most of my coworkers don’t come in until a bit before nine, so I am all alone at eight in the morning. However, I get to working on my KRA’s or key responsibility areas. This is for our mid year review and I have a lot of new things that I will need to work on. For lunch I head outside with one my dear coworkers and we talk a bit about life and how things are at home as well as at work. It was warm still underneath the shade of an umbrella and I felt beads of sweat rolling down my back as I was having my peanut butter and jelly sandwich. After the lunch hour was over we both came backside and it is nice and cool in the AC. In the afternoon the big boss asked if I could step into his office. I of course obliged, but was very nervous wondering why does the big boss wants to see little old me. Did I do something I shouldn’t have or what? I get into his office and he says to shut the door. Oh boy, I’m in real trouble now! After all, all he wants to do is welcome me aboard and let me know that I am appreciated. And to let him know if I ever need anything to let him know. Everyone is so nice and open in this department. It is refreshing so see and be a part of. In the afternoon there were some more meetings and then we had our end of day meeting with the team. I let everyone know what I had done and learned today. Overall it was a nice day at work. I stayed a bit past five and then headed home. When I got home the family had already gone out. I am all by myself at home. Shortly after I head to bed way before they come home. By the time they come back I am already in bed and living in my dreams.
It’s Tuesday and I wake up at a decent hour of seven thirty. I am working from home today and am going to be doing some exercises this morning. I’ve done some sit ups and push ups. I really want to target my upper body strength this month. I want more definition on my arms and of course I want my belly to look flatter. I don’t think I’ll ever get my belly to be flat again. It used to be nice and tight when I was in my 20’s but not anymore. My mom who is in her 80s and is skin and bones, she has a bit of a belly even though she doesn’t eat much and doesn’t have much muscle left in her. I have a similar body like my moms. Big belly, small legs. This morning I am to have a meeting with the boss regarding my main responsibilities at work. I’ve read through what she has originally submitted and we need to talk through it and talk about my next steps for the future. I gotta say, so far I am really enjoying my job. It’s not stressful at all, the only one putting pressure is me onto myself. As I wish that I knew more and knew what to do with what I have and not have to rely on my coworker so much or her telling me how to do the work. It worries me at times, not knowing what needs to be done. With my title, I should probably know how to do more, I think. We are working on items in a project based manor. It may be easier that way. I don’t mind working either way as long as I can follow along. For lunch I head out to the dry cleaners and pick up a rug that I dropped of last week and then head over to the grocery store to pick up a couple of quick things for dinner. In the afternoon we have a meeting with one of the regional people and they basically told me that they haven’t yet done something that was requested of them a couple of weeks ago. Hmmm should I mention this to the boss or should I simply let it go for now. This person is also new and I don’t want to cause waves as of yet. When I first started at another one of my jobs, my boss and I pushed a bit too hard and people did not like that. To this day, those rotten bad email that my boss had me send out are still out to haunt me. Some of the people that were on those emails still don’t talk to me to this day. It was nothing personal, but oh well. In the evening I plan out what to wear tomorrow. I pick out a dress and a light sweater jacket. The sweater is very wrinkled to I take it down to the ironing board and iron out the kinks. I am all set for tomorrow, clothes wise. Now all I need is to plan out my lunch and I’ll be ready to go.
It’s Wednesday and I wake up at three in the morning. I don’t however get out of bed. My husband informed me yesterday and whenever I get out of bed in the morning, I wake him up. So I stay in bed instead…until about four. He got up at that time and I do too. I am thinking of getting on the treadmill for a little while before heading out to work today. I don’t necessarily want to wash my hair again today. Washing it every day is not very good for my hair because it dries is all out. But if I do get to the treadmill, I’ll have to bite the bullet and do it. I may even have to blow dry it before heading out to work. Who knows if I’ll have time for all of this. I also want to make sure my nails are redone, which I’ll do in the car before leaving for work. What I do is place a coat over what I currently have and then I have about an hour to let them dry as I drive in to work. I then want to pass by the bank before work. I should have plenty of time to do that as I am always early to get into the office. Anyway that it my plan for this morning, we’ll see how it pans out. So I walked for about an hour on the treadmill, fixed my nails and got to the bank all before nine in the morning. When I got to work I had to use the restroom so badly that I parked a bit crocked and run inside the building and b-lined right to the bathroom. The building is still slow and silent as it is still very early and people are slowly starting to come in. For lunch the girls and I head down to the cafeteria and pick out our food. I brought my peanut butter and jelly sandwich but took a walk with them anyway, just to get out of my seat for a little while. We all came back to our desks and had our lunch there. After lunch we have a long meeting with the team. Shortly after, it is five in the afternoon. I jet out of work right at five as I have an appointment at six. As I’m driving to my appointment, I hear something dragging on the ground. It’s my rotten muffler again. By the time I stop the car, it looks like the muffler has been long gone. It’s so strange because I didn’t see it come off. I did hear the car sounding like a race car though. I pulled over and take a look under the car and don’t see the muffler. I am so confused. Where there hell did it go and when did I loose it? I call my husband and he’s surprised that the muffler has yet again come off the car. We’d gotten the muffler fixed just last year or so. After my appointment I head home and take my shower to get rid of all of the corona virus that I may or may not have picked up from the office. I then have dinner than watch a bit of the Olympics in Tokyo. I’m today years old that I learn they have synchronized diving. I had no idea. Shortly after dinner I head to bed. It’s been a long day.
It’s now Thursday and it’s the kind of morning where I just don’t wanna. I don’t wanna get changed, don’t wanna go do any work. I just don’t wanna do anything. I don’t even wanna lay in bed. I don’t wanna do anything at all. I do however, make breakfast of waffles and coffee. Then I sit at my desk looking at all of the emails that I need to respond to. I don’t know the answer to any of these questions as they are requests to do something and I don’t know the next steps to yet. I am getting a bit tired of always having to ask what needs to be done and not know the next steps of what to do. Sucks not knowing. Now I will need to set up meetings and more meetings with my coworker so she may teach me the way. For lunch I do some cleanup of the house. I take out the garbage and bring things up from the basement that we need. I need to head out to the big box store today but it looks like it is going to downpour. And here’s to another don’t wanna, today. I hate going shopping at the big box store, and in the rain, it’s even worst. So, I eventually brave out to the wilderness and get to the big box store. I make my purchases and then head on home. At home I wipe down everything with disinfecting wipes and then bring everything inside and put the majority of the items away as my mother in law helps to place items away as well. Thank you mother in law. Luckily, it did not rain during my venturing out. There was a bit of a drizzle when I was driving in to the store, but then it stopped. After putting everything away I log on to my email and see that my team mates have provided a list of July highlights to the boss and I am nowhere near having mine completed. I will need to get it started first. So at nine in the evening, I get started on that report. Never done anything like this before, so I’m flying by the seat of my pants and trying to figure out the best way to present it. For this time around, I’ve place it in a word document and will present it that way. We’ll see how the boss likes it. She didn’t state how she’d like it presented, but just to simply send something along. We will see what comes out from this. It’s now ten thirty and I am still working on this report. I gave myself a break in between though and had a slice of apple pie as a snack before bed. And then got back to it for a little bit until I can no longer see straight and need to stop and go ahead and lay day to rest for the day.
It’s Friday morning and I wake up at a the decent hour of eight in the morning. This morning, I have to finish up on my report for the boss. But I am procrastinating on this one. Don’t know why, but I’m chewing on this one and looking at other things instead such as my emails from my junk email address where I have all sorts of emails from all random places. This was intended to receive coupons and sales alerts. Now I’m using these emails for ideas on phrases for the emails that I will be taking care of for my new marketing job. Meanwhile, I made myself English muffins and coffee for breakfast. Life is becoming a terrible routine. Always the same thing every morning. Nothing different. I know what I need, I need a vacation. Some time away from the everyday monotony. This covid thing is really getting to me and now with the delta variant and the alpha variant happening in South Africa, it’s making everything go back to the same old of having to cover up and having to be very careful with everything and everyone. During lunch I head out to the pharmacy to get more medicine. I am stuck behind two cars that are getting the covid test, so of course it takes me an hour just to pick up medicine. As for my afternoon, it is nice and busy. I have meetings and am feeling a bit more comfortable in my position today. The boss seems to be happy with what we are all doing and I’m happy the boss is happy. Right after work I’m making phone calls to mechanics in order to get my muffler fixed. There is a muffler shop nearby and they can take a look at the car and give me a guesstimate on how much it will cost to fix or replace. I will need to be at the shop by early morning tomorrow in order for them to be able to take care of it. In the evening I pay some bills and do some banking, all the while I am listening to the Elvis Duran and the morning show replay channel until I can no longer be awake and head to bed.
It’s Saturday and it’s three in the morning. I wake up and can’t get back to sleep. Walked over to the kitchen and had myself a big old spoon of peanut butter and some neutella to fill up my belly as it was rumbling. And now I am fully awake and working on my phone trying to figure out why it has run out of storage. I don’t have any videos nor many photos as I delete most of them. I have a whole bunch of item under “other” category and I can’t seem to figure out what other is. Oh well, maybe later when my brain is fully functioning, I’ll be able to figure it out. Today, I’ll be going over to the mechanic shop to get my muffler fixed. I’ll need to leave nice and early from the house in order to get there before they open. I will then head on over to my parents house to make sure they are doing well and maybe do some cleaning as well. The cleaning lady was there a few weeks ago, I can only imagine what kind of condition the place is in now. I was going there every weekend to help out, but since work has started back up again, I haven’t gone there to see what is going on. I’ve been very, very busy with my own things that I haven’t been able to divide my time going over there and helping them out. My brother advised me that he will be away this weekend and for me to head on over there to ensure the old folks take their medicine. They don’t like to take their medicine, they will skip it if there is no one there to supervise and we can’t have that. I myself will need to take my own medicine when I go there. Sometimes, even before I get there to calm my nerves. They aren’t the easiest of people to deal with when it comes to this type of request. They are like small children who want to do whatever it is they want to do and not take any crap from anyone including their own children. Trust me, it is very frustrating to deal with. This morning, I go back and lay back down in bed but by six in the morning I get back up again and have my self some breakfast and watch a tennis match at the olympics. My breakfast this morning is waffles with banana and of course coffee. Shortly after, I get ready to head out to the muffler shop. The muffler shop took only a few hours to fix the car. I am very surprised and delighted that they took care of it so quickly. After I pick up the car, I head on over to my parents house. I see they don’t have any snacks, bread or milk. So I make a list to head over to the store. Meanwhile, I get an earful from my father, and nothing at all was good to hear. Complaining about everything and everyone. I became so angry with him and with all that he was stating that I had to take medicine to calm my nerves. He is a very negative person and everyone is out to get him. For a while, I was simply sitting there fuming at this comments. In the end it is all drama and sucker punches to my stomach. No love just punch after sucker punch. After my calming medicine kicked in, I head over to the grocery store and purchase food items for them. Without that medicine I would be flipping out the entire afternoon. I drop off the groceries and head on home and try to keep my cool as I am still pissed off at him. I get home and take a shower to take off all of the negativity and covid off of me. I then get busy and dust the bedroom/office as well as vacuum the place. There is so much dust and hair on the floor it’s ridiculous how much this stuff collects. All the while I am listening to a radio station that is talking about pineapples and how they are symbols for swingers. I am today years old that I found out about this. All I know is that I have pineapples all over the place. On my front door jewelry on my ears and a necklace, I also have pineapples on a few shirts. And, I am not a swinger lol. I just simply like the taste and look of the fruit. I posted to my social media and my friends state that if the pineapple is upside down than that means you’re a swinger. Right side up and you’re ok. Who knew?! For dinner I have a hamburger and leftover home fries from this morning’s second breakfast. I also have a cocktail with my bad self. I’m still in a bad mood and simply need to forget about this entire afternoon.
It’s Sunday and I have been up since two in the morning and it is now three and I still can’t get to sleep. I keep thinking about what my father told me yesterday and I just can’t sleep thinking about his ridiculous comments about my mother and the family dynamics. He basically told me that he can’t have children and that all of us, he “adopted.” Making my mother the town bicycle and he a saint. There are only three of us and we all differ in age by a lot of years. If she was the town bicycle, then I’d have a slew of siblings and not just one of three. He also claims that he has diabetes and he’s never been diagnosed with such disease, however my mother has it and he apparently has the disease by association. So crazy. When we tell him that he does not have the disease, he becomes very confused and is convinced he has it too. He is a very sick man and has been mentally sick for a very long time as this is not the first time he has mentioned that he is not the father of his own children. I’ve said too much, these are really embarrassing family secrets that should not be aired out in the open. But I really don’t care any longer as I am too old for this sh*t. He basically told me that I wasn’t able to handle the truth as he was explaining to me that he had some sort of throat issue when he was a child therefore making him incompetent and not able to have children, so it is impossible that myself or my three siblings are of his kin. So by his train of though some other guy was not able to have children and neither is he. But he kept on being with the same woman time and time again after she allegedly had relationships with other men. If that was the case, I would have seen her with others while he was away for so many years during my childhood. She never had a romantic relationship with anyone not even her own husband. Now this guy is saying that she slept around. What a total ass. I don’t believe it at all. He is a terrible human being for saying such things and I am very disappointed in him. It’s easy for him to have abandoned all of us when we were children by going overseas for work. He claims there was no work where we were living and that he had to go overseas to make a living for his family. As a child, I always admired him, now that he’s told me this, it simply makes me dislike him and be extremely sad and angry at him. This is what has been keeping me up this morning. I have a lot of emotions and this one is the icing on the cake. I eventually head back to bed but I am tossing and turning and looking through buzzfeed and other sites to keep my mind out of this garbage, but its to no avail. My mind keeps on going back to the same crap and it is ruminating and ruminating. I need for my brain to stop with this madness, but it just doesn’t and hasn’t. So I am up at the wee hours of the night stuck on this train of thought. After a while, I am tired of being awake and take my calming medicine. I then put on an audiobook regarding depression and am listening to it as I head over to bed and wait for a little while until the medicine starts to kick in. I then fall asleep for a few hours more and then wake up at nine in the morning. This morning, I am planning on going down to the basement and getting on the treadmill, but the calming medicine has made me a bit groggy this morning. My plan for today however, is to enjoy the day with the family. I’m sure they will be going out pokemoning. And I will most likely join them as I don’t want to think about anything, anything at all. Just play the game and enjoy the ride. At nine in the morning I head down to the basement and get onto the treadmill and walk for a bit over an hour. All while watching the show Empire. After my walk I head to the kitchen and have breakfast of waffles with banana, and whipped cream and coffee. I then hit the showers and keep trying not to think about yesterday, but I can’t help myself and continue to be angry. I try my mightiest to keep my cool around the family as they have nothing to do with this drama that I have to deal with. I haven’t told my husband nor am I planning on it. He’s just going to tell me something along the lines of I told you so. So, I’ll be bringing that gem to therapy. That’s what therapy is for am I right? After breakfast I head outside with my cup of coffee and have a thought. I remember I that have a beautiful hibiscus plant in my front yard. I go to the front and take a few photos with my favorite flower. Take a look, it’s as big as my head. This beauty takes my mind away from my misery. It’s so big and perfect and I absolutely love it.
By three in the afternoon, I see emails from work coming in from my coworker and I am sitting here reading them and trying to decipher what the hell she is talking about haha. I will need to look through them again and ask about them in our Monday morning meeting. As for next week, I am going to try and figure out if I can get one of the mechanic shops to fix the AC in my car. Not sure how much it will cost me but we will see what they have to say. Later in the day today I am looking at macro photos that I took as few weeks ago with the camera that I’ve forever borrowed from my brother. Here are a few that I like.
While I’m looking through the photos the family is watching The Flash on tv and my little one is playing on her tablet as well as somewhat watching the show. Pretty soon I get bored and very thirsty. But we are scheduled to go out and if I drink anymore I will need to go to the bathroom while we are out. So I cut my drinking off so I will be able to go without having to make a few pit stops. And so we went out to the park to play pokemon from the car. We passed by the chinese restaurant to pick up dinner for my husband and mcdonalds for my little one and grandma. I had already had dinner at home. I had leftover rice and salmon from the week. We were only out for a few hours and not the full afternoon like they usually. I am very grateful for this as I am very thirsty but am afraid to drink because I don’t want to make any pit stops. By eight we are all home safe and sound.
It’s Monday and this week, my group is working from home. We are working on an A/B work week. My team and I are team A so we went into the office last week. This week, group B goes in. But upper management needs to go in every week. But only on Mondays and Wednesday. This morning I woke up at my trusty two in the morning and I am thirsty. I take a big gulp from my water bottle and then there is nothing left in the bottle, so I get up and go into the kitchen for some more. I can’t sleep so I look through some social media and then turn on my audiobook. It’s an hour later and I still can’t get to sleep. So I did what shouldn’t have done, but I take another sleeping pill. I eventually wake up at around seven so the pill didn’t do much for me. Looking at my calendar and see I don’t have many meetings today, so I think I’ll be going to the bank during my lunch hour and depositing the very small amount of check that we’ve received from the government for having a child. But hey every little bit counts, am I right?! This morning I don’t wake up early enough to get my behind on the treadmill, but I am feeling down today. I had a bit of a bad ending to my weekend yesterday that I don’t want to do anything. Anything at all. If you’re interested on my weekend ending feel free to read my “Back to work week #1.” Skip the beginning parts and go right to the last paragraph. You’ll see what I mean about having a sh*t ending to my weekend. This week I have a lot of bills to get paid from the cable to the credit cards to the car. There’s lots and lots to take care of at home. I’m waiting on my paycheck to come in at the end of this week so I can make all of these payments. Way before work starts I look up the dry cleaner hours and notice that they open at eight in the morning. I head out there before work and pick up all of the dry cleaning items. I then race to the bank to make my deposit and raced back as it was a bit after nine. When I got in, I noticed there is a message from the boss to ensure that we received an invite for one of tomorrow mornings. Good thing I raced there and back so I could answer the boss. During the day I am very busy. I’m glad about being busy. That means that I am needed as opposed to last week where I wasn’t doing much and getting all sorts of worried that I didn’t have much to do. I have been at this new job for about three weeks and didn’t have any projects to work on and was feeling like they no longer needed my help. It was a terrible feeling. Now I have a bit of a target, but need to learn what to do, I feel like I’m not learning fast enough. I’m always scared when I start something new. I tend to be a bit slow to the trigger and some people think that I’m dumb. Or maybe it’s just me. My therapist says it’s me who thinks I’m dumb. But I’ve gone through this before and have had people not like the type of work that I do and complained to my boss as such. Today I’m not feeling my best and am feeling very low. So of course I am down on myself and think that I am a complete dummy. I’m acting like one too. Instead of thinking about what I’m doing, to myself, I am sending out messages to my coworker as I’m going through the thinking process. I should not do that. Think Isabel, think before sending! All the wile I look down and take a look at my pretty dress. This is what consoles me today. My dress consists of palm trees and these are my favorite type of trees.
As you may be able to see, I am not the happiest camper on the block. You can see it right on my face when I’m not having such a good day. I really dislike that about me. Can’t even face a smile. If I’m in a mood, you’ll notice right away. So I was in a meeting this afternoon and I was driving solo and I had no idea how to answer some of the questions the people were asking. I feel like I haven’t been taught anything. Anything at all. The dealer asked for a turnaround time for something and I have no inkling of what the turnaround time is. Now who the f*ck do I ask? My coworker of the team who actually does the work? F*ck me. How am I supposed to know any of this if I’ve never done any of this. So I contact my coworker she walked me through what I need to do. I’ve also asked the team who will be doing the actual work if they can help me out. Everyone is very friendly, for now, in trying to help me out, I’m just feeling a little lost and at times am not sure what to do nor how to do it. I’m a bit of a scaredy cat like that. I need to keep a cool head and go for it. Ask the damn questions and not be so scared to ask for help. I’ll have to work smarter and not harder. In the evening we have dinner and then sit on the couch and are taking hours to pick out a new backpack for our little one. There are many to choose from and the decent ones are expensive. It’s about one hundred for a backpack for a second grader. It’s insane how everything costs nowadays. We were deciding that this one needs to last for a few years and that is why we are willing to shell out a bit more for a better quality backpack. One that can hold all of her books as well as maybe even a laptop. From our understanding the books are heavy and she may need to carry them around with her for the entire day. It’s a lot of weight for a seven year old. At least I think so, I don’t remember having to carry so many books to school at that age. But then again I was in Portugal and from what I can remember, we’d leave our books in the classroom and not bring them home every night. That’s how it was in fourth grade when I moved to the states. Everyone had their own desk with a pocket underneath it and that is where I’d have our books, notebooks and writing utensils. It’s the end of the day and we still haven’t decided on which backpack to pick. After a while, I was getting a little annoyed with this and said, it’s just a backpack, please pick one and add to cart. We can always see if it’s a good one for her, otherwise it can always be returned. Still no cigar. Shortly after it was bed time. I got ready with my skin and teeth regiment and said goodnight to everyone. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.
It’s Tuesday and it’s two in the morning. Of course, I’m always waking up at two. I am a bit thirsty but I don’t think that is why I keep on waking up at this hour. I also use the bathroom but I don’t necessarily need to go. I could hold it for another few hours or so. However, this morning I woke up with very itchy legs. Last night I took out the garbage at dusk and all of the bugs were out and I think I may have gotten bit by a few on my legs. I am scratching them and them I rub a thick kind of lotion on them so the itching may stop or at least slow down. I then head to the kitchen and have some peanut butter M&Ms and some mango juice. Hopefully, I will get sleepy again and get some more shut eye at least until four or five in the morning so I can get on the treadmill and do some upper body exercises. Need to define my arms and get rid of this flabby belly. I’ve been working on these for a while now and haven’s seen much results. I only work on these for a few minutes, not for too long. From now on, I will dedicate more time for them. Meanwhile, this is what I look like at two in the morning when everyone is asleep and I am snacking away in the kitchen. I am fully awake, but my hair doesn’t look a mess like it usually does when I wake up in the middle of the night.
It’s now three in the morning and I’m still not sleepy. I am planning on putting on my audiobook and maybe that will put me to sleep. I’ll let you know how that works out…So the audiobook did put me to sleep but it did take a while. Eventually, I rolled out of bed at eight and worked out for a little bit in the bedroom, so I did some sit ups and push ups, nothing too crazy. And only for a few minutes. It’s when I’m on the treadmill that I’m on for the full hour. I then take my shower, get dressed and then log on to work. I have a scrum meeting this morning and I most likely will be on camera so I feel like i have to fix my hair and look presentable. I do something a little different this time. I put on product and scrunched it to make it a bit wavy. Back before my daughter was born my hair was curly and when I scrunched it, it would be really curly. Now I have a bit of a wave. Plus frizz around the crown of my head. The hairs around my head break very easily and I have little hairs around my face and they get very frizzy. If I put frizz product on it, it makes my hair look greasy. If I don’t it’s a bit of a frow. Can’t win.
For lunch I head outside and clean the mailbox. After the town fixed the road the mailbox became really dirty and filled with tar dust. I take out a bucket with soap and an old sponge and clean up the mailbox. Don’t know why but it was bothering me that it was so dirty and I just had to clean it. Even my mother in law was surprised that I wanted to clean it up. Sometimes I am weird like that. After work we had dinner and then my husband asked if I could take care of his hands. He literally put up his hand and asked if I could do something about it. His hands are all sorts of rough as he works in road construction. I had no idea what he wanted me to do. Remove the calluses? There’s no way I’d be doing that, because I’d have to use a blade and I would absolutely cut his hands off. So it turns out he basically wants a manicure. He wants me to push his cuticles back and cut the extra skin out. So I get out all of my tools plus some baby oil to put on his fingers and hands and got to work. As I’m finishing up his hands, he asks if I could also do the same to his feet. I was like, what is this, a la cart service? So of course I also give him a pedicure. With the pedicure, I took my time. I’ve given him a pedicure before and was rushing then I cut his skin and made him bleed. This time, I was very careful and nice and slow. Plus, I was afraid of what he was going to ask for next lol… Nope, we don’t have that kind of service here!! After we were finished playing nail salon I grab my camera and take photos of my little one and the dog playing around. I have a new photo frame and would like to place my two children on it. The majority of the photos came out all blurry and are ready to be deleted. I’ll have to try again some other day.
The family gets ready to go out and they don’t even bother to wait for me as they know I’m not interested in leaving the house. That’s right, me, the person who used to love to go on car rides even if it was just down the street to test the breaks. At my old age I now don’t even. I stay home with me and my thoughts. Also, I have to vacuum the living room floor. After playing nail salon, the floor is filthy with nail dust and I need to clean it up. A few hours later, they come back and I am still up since I am not tired today. Before I go to bed however, I give my husband a nice foot massage. He doesn’t like lotion on his skin, but he is ok if if’s when he is in bed. So I become a nice wife and give him a nice foot rub and really dig in onto his heals. He is thankful for the technique that I use. After, I give myself a foot massage with the same foot lotion, turned on my audiobook and lay down. I am listening to Cleaning up Your Mental Mess by Caroline Leaf. I don’t really hear anything as I fall asleep to her talking to me.
It’s now Wednesday and it’s one in the morning. I can no longer sleep. I wake up and use the bathroom then lay back down and toss and turn. I look through my twitter feed and continue to be awake. I then turn off the phone and turn over in bed. Then my belly starts to rumble. Really belly, we’re not going to sleep because we’re hungry?! I think of what I can snack on and decide that I will have a slice of pie. The strawberry rhubarb flavored pie. It was in the fridge and I am not in the mood to eat it cold. I was thinking of adding it to the toaster oven. Then I though better and placed it in the microwave for twenty seconds. I thought that it was going to taste a little rubbery, but nope, it was just right. Nice and warm, not too hot, not too cold. Perfect for my midnight snack.
The audiobook is still playing but I’m still not listening. I am too distracted trying to figure out what to do to make sure I am able to fall back asleep. I don’t know what the matter is. Do I have too much energy or don’t I do enough physical work during the day and therefore my body is not tired. Today I will need to take some sort of medicine to help me fall asleep. Don’t think I’ll be able to stay in bed without it. I’m simply hoping that my midnight snack won’t come to bite me in the butt by making me feel nauseous. That’s the last thing I want. I hate that feeling. Usually, I won’t be able to lay down nor rest due to the pain and feeling like I need to run to the bathroom and as my friend used to say, pray to the porcelain gods. Sorry if that is rude. I however, visualized someone kneeling down in front of the toilet and doing prayer movements. When I heard this, I started to laugh out loud. I was a bit embarrassed that such a picture made me laugh, but my dark sense of humor took the best of me. I have these annoying bumps on my tongue today and I also bit my check on the same side where I have these bumps. This morning as I’m having trouble sleeping, these are bothering me big time. It doesn’t hurt, at all, they are simply annoying. OK, putting my hair up in a high bun and am going to attempt to fall back to sleep. A few hour later and I’m still awake. Laying down with the earbuds in my ears but still awake. I do eventually get a little bit of a deep sleep because I remember not hearing the audiobook for a while. It’s now five in the morning and I can’t lay there anymore. I’m waiting for my phone to charge and I’ll be going to the treadmill in a few. Well there is something wrong with me because my tummy is rumbling again and I need to eat something before I get on the mill. Otherwise, I’m afraid I may pass out and no one will find me until tomorrow when my husband needs to pick up his clothes from the basement. I can’t have more pie right now because that is all just sugar. I don’t want to have breakfast because that will be too much in my belly and I’m afraid I may throw up. I know, I’ll have a spoonful of peanut butter. That should be good. It has some protein, some sugar and some crunch. I bought the crunch type this time and I enjoy the crunchiness. Before work started I head out to the pharmacy to pick up scripts and they tell me that one of the scripts has expired. I’ll have to call and get them re-sent. What a pain in the behind the pharmacy requests have been. Called the nurse practitioner and called and called and called. No answer. Wound up texting her, but she hasn’t gotten back to me yet. At work I am a bit lost in the weeds. There is talk about budget and I’ve never done budget before so I am lost when the team talks numbers. But, it’s only numbers after all, can it be that hard? I will see in a few months what needs to be done. For my lunch hour, I opt to continued to read through work emails. I had a bit to eat and then got back to working. I was thinking about going out to the store but then changed my mind because there is a lot to work on and I feel like I’m getting behind a bit. My coworker is a very busy person and I have to keep on bothering her to show me how to do, well, everything. I feel a lot of anxiety about that. It’s as if I don’t know how to do anything. Is that how it is with a new job? I’ve been doing internet marketing for so long I don’t even know what it’s like to be a newby. Today it is a bit cooler outside and I am feeling the chill. I put on an old, I mean vintage, jean jacket that I’ve had since I was in my 20’s. It’s a bit tight around my back, but it still fits…sort of. I can’t button it for the life of me, but it still looks cool. At least, I feel kinda cool wearing it. Makes me feel like all of my hard work of walking on the treadmill is playing off. In the evening I am on LinkedIn and make a bunch of connections with new coworkers. I then get together with the family after they come back from their excursion in the outdoors. I ask my husband if it’s time for me to color my hair again. I’m have a few streaks of gray and I was asking him if it was noticeable or if I could wait for another week before coloring it again. He said no, it’s not that noticeable and that I could wing it for another week at the office. We then play with the dog and then shortly after we go to bed.
It’s Thursday and I wake at a reasonable hour. I woke up at seven in the morning. No waking up in the middle of the night this morning. Thank goodness, I was starting to get worried about always waking up at two in the morning and not sleeping through the night properly. Not only for my healthy but also for the skin around my eyes. They do say to get your ‘beauty sleep’ for a reason. If you don’t get enough sleep your skin looks like a hot pail of garbage. At least I do. I don’t get much on the puffiness, I get the skin under my eyes to sink in. Anyway, it doesn’t look very attractive. For breakfast I have a couple of English muffins and of course, my coffee. I’ve had to drink my coffee hot as opposed to iced like I’ve been wanting. The ice machine we have doesn’t produce enough ice for all of us. So I leave the ice for my husband to take to work. I feel it’s more important that he has the ice. He is, after all, outside in the heat all day long. I think he deserves it more than I do. It’s fine, I’ll have it hot, I’ll simply add a bit more milk and wait until it cools down a bit. I then log on and get working. For lunch, I take a quick break and then get back to my work, there is much to do and much to learn, so I jump on in and get to it. Today there are many meeting about budgeting and email creation and product briefings. A lot of meetings. I am meeting and camera ready. I got myself dressed up today in a dress. No makeup, just a nice outfit. After work I head over the the pharmacy, again! They gave me the wrong script the last time I was there and I called to see if I could exchange it for the correct one. They usually don’t take scripts back but they did it this one time as a courtesy. I then head over the store as I need to purchase body wash. The store did not have what I am looking for I get a couple of things anyway. I found a pair of sandals that are a light brown color, really pretty, really cheap. I also found a recorder for my little one and some tea as well as a face mask. When I get home I cleaned everything I purchased and put everything away. I will give the recorder to the little one as a gift when it gets closer to school time. She will probably need it for her music class. As for the sandals, I put them on in the house right away and throw away an old pair of flip flops that have been sitting under the bed for a few years. Out with the old, in with the new.
It’s Friday and I again woke up at three in the morning. Coughing this time. I needed some water for my dry throat. I was then able to roll over and get back to sleep. I woke up at around seven thirty and started my day. This morning I am having an apple turnover for breakfast. These are in the fridge so I pop it in the oven for a few minutes to warm it up. And of course, coffee. This morning I have a bit of a headache. I will let it linger for a little while without taking any medicine. Hopefully it will go away after I have something to eat. Low and behold, there goes the headache. All my little brain needed was some food and caffeine. For lunch, I take my shower and fix my hair properly. The last couple of days I tried to bring my curls back with texturizing balm and all it did was give me a beach wave, at best, and made my hair a bit greasy. Today, I will bring it back to whatever it is that it would like to do. I used to have curls but after my daughter was born the texture of it changed. A lot changed after my little one was born. It’s funny how a woman’s body changes after giving birth to a little one. As for the rest of the workday there are a lot, a lot of little things that need to be done per project. So many that I’m getting a bit lost. Taking lots of notes and trying to keep myself well within my title and not mess things up. In the evening I head out to the outlets to pick up my necklace. I had to get it fixed as it needed to be soldered since it broke. It cost almost as much to fix it that it was to purchase it. Isn’t that always the case to get things fixed by others. I then head over to walmart and pick up the body wash that my husband likes to use. I then head on home as it is already nine in the evening and it’s almost my bedtime. I go to bed early like an old person. I try as my might to get my beauty sleep. This week has been a hit or miss on sleeping. But tonight I’ll be going to bed on time.
It’s Saturday morning and I am a happy camper. I had a wonderful dream that we were at a festival taking pictures and listening to music. We were by a lake and enjoying ourselves like the good old days before covid. I also slept until nine in the morning which is very different for me. I’m used to getting up at seven. But I did wake up at three in the morning this morning and went to the kitchen and had myself a midnight snack of peanut butter and nutella. I then got back to bed and had that great dream. For breakfast I have a warm apple turnover. I can’t get enough of them. I simply love the gooey center with the bit of the crunch from the apples. Today, we are thinking about going to the store and purchasing supplies for school for my little one. I want to go with the family today. I haven’t hung out with them for a long time and it’s about time I do. Today we go to the outlets to get sneakers for the little one. We also get her a few clothing items that are on sale. We then go to the craft store and purchase a bunch of supplies for school. All the while we were playing pokemonGo. The day wasn’t as hot today so it was nice and cool in the car as well as outside.
In the evening we go to our favorite local Japanese restaurant and bring home sushi and Chinese food. After diner, they went out again, but I opted to stay home. It’s late and I want to stay in and rest. We’ve been out all day and I’d like to put my feet up. Tomorrow is another day to get things done.
It’s now Sunday and I am up at eight in the morning. I wake up with a bark or the dog. It’s a gloomy day out and it’s been raining, the sun isn’t shining in the room either. Today, I’m not sure what I’ll be doing. Don’t know if I should go some studying for work or if I should hang out with the family. For work, I need to have my topics of work taken care of. These need to be done before Wednesday. I’ve already read them through quickly, but I need to really sit down and read them through properly so that I may have questions and comments back for the boss. Don’t want to just agree to the wok topics and not have any comments. That’s not a good thing. I’ve learned that a military style of being and simply agreeing to what is given to you is not the way business works. Most bosses don’t like that and it makes them uncomfortable. I’m used to ‘yes sir/ma’am.’ The other thing I need to do is go to the big box store and make a few purchases for the house. I could go today or go after work during the week. Whenever I think there will be less people at the store. This morning my husband and I put all of our little ones things together for school and labeled everything for her. By midmorning I am outside cutting branches and picking weeds from the flower beds. Then I did some cleaning up of the backyard. At that point my husband informs me that the family would like to go out and play pokemonGo. I decline and continue with my chores. They leave as I am finishing up with my day. I then head on inside and take a nice long bath. I put on a facemask and give myself a much needed manicure and pedicure. As my hair is drying I color my nails with an orangy red color called hazard. By five my tummy is rumbling and I get myself a slice of apple pie from the fridge. I heat it up in the microwave and eat the thing in a few bites, it is so tasty. I then head outside with margarita in hand and hang out in the backyard for a little while. I saw a few deer all the way out in the back of the woods. But, I shortly get bored and come back inside.
It’s Monday and today I am going back to the office. Today, feels like the first day of school. Figuring out what to wear, what time to leave the house and what to take for lunch. This morning I couldn’t sleep since I was too excited and my anxiety was acting up for going back to the grind. I woke up at midnight and then again at two in the morning. After two, I tossed and turned and couldn’t get back to sleep. I eventually get out of bed at four in the morning and and feel so much anxiety that I put on my workout clothes and get to the treadmill. I walked and walked for a long time while watching the show Empire. I must have watched two episodes, I walked so much. I then take my shower and get ready for my first day back. I have my clothes all picked out and then I get to the kitchen and get my breakfast and make my lunch. I made myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I’m not sure if the fridges at work are working to take cold food plus, I’m not sure I want to place my food next to someone else’s; Covid and all. I’ll probably be having sandwiches for the rest of the days that I’m in the office. I get out of the house by seven and give myself a two hour window to get to work. I don’t know how the traffic is, so I am giving myself plenty of time to get myself situated. As for traffic, it wasn’t too bad and it only took me an hour to get to work. I go to my old desk to see if I have boxes to move my things. I will need to move my things from one floor to another where my new desk resides. I eventually get some boxes and am putting my things in them and tossing a bunch of things in the garbage. As I am doing this, I get my new skirt all dirty.
Of course, the day that I wear something new and nice, I get myself sweaty and dirty and now I’ll have to bring my clothes to the cleaners. Or maybe I’ll simply hand wash them. Actually, I will need to see the cleaning instructions before I do anything. That is probably best. For lunch all of the girls go out to the courtyard, it is a nice day out but after a while I start sweating out there as it is the afternoon sun in the summer. While having our lunch a bird flew into the widows in the courtyard and it hit it so hard that it fell to the floor and it died. What a terrible lunch omen. We are to have an hour for lunch, but after that incident, we decided to call it the end of the break and we went back inside. Today I didn’t learn much about my new role. I simply watched more videos about the products. And was also watching a virtual event that one of the stores is having today. We then went into the print factory where there are a lot of print materials that we use to send out to our dealers. It was cool to see the large printers at work. One of them was being worked on so there were parts all over the place. It felt like my father’s garage. Different types of parts all over the room. The day passed fast and shortly it was five in the afternoon. I thought that everyone would be grabbing their belongings and heading out the door at five, but I was very wrong. The team stayed until about five thirty. I didn’t want to leave before my coworkers since it’s as if its my first day at my new job, it feels like the first day of school after all. In my old position, practically the entire team would jet out of the office at five on the dot. Especially my boss. She would start getting ready at four thirty to get out of the office at five on the dot. She would start taking out all of her belongings to her car at that earlier in the day and then by five all she had to do was log off and take her laptop and bag with her to her car and get outta there. As for this team, not so much. They are a bit slower on the trigger for leaving. They live a bit closer to the office and that may be why they don’t really care for leaving later. But I live far and it takes forever to get home. I was starting to shake my foot in frustration when the boss came by saw that all her entire team was still there, she told us all to go home. I slowly but surely started to pack look like I was packing up, even though I had already done so. She then stalled and talked about a meeting for tomorrow which that I am not invited to. Either is the entire team. She will ensure for us to be part of this particular meeting if not tomorrow than next week. She said that since we are all so new to our positions that it would be a good idea to be invited to this particular meeting. It took over ten minutes to go over if we are going to the meeting or not going to the meeting. Meanwhile, I’m thinking about leaving and all of the traffic I’ll be stuck in. Finally, we’re satisfied with what we’re meeting about tomorrow and I can finally leave. It’s a quarter to six and I decided that I would be stuck in so much traffic, so I took a right instead of a left and went over to tj maxx. At the store, I shopped for a few pieces of clothes and saw some jewelry that I really like. They have a really nice gold necklace. But then I thought, I already have a couple of gold necklaces. This would just be another one that I would place in my jewelry box. Well, I thought and thought, then decided against it. I kept on moving through jewelry and as I saw a few other pieces I liked but were a bit above the price range that I am willing to pay, so I passed on those too. I then get to the clothes racks. I am looking for a raincoat, but they don’t have anything like that at the store. Then I am on the hunt for more skirts and maybe even a dress so I can be nice and cool this summer. Now that we can show our arms at work, I have more options of what kind of dresses I can wear to work. The office decided that they now allow more of a dress down type of wear. We used to be very conservative. We couldn’t wear open toed shoes or show upper arm. Now we can wear jeans and sneakers and show some arm. ]Of course, they need to be without rips and the shoes need to be presentable and not dirty. Anyway, I pick out a few pieces and try them on. A few of the pieces were so adorable but look terrible on my body. I have an apple shaped body. I have skinny legs but a big belly. As many sit-ups and running that I do, my belly keeps on being bigger and flappier than I’d like. I have to wear a large size on top in order to cover my belly. I like a few of the pieces and then get a couple of belts as I need something a little bit more stylish, belt wise than what I currently have at home. I then head over to the beauty section and pick out a shampoo for volume and thickening of the hair. My hair is getting so thin and limp and keeps on breaking that I need to find a shampoo that will give it life. I will try the one that I picked out and see how it works out. I’m then looking at skin lotions and potions and find a ton of items that I like. But then think better. I already have a bunch at home that I haven’t even opened up yet. No need to be a packrat this time around with these types of items. So I keep on moving. I then head over to the men’s department to see if they have rain jackets. You never know, sometimes they have something that may work for me. But no. They only have summer clothes available. Ok, so I’ve got enough items in my cart. I head over to the checkout and spend another pretty penny on myself. Yesterday, I did the same thing, but at marshalls. Spent a bunch of money on new clothes for work. I’ve lost some weight and a bunch of the pants that I have are a bit large and don’t look so great any longer. I need some new bottoms for my wardrobe. And some cool items since it’s hot and my car doesn’t have ac. It’s been fixed a bunch of times already and it keeps on breaking. So, I said, forget it, and am driving around without cool air. This is why I leave the house very early and don’t mind leaving work a little later as it is cooler then. Except for today. Today was very humid and then it started to sprinkle in the afternoon so it’s not only hot and my hair is frizzing up but it’s also humid. I need to keep my windows open as I drive home. I get home and have dinner by myself as the family has gone out to do some shopping. Dinner is basically a sloppy joe with spaghetti. Tonight I go to bed much later than usual. I am not sleepy and hang out with the family for a little while than I usually do. At this late time in the evening, my daughter is putting on a show for us singing and dancing and the dog is dancing all around with her. It is late and shortly after we all go to our rooms but am still having trouble sleeping. I look through my phone until I am able to close my eyes and finally sleep.
It’s Tuesday and today I am working from home. Tomorrow I’ll be going in to the office again and then that will be it for going into the office this week. I will be working from home for the rest of the week. This morning I woke up at the usual hour of two in the morning. I am very thirsty so I take a few sips of water and try to get back to sleep. I toss and turn and nothing. By four I get up again and fill up my water bottle so I’ll have enough to drink bedside. At that time, I wake up my husband as it is time for him to get up for work and then I get back into bed. I eventually am able to fall back asleep so I can rest my eyes, my body and my soul. Thankfully I didn’t have any funny dreams this morning like I usually do after I fall back asleep from waking up at two in the morning. Just blissful dreamless sleep. I wake up on my own at seven thirty without any alarms and get ready for work. I put on a top that I haven’t worn in a long time. It was a bit tight before covid, but I’ve lost some weight as I’ve been walking a lot. So I try on the shirt and look at that, it fits. It’s a three quarter sleeve type of shirt and it’s a very light fabric, perfect for today. Not sure if I’ll be wearing this one to the office any time soon. I’ve have it for a long time and it looks a tiny bit worn and not the best of materials. So this one may be another shirt that I only wear when I’m working from home or on the weekends went I’m hanging out at home. Or going to the store or whatever I do now during covid season.
This morning I took care of some clothes in the closet. I divided some clothes that I will skip wearing to the office. These clothes can be work from home or weekend wear when I’m not doing anything. I then decided to take my suits out of the closet as I don’t utilize them much. I take them to the basement and bring up dresses that I’ve had hidden away for a while. These dresses haven’t been worn in a while, well because, I’ve forgotten that I even have them. Now they are up close and personal so I may wear them out to work or whatever I may need them for. By lunch I hit a wall and start to feel my depression kicking in. I take my medicine and gave it time to do its magic but today I keep on feeling a bit down. I work on keeping myself occupied as that tends to be the best way for me to not ruminate on sad things. I try to bury myself into work but there isn’t all that much to do with the exception of looking through more powerpoint presentations and other very boring documentations. I’m having a hard time concentrating and am feeling a little bit of anxiety because I haven’t started on any projects yet at work. Things are developing nice and slowly and that scares me. If I’m not doing much, then am I really needed at this position? The team has been told that we’d be receiving more information about our positions soon. Probably tomorrow when we are in the office and can have a face to face type of meeting with the boss. I really hope I have a better mental health day tomorrow. I have a plateful of meetings tomorrow and am looking forward to being busy working. It’s odd, when I have downtime I feel out of place, like, I should be doing something with myself at all times. This may be why I haven’t been able to sleep. Too much time not doing anything strenuous either physically nor mentally. Although I have been on the treadmill, but it feels like it’s not enough. I need something more. Something with bit more passion. It feels like I’m just cruising through life and not enjoying the moments. Looks like I’m in the need of a hobby or something along those lines. Don’t get me wrong, I have plenty to do but I want something new to take care of. Something that I can pick up and just be good at it so I won’t have to go through so much of a learning curve. I don’t know, the depression is really kicking in. I’ll take some more medicine and hopefully this feeling will go away and I’ll feel better.
It’s Wednesday and I wake up with the alarm. I was able to sleep all through the night and had a really nice dream that I was in a French street, probably in NYC and there was a café with croissants and chocolate croissants. I met up with friends and tasted those delicious treats. And then my alarm went off. Too bad, I wanted some more of those treats. I roll out of bed and get myself ready for another day at the office. I put on nice smelling lotion along with face cream and deodorant to my feet. No sox today, so my feet must be fresh all day long. It’s a little trick I learned throughout my years of living. Probably read it in a magazine somewhere. I get to the office with an hour to spare and put on some makeup in the car. I then go on in and log on. I still don’t have much to do this morning but I take a look at my calendar and see that I have a lot of meetings today. Turns out, today is one long meeting. Meetings back to back all day long. First with my team and then with an internal team then an external than internal. You get it, all sorts of teams. We even got a one of the teams to provide us with a sales pitch at the end of the day. It was a bit annoying as it’s now almost quitting time and this guy is talking about his business and how they can do more for us. It’s nice to know, but not at that hour. At fifteen after the hour, we are finally done with meetings. But my day isn’t done yet, I have unpacking to do. I take out the boxes and shove everything in the drawers. I apparently have a lot of stuff that I really could live without. I have a couple of shirts and bags, hot chocolate, tea, lots of notebooks and folders. A bunch of photo paper and so much other stuff. I will need to clean up and clean out. My coworker and I then head over to the shipping area and return the moving cart that I’ve used for my boxes. My coworker stays and finishes up her job and I head on to the parking lot to get to my car. I then drive over to tj maxx to return a couple of items. I am shopping anyway, just a little bit. I see a beautiful shirt that is in green and I place it in the cart and then I see a black shirt that I really like too and that goes in the cart as well. I go into the beauty area and am looking for a volumizing conditioner for my hair and what do you know, they have one so I add that to the cart. Oh boy, I can’t keep going to this store. Every time I go, I always spend a bunch. I went there for one thing, to return belts and to purchase jam for my pb&j sandwiches. I leave with other types of belts and shirts, conditioner, belts, skirt and then I found the cutest mug. It says “dog dad” on it and I had to purchase it for my husband.
He loves his pup and is so good with him that I had to get the mugs for him. Now that I’ve spent a whole bunch of money, I head on home. I take the highway and there is a bit of traffic. There was even a driver that raised his eyebrows at me and I just shook my head and kept on going. I finally get home and the family is out again. I keep on missing them after work. I get in and clean all of my belongings with disinfecting wipes and then go ahead and take a shower to get all of the day’s gunk off of me. I use my new conditioner in the shower. I also bought a new shampoo on Monday and used the combination of products and the result is pretty good. My hair turned out a bit frizzy due to it being so humid, but the items did give me volume. My hair is thinning out so I need something to make it look like I’m still youthful. Good luck with that, I’m thinking! I’m trying my hardest to keep me youthful. With staying healthy and using better beauty products. I have to start to spend a bit more money on these but that’s ok. I’m making a bit more and I think I can afford to splurge on myself a bit. Shortly after, the family comes home and I give my husband his gift. He likes it! I am glad he does. He then asks me if I can massage his leg as his sciatica is acting up on him. I get a pair of gloves on and rub icy hot on both his quads. It smells just awful, but it’s gotta be done. He has to go to work tomorrow and needs to be able to walk. We then put on the stint machine on the worst leg and he put the shocks on really high. When we turned the machine on, we could see his muscles shaking. It was a scary sight to see. I asked him if he was ok and he said that it was actually making the muscle feel better. Meanwhile, I am exhausted and falling asleep on the couch. But I need to stay up and see if he needs me to rub some more of that nasty stuff on the legs. He falls asleep as well as the stint machine is working on him. I woke him up and asked if he wanted me to do anything else and he said no and that he was going to bed as well. So I removed the pads from the stint machine from his leg and put away the machine to it’s rightful place, so we can find it next time. I then head to bed.
It’s Thursday morning and I wake up with a terrible headache. It’s three in the morning and I have to get to my stash and take out a tylenol for my head. I then notice that I never changed out of my dress into pj’s last night. I just jumped into bed with my regular clothes on, what a mess. I must have been so tired last night that I forgot I wasn’t wearing my pjs. I was so comfortable in my dress with a long sleeve t-shirt over it. I must have been that comfy that I simply did not remember that I needed to change out of that into sleep wear. That’s how tired I must have been. I sleep a bit more and at seven I wake up again with the same headache. I roll out of bed and take some more tylenol for my head. This point I make my breakfast and coffee. I have my waffles and iced coffee this morning. My head is starting to feel better and I log on to work at eight in the morning. I don’t have much to do as of yet, but it’s coming. I have meetings already set up for the morning hours and another for the afternoon. I really hope this headache doesn’t come back today. It’s really bad, it’s affecting my neck and it hurts if I cough. A couple of hours go by and my headache comes back. I need to take more medicine, ugg. Now it’s the headache is hurting my neck and my right eyeball. While my head is pounding I’m also waiting on my coworker to get back to me so we can go over some items and she is taking her time. Guessing she is busy this morning and can’t get to me as of yet. So I am reading up on non disclosure items and trying to look through all of the lawyer speak. It looks like a simple one page form but it’s not that simple. For lunch I head over to the pharmacy to get prescriptions for us. The cashier tells me that one of the scripts is about three hundred dollars. It’s way to expensive and I refused it. Once I got home I called the doctors office and asked if they could change the script for a different type of medication and they told me to try a thirty day supply instead of the ninety day and that would be a better price for us. This took a whole hour to get information from the pharmacy to the doctor and back and forth. Eventually, we get to an agreement that it would be a thirty day supply for forty bucks. Expensive stuff!! Health care is crazy over in the states. Just imagine if we didn’t have insurance? We wouldn’t be able to afford medication. Crazy! With that, I will need to get back to the pharmacy later on tonight so I can pick up the medication as they need time to put it together. In the afternoon my mother in law goes out with my little one and I am at home working and and hanging out with the dog. He is howling at the door as his people have left the building and don’t think he notices that I’m still home. I go over to him and pet him and sing to him “just the two of us” he calms himself and quits howling. Then he heads over to my bedroom/office and goes under the bed and starts to take out clothes and shoes I have under there. I have open bins and he likes to sneak away with my stuff. I have to take all of the items away from him and then take the bins and place them on the bed where he can’t reach. Now I have loose items and bins on the bed that I have to refold and return to where they belong. In the evening I head out to the pharmacy again to pick up medicine that we need. This time it’s priced correctly. I race home and we have dinner. Then the family goes out to home depot. That store is not a place that I like to go so I opt to stay home instead. As I am home I take out the garbage and do some clean up around the house. I then look through some of the clothes I have for work and decide that some are no longer needed in the closet. I take all of the beach wear and put it in a bin in the basement. I also take larger clothes that now look a little baggy on me and also place them in that same bin. Now I’m not sure what to do with myself now that I am home alone. Should I get on the treadmill for a little while or should I watch a show. Or should I do something else. What to do, what to do. I wind up not doing anything at all. Put on the elvis duran morning show and listened as I scrolled through social media. I got tired and don’t feel like doing anything, I’m not even up for watching a show. Think I’m going to put on my pjs early and lay down in bed earlier tonight and try to get some sleep.
It’s Friday and I wake up at four in the morning this morning. I was going to get on the treadmill, but I got lazy and rolled back to my comfy spot instead. I then had a wild dream of people being possessed by demons and then the demon passing from one person to another. At one point one person was bleeding from their nose as they were realizing what was happening to them. For some wild reason, I was trying to reason with possessed. Who can reason with the possessed? I had some more vivid dreams but I can’t recall them right now. They have been erased from my brain. I then get up and have breakfast. Today I am having a Portuguese roll with butter and hot coffee. I then get ready for work. I have a meeting at ten this morning and I may need to be on camera so I will need to get myself ready and look decent. At least my hair should look like I at least brushed it this morning. I will eventually change clothes as I am wearing a long sleeve t-shirt and it’s getting too hot to wear this frock. I usually wear long sleeves to sleep since I get cold when I’m laying still. But when I’m up and walking about I get too hot to be wearing such things. This afternoon I am planning on going to the big box store and am putting a list of items together for me to purchase. I’ve been looking through the fridge and pantry and writing down what we are lacking. I’ve also gone to the store online and clipped all of the coupons available and also put those on the list. During the day there are emails that are going back and forth that I will eventually be responsible for. As I’m reading them I understand each word jut not each work put together lol. Not truly understanding what is being requested and what is needed here. I’m sure I’ll get it but today, I’m just jumping onto the back seat and letting my co-worker drive for as long as possible. For my lunch hour I head over to my parents house as I left a cooler there from the other day that my husband now needs. He didn’t need that cooler for a few months and I left it at my parent’s house for a bit too long. Now he needs it for work and he is very angry with me that I left it there. Oops, my bad. As I head to my parent’s house I notice that today is so hot and humid outside that my hair gets all over the place. For those who have natural curls we are not ok. It’s funny but my hair is a bit straight and a bit curly. When it’s humid it acts as if I have curls. When it’s not humid it’s straight. My hair is very odd. Even though I put in product and a whole lot of hair spray, it’s still all the way up in the air lol. Check out my mop.
After my lunch hour it’s back to the grind. I have a ton of meetings and a ton of learning to do. The teams keep on asking if I have questions and I am as quiet as a mouse, taking it all in. No questions as of now. I’m sure I’ll have some once I’m more into the work, but for now, I’m taking notes and a lot of them. I will probably need to study them over the weekend so I am prepared for next week. In the evening I head out to the big box store and make a bunch of purchases for the house. Heavy stuff like water and a couple of boxes of seltzer. Then I headed to the farm and buy a couple of pies. One apple for all in the house and one strawberry rhubarb as a gift for me. I know my husband likes it too. But not sure if my mother in law or daughter will like it. I was thinking of having a slice a la mode tonight. That is why I got the strawberry one, strawberry a la mode! After the farm, I get home and clean all of the items with disinfecting wipes and put them away. That is the part that I dislike the most about grocery shopping, the putting everything away part. There’s never enough room in the fridge so I have to play fridge Tetris. It’s a pain in the behind. Today I had to finish off the orange juice as there was just a little bit left on the bottom of the cartonb. I don’t want to throw it out but there’s not enough room in there. So I get myself a cup and pour the juice. I am thirsty anyway so that’s ok. I just don’t want to have my belly ache due to the amount of acidity. At the farm I also got a little bundle of cherries. After I put everything away I have some of the cherries and then I wind up having all of them. They are so good and they hit the spot so well. I kind of felt bad afterwards but oh well, it’s already done and they have all gotten into my belly. I should have put on my slice of pie that I will be having later. But then again. They were hitting the spot and I just simply couldn’t help myself. Fruit makes me happy. I just love it. There aren’t many fruits that I don’t like. I will eat fruit over any meal. When we went on our honeymoon to Antigua, I had a whole bowl of fruit every time we were at the buffet. My husband would take the fish or meat and I would go for the fruit. They had passion fruit and starfruit that I absolutely just loved. Tropical fruit is my absolute favorite.
It’s Saturday and it’s four o’clock in the morning. I wake up and very thirsty. I drink some water that is on my bedside table and then I’m hunkering for some peanut butter m&m’s. I go to the kitchen and have a few of them, yum. I then go back to bed and am trying to get back to sleep, but it’s of no use. I toss and turn for about an hour and nothing. Think I’ll be starting my day shortly by heading over to the treadmill. I’ve gained a couple of pounds since starting work and need to go ahead and run them off. What I really need to do is upper body training, actually. My arms are flabby as is my belly. I keep on loosing inches on my behind but nothing on the upper body portion. I am what they call an apple shape. Larger upper and smaller lower half. As for today, I am planning on not doing much. The weather outside is going to be a hot one and I’m not interested in going out there in the heat. I’ve done enough for in the last few weekends. Think it’s a good day to rest today. I may even do some work for the man today. I have a bunch of things that I didn’t get to finish yesterday and I want to make sure I am ahead of what I am doing as opposed to being all startled on Monday morning. Checking my calendar, I don’t have much going on for Monday. Only a few meetings at the end of the day. I may actually have time on Monday to do whatever it is I need to do. We will see how today goes. A for this morning, I was on the treadmill for 100 minutes. At that marc the treadmill just stopped running. If I would have been going fast, I would have killed myself. Note to self no more than 100 minutes on the treadmill. After the treadmill, I take a nice long shower. Only my husband is up with the dog and I am free to take my time. I wash and scrub and scrub and wash. I left my conditioner on for a while. It’s a tee tree oil type of conditioner and it was starting to really feel minty on my scalp. I then removed it with water and it still felt minty. After my shower I lather up my skin in all sorts of lotions and potions, except for the bottoms of my feet. Don’t want to slip and slide today and break my nose. For breakfast I have a few waffles with butter and syrup and of course coffee. Delicious!
After breakfast I change the sheets from the bed and clean up the bedroom a bit. I then take a short nap. On my freshly made bed. I then get cold as I always get chilly when I’m resting and get a blanket from the closet. I cover myself then get back to my nap. After about an hour or so, I wake back up and the family is already up and playing pokemonGo. At this point I get hungry and eat a slice of that pie I bought yesterday. There goes all of my calories I worked out this morning. In the afternoon we get in the car and drive far far away so we may be able to pick up my daughters uniform for next years school as she will be going to catholic school. We get there and I also wanted to go inside and see the outfits and what the store looks like. But we took the dog and my mother in law wants to pay for the uniforms. So daddy, daughter and mother in law went in the store and I stayed in the car with the dog. The dog and I had a grand old time. He was chewing on candies and other things that he wasn’t supposed to be doing. I had to yell at him for a second or two and remove the items from his mouth. When I noticed everything was clear in the back seat I eventually close my eyes and nap for a bit.
Don’t know why, but I am very tired today. It’s my second nap of the day. Inside the car was so hot as the sun was hitting me right on the legs, that it was a really good time for a nap. We purchased a few outfits and shirts for everyday wear as well as accessories. We then head home and pass by All American Burger a burger joint that makes some of the best hamburgers on Long Island. They are truly delicious. They also have knishes and tuna salad burgers. I had a bite of each and they are both good. I prefer the hamburgers better. We then fly home as the lady who grooms the dog is supposed to come by the house by five in the afternoon. We get home and get the dog to do his business before his haircut but he doesn’t budge. He may be too exited to pee or poop. He may just do his business in the poor lady’s van as she is bathing him. It’s not the first time he does that. Crazy dog. Just checked the weather for tomorrow and it’s due to rain. I have a bunch of things I need to do outside and may not be able to get to them due to the rain fall. So tonight right before sunset I head outside and clean out one of the coolers and clean my daughters outside toys. She has a kitchen, bbq and a house which are all dirty and green from not being clean for such a long time. I took the sponge and cleaned them all up. I also cleaned the table and chairs we have out there. At times I want to go outside and do some work there but cannot as that table is disgusting. It is all black and dirty. I sprayed down with bleach and cleaned it out with a sponge. I did the same for the chairs as they too are all dirty. We don’t really use the outdoor world and that is why it has been neglected for so long. Hopefully next week I’ll be able to get out there and have my morning coffee, if it’s not too hot. Usually by seven in the morning it’s already hot and very humid. Taking my hot coffee outside is just a waste of time because I will then need to take a shower afterwards as I will be sweating my butt off. After I clean up the outside I head on in and have a knish that was leftover from All American Burger. Even a bit cold, the knish is delicious. I pair it with some mango juice mixed with seltzer water. I am having a fantastic evening snack. Shortly after I get to bed. Good night all.
It’s Sunday and it’s raining out there. My husband gets up early and is walking around the house. For some reason I wake up as he is getting dressed. We talk for a little while and then he goes and takes the dog outside with his little rain coat. It’s so cute and yellow. It looks go cute on him. I took about a dozen photos of him and he wouldn’t sit still for a photo op. This was the best one I could get.
After he came back in of course, it stopped raining. I am sitting on the bench looking through netflix to see what the next show will be for me to watch. The the dog is barking at the balloon we have in the house. Usually that is a sign that he needs to go outside and poop. I take him out and we walk and walk and nothing. I took some more photos outside and these came out a little better as there is more lighting.
Then he wants to go inside and tugs at me. He wants to see his daddy and wants nothing to do with me. Then he sees that daddy is going out with his work truck. After that he calms down a bit and we are able to walk around a bit more. He didn’t poop, however he just wants to go inside the house and is tugging at me to do so. Thankfully he is a relatively small dog otherwise when he would be tugging, I’d probably be on the floor and the dog dragging me. Once we get inside the house he goes straight to grandmas room and is scratching at the door. I gave him treats and pet him and sat on the couch with him a bit. But, he wants nothing to do with me and would rather be with grandma. Oh well. I now I have time to get to the treadmill and walk a few miles. I get to the treadmill and walk for about forty five minutes and then I went into the living room and did as many situps and push ups as I could possibly do. I need to strengthen and tighten up my upper body as it is getting very flabby. After my workout I put on my jeans and an older t-shirt and am ready to head outside and do yard work. I take out the weed wacker and head to the backyard to take care of all of the growing weeds back there. As I am working my husband decided that he and the family would like to go out and play pokemonGo. I opted to go with them this time but I had to put everything away from my yard work and take a quick shower since I was all sweaty and smelled terrible from sweat. My shirt was all well due to this. As I am putting all of my tools away, my husband comes outside and tells me that they are no longer going. There is a bit of drama that my daughter want to take a bunch of toys and then with the dog my mother in law feels tight in the backseat. So I just simply said that I would skip it then if there is discomfort. I really don’t mind. I do have other things that I need to do. I’d like to get my car washed and return some things to tj maxx. And then my husband asked if I could also go to the grocery store and pick up soups for him for the week. I don’t mind doing all of this so I’m ok with not going with them. They left and I washed my car with some hot soapy water, it is really dirty and the gunk will only come out with hot water and a lot of scrubbing. I did so much scrubbing that I thing I broke the scrubber. After washing the car, I didn’t even bother to shower or change clothes, it’s so hot out that I would be sweating anyway and would need to take another shower after coming back from my excursion. So I head out to tj maxx first as it is the furthest away. I had to return the ‘dog dad’ mug that I had gotten my husband earlier that week. He doesn’t like that it’s not a perfect round cup. He’s a bit ocd you see and that kind of imperfection bothers him. So I told him that it wasn’t a problem and that I would return it. I get into the store and shop the clothing racks first and find a couple of shirts that I really like. I really don’t need these as I already have plenty, but I get them anyway because I like them so much. One of them is beige with a lot of gold on it and the other one is blue and it’s nice and short and it will fit me just right. I then head over to the jewelry section and find my perfect earing. They are pineapple studs and I am in love with them. They are sterling silver with a gold overlay and I absolutely love them. I’ve been looking for something like this for a long time and I finally find ones that are just so pretty. I automatically add them to my cart. I also see a necklace that is on sale and it has the same treatment, sterling silver with a gold overlay. You see I am allergic to costume jewelry. If it’s made out of Zink or any other materials I get a rash on my skin. These pieces being sterling silver will do just fine. I continue to walk around the store and go to the toy isle and shoe isle as well as the beauty and haircare isle. At the haircare isle, I am looking through some of the products and I tumble a bunch of them on the floor. Good thing the ones that fell on the floor were all in plastic bottles. There were a few in glass, if I would have dropped those I would have made a mess. After I put everything back on the shelf, I find a haircare product that is for helping with hair growth and split ends. It’s a product with an Egyptian formula and I add it to my cart. It’s a bit more that what I really wanted to spend in such a small bottle but I get it anyway. I want to donate my hair and want to make sure it’s really healthy. I had gown out my hair during covid and it apparently was all broken and had a lot of split ends. At one point I asked my husband if he would help me to cut my hair. Just to make it straight as I had already cut about an inch myself. He then cut about four inches from me as he said my hair was filled with split ends and looked horrible. So now I’m going to be spending a bit of my hard earned dollars in order to ensure the hair is nice and healthy for a wig. After the beauty department I head over to the checkout line and see that it is a long line. So I decided to go into the men’s department to see if there were any raincoats available also so I could pass the time without having to wait on that line for so long. The line dwindles down and then I get on it. After my purchases I am very eager to put on my new pair of pineapple earrings. In the car, I put one on and it doesn’t feel right on my ear. I take it off and the piece that goes through the hole breaks off of the earing. I am so disappointed, I don’t remember them having another pair on the shelf. Oh well tough break. I get out my receipt and head back into the store. I get back to the jewelry section and yay they have another pair or pineapple earrings. I pick it right up and head to the cashier line and that line is back to being really long again. To waste a little bit of time I look through the women’s section again and pick up a green shirt with gold specs that I was debating adding to my cart before. I threw caution to the wind and picked it up then get on the checkout line to exchange the earrings and pay for the shirt. The line was still long but I couldn’t shop anymore. I can’t spend any more money today. I make my purchases and once I get to the car I try on the earrings again and this time they fit perfectly and nothing breaks.
After tj maxx I had over to the pharmacy to pick up my much needed medicine. It is on the way, after all, to the grocery store and I make a quick stop over there. Once I have my medicine I head over to the shopping center next door and go to the grocery store. There I purchase my husband enough soups for the week as well as some deli items. I also get ice cream to go with the pies I bought yesterday along with some yogurts. I then head on home to put everything away. In my newly clean car with the windows rolled down I pass by the farms by our house and see just how beautiful they are. I’m sure they are a lot of work to tend, but it’s incredible to see how the farmers plant sunflowers and one month or so later, there they are, beautiful flowers from a pile of seeds. After mesmerizing on the fields, I get home and put everything away in it’s rightful spot in the pantry and fridge. I’m finally done for the day and I go ahead and take my well needed shower. I take my time as I have a lot of gunk and little weeds to remove from me and my hair. I wash my hair with shampoo a few times to get everything out and condition the hell out of it. After my shower I use towel dry my hair and use my new Egyptian serum that I got today, on my hair. It is light and it feels really smooth. I then lather up my skin in oils, lotions and potions. I rub oil for my belly. Some lotion to slow down the hair growth on my legs. Eye cream and a face lotion. And then a particular thick lotion for my feet. I have to put on sock after I rub this lotion otherwise I am going to do the slip and slide on my hardwood floors. All the while I am listening to the book The Seven Husband of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid. The story is a bit of a sad one. The main character finds the love of her life but cannot be with her. In turn out she marries a bunch of other men, seven to be exact, in order to forget about her lover. The story takes place in the 1940’s where being queer is a crime. The story gets deeper and deeper about the love affairs and what the actreses do in order to be together. It gets deep but I don’t want to give anything away. Would I recommend it? Not really. As mentioned it was a bit sad. I thought that it was going to be an exciting book about a glamorous movie star and that it would put me in a good mood. But in the end it was a bit sad, the whole thing. And the book is really long too. About ten hours of an audiobook. Today I listened to about seven of those hours. Between cleaning out the backyard and shopping. I listened to the entire thing today.
Shortly after my shower, the family comes back from playing pokemonGo. For some reason my daughter’s feet are all filled with dirt and she askes me, rather tells me that she needs her feet to be washed. So I put on the kitchen counter and placed her feet in the kitchen sink. As I’m getting the water ready she simply says to me ‘I don’t like you.’ I tell her that that’s not very nice. And I ask her why she doesn’t like me. She doesn’t respond and says I don’t know and I don’t know why I said that. I keep on washing her feet and then I leave her there and go to the closet to grab a towel and there’s my grandma, cleaning her feet with paper towels. She turns to me and says that the towel I brought isn’t going to dry anything. And then she picks her up and moves her down from the counter. I got a double whammy. I am I not only unliked by my own child but I don’t know what I’m doing either. As if using a towel to wipe her feet is a terrible idea and using paper towel is the smart way to do things. After that I sit down on the couch but after a while I can’t sit there anymore as I am staring to tear up. My own daughter telling me that she doesn’t like me put me over the edge and I walk over to my bedroom. I can’t help myself but start to cry. This isn’t the first time my daughter has said something like that to me. And it pains me each and every single time those types of words come out from the mouth of a seven year old. I don’t know what I’ve done or not done to make her feel this way about me. I can’t help but to cry. And then I am convulsing and I can’t show my face like that so take some medicine to help me calm down. So I cry in silence and am trying to stay away from them as much as possible until the medicine kicks in. Then I have to use the bathroom and notice there aren’t any tissues left. The medicine has started to kick in and I don’t feel so lonely so ashamed. It is dark so no one can see my glassy and red eyes so I head down to the basement to get the tissues. In doing that I have to pass the living room where they are all sitting and are all on their perspective electronic devices. My husband asks what I’m doing and I say getting tissues. My voice must have still been cracking at that point because when I came back up from the basement he followed me into the bathroom and asked me very loudly if I was mad at anyone in the house. I told him that I didn’t want to talk about it. And then the tears start rolling down again. He leaves and I pinch myself so I would stop with the crying. But it was no use, they just kept on rolling down my face. I close myself in the bedroom again and start looking through pinterest and looking at shoes. Doing this always distracts me from being in a sad place. When I am able to pull myself together again I finally go back into the living room and act as if everything is ok. They are watching a show on tv and I’m just sitting there staring into nothing. Shortly after it is about nine thirty or so and I told everybody that I was going to bed. I kiss everyone goodnight. I am so saddened with my daughter but I give her a kiss on the forehead anyway and she wipes my kiss away. She doesn’t like it when I kiss her. She says its always wet and she doesn’t like it. Just yet another blow to my stomach tonight. I then go to the bedroom get changed and look through my social media so I can forget about my misery. Shortly after my bedroom door is open and my daughter is at the door. Both my husband and grandma are now yelling at her to come in and apologize to me. I keep on looking down at my phone. She apologizes but I don’t even think she know what she is apologizing for. Grandma is then the one who is telling her to get onto the bed and give me a hug. But she is not feeling it. And neither am I. I am too hurt for this apology. But she gets onto the bed anyway and gives me a very uncomfortable hug. Then they all leave me be. Shortly after my husband comes back into the bedroom and tells me that she has done that to him as well. And, well shit, I don’t believe him. She will actually go up to him and give him hugs and tells him that she loves him. She does the same to her grandmother and even the dog. But won’t do the same to her mother. My heart is in a million pieces and I don’t know if I can put it back together today. Looking back at my day, I was having a good one. I got my work done and then got to the store and found my favorite thing, the pineapple earrings. Then the grocery store, which I really don’t like to do, but since I had found my treasure I was happy to do the work. I finished listening to my book and was very happy about that as well. And then a few little words from a tiny person just completely ruined my entire day if not my week. As I’m writing this I am crying all over again as if it just happened. Thinking back, this hasn’t been the first time she’s said something like that to me. She at one point even told me that she didn’t love me. Now that, was a terrible day. It was a summer day and we were just about getting ready to go to a party and I had to pretend that I had terrible allergies and that is why my eyes kept on being so red and tearing up. My eyes were so red and swollen, but I couldn’t help myself and cry all day long at the party and pretend that everything was ok. I even mingled and laughed along with peoples jokes as my eyes were still tearing up. It was one of the worst days of my life. But I got over it because she is such a little girl and probably doesn’t know what she means by love. She told me that since I don’t give her any gifts like grandma and daddy do that she doesn’t love me because of that. I was so stunned with that statement, that I didn’t even know what to say. Within the next few days I had to explain to her that love is not about giving gifts to each other. I told her that it’s a nice thing. But explained that love is a feeling you have towards someone. And so on and so on. But I don’t think she was really listening. She was only five years old after all and how can one talk reason to a five year old. But something may have stayed there because she never said it again. But now with the I don’t like you business, I don’t like it. This hasn’t been the first time either. But I just brushed it off. I’m sure it won’t be the last time she’ll tell me this. I’m sure in her teenage years she will be doing just that. What I’m really sad about is that she is too young to be saying or feeling things like this. At this age a child should be free to love everyone. I remember I loved everyone at that age. All I wanted also was to be loved and play with everyone. So, I went to bed with a bunch of xanax in my system and a sleeping pill and put on an audiobook so I wouldn’t think about today’s misery any longer. I eventually fell asleep while listening to the book and looking through my social media. What a day!
It’s Monday morning and my rotten alarm goes off at five thirty as if I’m going to work or something. Silly clock, doesn’t it know that I have off today?! However, I was up at two in the morning as I was so thirsty I couldn’t sleep feeling like that. I get up and go to the kitchen and drink a huge gulp of water. When I am satisfied I head on over back to bed and was able to fall asleep on my own this time. Usually, I need to be lulled back to sleep by looking through my social media or watching a video or something along those lines, but not today. At seven I wake up out of the blue and I’m feeling hot and hungry. I head over to the kitchen and make myself breakfast. An english muffin with pumpkin jam and of course a cup of coffee. It is still early and but I want to head outside and get my gardening done. For that I will need to use my weed wacker and maybe wake up the neighbors. I don’t want to do that so I head on over to my laptop instead and get to writing. By nine I get outside and get gardening. I take the iris’s from amongst the weeds and transplant the to the flower bed by the front door. Then I weed wack until my heart is content, actually until the battery runs out. I still have some more weeds to get rid so I take out the charger and charge the battery. Meanwhile I take out a root of the azaleas from one side of the yard and plant them on the other side by the neighbors fence. It’s a bit shady over there but I think they will take. The battery is charged and I weed wack some more. I am outside for a few hours and then I feel like I’ve accomplished something that I’ve wanted to do for a while. All I need now is for the plants to grow. I don’t have a green thumb so usually the plants don’t make it unless they are very hardy. The ones that I’ve planted today seem so. Hopefully they will take and I’ll have a pretty area where I don’t get to see the chain-link fence anymore. That is my goal. I then get inside and take a much needed shower. I have pieces of dirt all over my face and in my hair. I wash my hair a few times with shampoo to make sure that I get everything out of it. I then lather up in lotion by sections. I rub oil on my belly as it’s getting very jelly like. I know I’m no longer young and I’m a bit too large for my size and my belly has carried a baby and therefore it’s no longer available for a bikini. But I want to make sure that it’ll be nice and plump for as long as I can. All the while my belly is rumbling. I get dressed really quickly and then go to the kitchen and have myself a leftover salad. I ate it so fast it’s almost as if I drank it. After that I get myself a starbucks frappuccino that we’ve had stored for a while. It’s probably outdated by now, but I try it and it still tastes good so I get some ice in a cup and have myself a frapp.
It’s Tuesday and I wake up at the ripe hour of two in the morning. I toss and turn and then get out of bed and head to the kitchen for a midnight snack. I have some peanut butter M&Ms and then a spoonful of regular peanut butter. It hit the spot and then I head back to bed. I’m tossing and turning again, so I turn on my social media and scroll through pretty photos. I eventually fall back asleep and wake up at seven. I must have missed the six alarm clock and slept right through it. But not to worry as I took off today from work so I could take mom to the doctor. By eight I head out and go to the donation bin and drop off a few bags filled with clothing. Some are mine some are from my parent’s house. Things that no longer fit or are plainly unfit to wear any longer. I then head on over to my parent’s house and have two hours to get them ready for the doctors appointment. Even still they took those two hours to get ready. One is waiting for the other and they are both taking their time to get ready. This drives me out of my mind. We left later than I wanted to the doctors. On the way I receive a phone call from the doctors office. I don’t answer as I am driving and I don’t talk on the phone while driving. Especially since I didn’t have my headphones and the windows are wide open. Once we reach the doctors office, I listen to the message and they tell me that they have made a mistake. Mom was not to see a rheumatologist but a hematologist. I took the full day off for this appointment and now it’s a waste of a day. Today is very hot but mom is still wearing a thin jacket as she is always cold. Meanwhile, I am in short and a tank top because it is so hot and humid. We get home and I have planned to get outside and weedwack the front bed as the weeds are way overgrown. However, I get a sadness over me that I feel like I can’t do anything. It felt like a black cloud just came over me and I felt just awful. I took some medicine to make the depression go away but it was of no use. I stat on the couch for a little while and just couldn’t get myself to get out there and do the work. Plus it was so humid I was having trouble breathing right. Dad turned on the tv and then he turned it back off and said that he was going to take a nap. Guess the morning rush made him tired and needed a nap. Meanwhile mom is sitting on the couch and did the same. She fell asleep under a blanket. I don’t know how they are so cold all of the time. But I suppose this is how old age treats you. Shortly after I left and went to the big box store as I have to get some shopping done. I get into the store and it is nice and cool in there and I take my time doing the shopping. It’s so comfortable in there, temperature wise that I want to bring some of that with me into the car. You see, the air conditioning in my car has crapped out and it continues to not work. I have to endure the heat and open up those windows. I get home and clean out all of the groceries, put them away and my mother in law helped to put the items away too to alleviate the burden of putting things away. I then take a quick shower as I have an appointment later in the day. In my appointment for therapy, we talk a bit about my new job and how much anxiety I have about it. I had a new boss and then a week later, I have yet another new boss. Not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. But I am hoping for the best. We also talk about how I think that I am a dumb creature and my therapist tells me that this is all in my head. I am the one who is the hardest on myself. She tell me I have to change my narrative of myself to myself. We talked some more and I always feel better after therapy. Today is a full day, I have to pass by kohls to drop off some items to return to amazon, but they tell us that amazon is down. They currently can not take anything back at this time as the systems are currently down. Finally, I head on home. I have dinner by myself as the family ate while I was at therapy. I am ok with this as I feel bad if they feel like they need to wait for me. I’ve already told them in the past for them to go ahead and eat dinner without me. That I will eat later after I come back from my appointment. After dinner I sit on the couch and am falling asleep. It’s eight thirty and I am ready to go ahead and lay down in bed and retire for the day. It’s been a long day and I need the rest.
It’s Wednesday and I wake up in the middle of the night. I take a look at my phone and see that it’s midnight. No idea why I woke up. Wasn’t having any bad dreams or anything, I just plainly woke up. I then tossed a bit but was able to fall back asleep. After a couple of hours I wake up again. It’s two in the morning and I can’t sleep anymore. I get out of bed use the bathroom then to the kitchen and have myself some cookies. I go back to bed and lay down in bed but am having trouble falling asleep. I log in to Pinterest and look at short haircuts that I am thinking of having. I eventually fall back asleep. At seven or so, I wake up all groggy and am mad that I keep on waking up at two in the morning. I’d rather wake up at five or six and get my day started at that time. I could plan around going on the treadmill, taking a shower and fixing my very long hair. Waking up at the seven o’clock hour just doesn’t work out well. This morning I find out that I’ll be going into the office on Monday. Not sure how I’m looking forward to this or not. It’s a Monday and there will be traffic and I have to make sure I wake up early enough and want to make a good impression when I get there. So I will have to have my nails painted, my hair fixed and dressed well. The dress code has changed but I will not be going into my first day in jeans. I will need to plan out my outfit the day before and be ready for the day. During my lunch hour I head out to the drycleaners and drop off a bunch of items: coats, kitchen runners, rug, shirts, pants. Lots of things. I then head over to the grocery store and make a few purchases for the house including white strips for my teeth. I feel like I will be meeting with a lot of people for my new job and need to look my best, so I am trying these out to see it they will whiten my pearly whites. I then get a phone call from the husband to aske me if I am alright as the car was gone and my mother in law did not know if I was home or not and she thought the car was stolen. Nope, my trusty Honda does not have ac and today is a hot one so I took out the family car as it is nice and cool in there. Besides everyone is fine and there won’t be any emergencies. But when I got home it seemed like my mother in law was angry that I took out the car. She said that my daughter is sick and asked if I cleaned everything in the car. Good thing I took a Xanax so that her random comments don’t make me all sorts of angry. I just simply shrug them off as if they have nothing to do with me. I am clean and I continue to wear a mask as I go to the stores. I am safe and everyone is too. In the evening we have dinner and then my husband heads to bed as he needs to take a nap before he heads back to work. He is working tonight and will be out there until five or six in the morning. As for me I am continuing to watch videos regarding my cameras and lenses. At one point my eyes start to cross and my brain is no longer able to take anything else in. I turn off work and turn on youtube and watch Jay Shetty and listen to him talk about what happens when you see your greatest joy and brings you to your greatest potential.
It’s Thursday and I wake up all startled and then looked at my phone to see the time and the battery died over night. This morning I didn’t wake up at two in the morning like I’ve been doing almost every morning and then waking up all groggy and in a foul mood. However, I still wake up in a bit of a bad mood and the phone not working simply makes me angry. I quickly turn plug the phone into the charger and see if my husband had called me this morning. He was to call for me to go ahead and pick him up from work and his truck will need to go into the shop as the breaks are not working. I notice there weren’t any missed calls or text messages so I roll out of bed and get ready for when he calls for me to pick him up. I prepare my coffee and then get dressed. I want to be ready to go when I get that phone call from the husband. I pour my coffee and get online and read a few news articles and then the phone rings. It’s my husband, as I’m answering I’m already thinking about where I left my sneakers and where my bag is so I may leave right away, when he asks me to simply open the door for him. I head to the door and there he is, all dirty from work and with a different truck. I told him I was all ready to go pick him up and he said there is no need for that today. I help him to put his items away and take his clothes into the hamper to get washed. He then heads over to the bathroom to take a shower and I am back online. I have enough time to get on the treadmill, but I am feeling a little tired. Plus, I always watch some sort of show or movie while I am on the mill. Today I won’t be able to view anything as the battery on the phone is at 6% at this point. I will instead watch the news on tech and see if I can use anything that I watch or learn and add it to my new marketing position. So far I haven’t done much with my new position besides a lot of reading about the products and the types of items that have been sent from the product groups. It feels odd as I am so used to being so busy all day long that having this, what I will call downtime for now, is making my anxiety run a bit high. I’m not sure what else I should be doing or learning. If I should be watching anything on youtube about the products or if I should be tackling anything else. I haven’t gotten much direction as of yet. Next week we’ll be going into the office and hopefully there will be more direction at that point and hopefully more to do so I won’t feel like I’m simply only watching videos and reading report after report. After a while I need to take a break from watching and reading about my items. I decide that it was time to show how you how long my hair has gotten during the pandemic. I am planning on donating anyway, but if it wasn’t for the pandemic, I would have already donated it by now. Since covid is still out there and there are a bunch of different variations of it, I won’t be going into the salon anytime soon. I’ve been dying my grays at home and I feel like at this time I need a trim. I don’t see any dead end and feel like it can continue to grow as is. But I feel like it needs a little something. So a cut may be just the thing it needs. I’ll see how I feel this weekend and maybe give myself a trim. I used to do it all the time when my hair was a curly and no one would notice if it was a bit lopsided or not as the curls would cover it up. After having my child my hair texture changed and now it is straight. I’ll have to be very careful if I decide to go that rout this weekend.
During my lunch hour I am watching more videos about our competition and now I’m thinking why go with one over the other brand. I understand there is a better customer service for us. But I notice some of the images are just as beautiful. I will need to understand more about this difference of why us versus them. Meanwhile my husband is napping and I am trying my best to be as quiet as possible. The AC is on and it’s nice because it’s like while noise and it’s lulling him to sleep. Hopefully he will be awake by three as I have a meeting then. If not I will most likely be going into the kitchen or maybe even the basement where it is quiet and my little one is not near as she has been a bit more vocal recently than usual. She may just be bored or maybe she is simply having too much fun with the dog and yelling with him as he barks. By the afternoon I finally have the meeting about a new product that is launching later in the year. We talk about items to market and how to market the, who will help with this marketing and much more. They team is talking so fast about all of the individuals who will be doing things for us that I am simply typing away what I hear and can understand. I thought it was going to be a long meeting meeting since it’s about something new. But it turns out, it was a quick one. It took only half an hour and we were off. At this point I’m not certain of what exactly I need to do to help the team so I will wait for a little while before I start asking questions. As per my new boss I am to shadow one of the ladies that has been working for this side of the business for a while. So hopefully we will get together soon and go over what exactly it is that I can do.
I take a break since I’m getting hungry and feeling a bit nauseous so I head to the kitchen and have myself a yogurt. I notice it is getting darker and darker outside since there is a storm coming up this this way. Before my workday is over I take yet another break to take the garbage’s out before it starts to rain. However, I’m not able to leave the house as my husband wants to show me things on his phone. He wants to purchase things and is asking me for my opinion and that is fine, but I am trying to rush to get outside. I’m finally able to get away and guess what, of course, it starts to sprinkle outside. I run to put out the garbage pails at the curb and get a little wet. Pain in the ass husband couldn’t have waited five minutes for me to do what I had to do before not being able to shut his pie whole. In the evening I am looking through my summer clothes to see cool enough clothing that I can take to work and also be as comfortable as possible in the ac-less car. I have a few dresses that are sleeveless and a few thin pairs of pants that I will be able to use during hotter days. It shouldn’t be too bad as I get out early enough where it’s not that hot and leave late enough where the hot heat has gone away. Over the weekend I will need to make sure my nails are nice and pretty as well as my eyebrows and holly molly my upper lip. That one is getting out of control. As I’m getting older, I’m getting more facial hair. Why is this happening?! I thought that the older you get the less hair you have. Not me. I’m the opposite. I will need to make sure I’m all primped and ready to go. I will most likely be meeting my new boss as well as all new people that I will be working with. I need to be confident enough to meet everyone without feeling embarrassed about facial hair. I will soon have to dye my hair as well. It’s growing and I am starting to see a few silver streaks. No need to show everyone that I’m this old. I’ll need some makeup too. Have a lot to get ready for.
It’s Friday and it’s my last day from working from home. Next week we will be going back into the office. We’re starting off only a couple of time per week and then I’m sure, we’ll be going in many more times. This morning I woke up at three in the morning as I really needed to use the bathroom. Must have drank too much water last night before going to bed. I really need to watch my water intake after dinner. I tend to drink a lot and not look at the time and then this happens. After my pee break I wasn’t able to get back to sleep right away so I looked through my social media. I’m getting a bit bored with it. My friends must be too because there are more ads than there are posts from friends. I get bored very quickly with instagram and move on over to facebook. Same with facebook, not that many people are posting anymore. However, I am part of a few groups that have vintage images and other things like old types of plate settings and anything that is pink or another that only shows photos of my old country of Portugal. I look through those and eventually fall asleep. My husband is up shortly after that and I’m so confused because I thought that he wasn’t going in to work this morning as he worked last night. Plus this morning is to rain a lot due to the Elsa that is coming up the coast. His day is going to be terrible, not just the rain but dealing with all of what comes with it will most likely be a pain. As for me, I wake up with a cramp on my leg and have to immediately jump out of bed and shake off the cramp. I walk around the room a bit for it to go away and it eventually leaves my body. As I’m going to lay back into bed the phone alarm goes off as it is six in the morning. Well, guess it’s time to get up and head over to the treadmill. I will need an hour and a half to do my walking and hopefully running today. Today I am wearing my LI Roller Rebels t-shirt that I got when my husband and I went to go see the roller derby of Long Island. It was a lot of fun watching the girls and guys teams skate around the track. The girls were all wearing fun outfits as were the guys. But the girls race was a bit more fun to watch. It was a good time. So much so that I got me a shirt. I usually don’t buy memorabilia form when I go to places but this time it felt different. Plus I love the color and the design.
After my gym workout I will then need an hour or so for my shower as it takes forever to take care of my hair. After the shower there is all of the lathering of lotions and potions and then again, taking care of my long old hair. Thinking of giving it a trim this weekend. I will need to take out my sheers specifically for hair and see if I can just cut off an inch or less. This will hopefully straighten the hair out a bit. Right now when I make a braid there isn’t enough hair at the tips to finish off the braid. It’s as if a few section of hair grew longer than others. Anyway, I haven’t trimmed it in over a year and it’s about time. I’ve been trying a few hair styles lately. Don’t know if I should part my hair to the side or in the middle. I think all of the younger generation is parting it in the middle and here I am still parting it to the side. For the rest of this week I think I will be working on parting it to the middle and see how it turns out. I will of course take photos and show them of to you. I will also need to figure out a few other styles for work so I won’t always go in with my hair down. It is very long and it needs a little spunk here and there. Right now, I’m not overworked as of yet and can play around a bit with style. Speaking of which, I was rummaging through my closet last night and found a couple of dresses that I thought I had lost or placed them in a very safe spot that I couldn’t find them. Turns out they were in the middle of the section of where my husband’s clothes are hanging. He has a few dress shirts, short and pants in the closet and these lost souls were right in between them. I’ve decided and I will be wearing one of them today. It is a black and white checkered type and I really like it. It may be a little low cut in the front and I may need to wear an undershirt with it. I will double check when I put it on. The dress also does not have sleeves, so I will put on a light sweater when I have meetings today. Looking at my calendar, I don’t have many, so I will be ok throughout the day. It is seven and it is pouring outside. I’m ok with this as I panted a few flowers and other plants last week and they need watering. I should have watered them when I planted them, but I was getting tired and the bugs were out so I decided to let nature do what it does best let them be and wait for rainy days. While on the treadmill I was looking for the next show to watch as I am doing my exercises. There is really nothing that entices me to watch. So I settle for the movie Bad Teacher. It’s not what I was looking for but it will do for today’s workout. This morning I pushed on the treadmill and walked for two miles than ran for a full mile. This made me feel very refreshed. I haven’t gone out for a run in a while. Today was a good workout. I then head to back up to take shower but have a snack prior to showering. Working out makes me hungry. After my shower I lathe up in lots of lotions and potions. One for full body other for around the eyes another for the face. And then I’ve been putting beauty oil on my belly to see if these stretch marks start to fade away. It may be too late but you never know. I then lather up my feet with the non-greasy lotion so that I won’t kill myself on the hardwood floors. I get dressed and start my day.
After a while I remember to take my clothes to the hamper in the basement. I drop them off and then I notice there is a flood of some sort right in the middle of the basement. I looked around to see where the water may have come from, but I couldn’t figure it out. I pushed the dehumidifier over to the area and hopefully it will pick up the majority of the liquid. It seems like it’s water as it doesn’t have any scent or any color. So odd that it’s right in the middle of where there aren’t any tubes or anything that may leak. At least I don’t think so. I look around and around and couldn’t figure our where the liquid is coming from. During my lunch hour I’ll head back down there and look closer to see where it stemmed from because right now, I truly have no idea. So my mother in law figured it out, the leak is coming from the outside spigot. I rained cats and dogs last night and the water must have seeped into the house somehow and now we’re going to have to remove a bunch of items from the basement and probably toss them out as it’s paper wrapping paper and other christmas and holiday items including gift bags. I now have work for the weekend. However during my lunch hour I had a webinar and half way through it I fell asleep. I have no ideal what they talked about. It was regarding a person who works in public relations and her journey as a woman in the workplace. Apparently it’s been working out well for her as she has a high post in our organization. For the rest of the afternoon I was watching videos about camera systems and more camera systems. Not gonna lie some of them were documenteries that simply just made me fall asleep. By the time I woke up the show was still on and they kept on going on and on about their journey. I had to take a break and looked through my social media for a little while. In the evening the family went out and I opted to stay home. I’m becoming a homebody. I’d rather stay at home where I’m nice and comfy in my bedroom/office and on the couch. Tonight I am tired and fall asleep on my victorian chair as I’m watching something about better living on youtube. I wake up about an hour later or so and then change into my PJs and get to bed.
It’s Saturday and without fail, I wake up at two in the morning. I get out of bed and head to the kitchen and have a few cookies. This is becoming a bad habit. I then head back to bed and am having trouble falling asleep so I look through twitter. There isn’t much that catches my attention and I eventually fall back asleep. At six thirty I am up again. Then I toss and turn until about seven and I finally give up and get out of bed. My husband is already up with the dog and I play with my Rufus for a little while. I then give him breakfast and toast myself some waffles and add some syrup to them and of course, coffee.
After breakfast I get cleaning, I dust and dust and now it smells like lemon fresh. All I need to do now is wait a bit until my little one is awake and then I can vacuum. It’s noisy and I don’t want to wake her up. All the while I am cleaning very angrily. Don’t know why but I am very annoyed today. Not at anything in particular. Just annoyed. I one point I am angry and have to take something to calm my nerves. Usually on Saturdays I go to my parents’ house and clean so I get all of my energy out. Today, I decided that I will stay home and not go there so I have a lot of amped up energy that I haven’t gotten rid of. Maybe that’s why I’m angry. I don’t know. All I know is that I need to fix my hair and my nails and everything else for Monday morning as it’s back to work time and I need to look and feel my best. So I chop off about an inch off my hair. I will need my husband to take a look and make sure it looks straight. He has fallen asleep on the couch so I will have to wait for a while until he wakes and takes a look at it. I wanted to wash it today and put product on it to make it soft, but guess it’ll have to wait for later or even tomorrow. Meanwhile I am bored and don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve already taken some photos and did as much as I could for a Saturday morning. I don’t want to watch anything on tv nor do I want to do any work as the weather doesn’t look so great and it’s going to rain soon. The family goes out to the store and I stay home. My husband needs to go to the shoe store to get himself some boots and I am not in the mood to go out and be in the boot store. Meanwhile I am home and an thinking of finishing off the audiobook that I have started last week, Where the Crawdads Sing.
It’s a bit of a sad story and it reminds me of another book that I have read of a young girl coming of age. Can’t remember the name of the book at this second but it’ll come to me. The book is a long one, I laid down in bed to listed to the book and I feel asleep listening to it. I missed a couple of chapters but then woke up and continued to listed to it feels like I didn’t miss much. This book is a bit boring to me. I like suspense types of stories as they keep me on my toes and interested on what I’m listening to. This type of book is about the main characters day to day loneliness and how tough coming of age is for her. It does tug at my heart strings and it makes me sad but the main character is able to get out of her rut and does well later on in life. Oh hell, I keep listening and the main characters story goes back to bad. All the while all I wanted to do was snack on something but don’t know what. I’ve been drinking mango juice and that is as a great a snack as I can get. I love mango. But now I feel like I need something in my to munch. I don’t think I ate anything this morning, I don’t think. Just drank coffee and then drank mango juice. It’s now six in the afternoon and I need to get something in my belly. Actually, I thought it was three in the afternoon as the sun is beaming in through my bedroom/office where I’ve spent most of the afternoon. I don’t want to waste the day so I head outside for a little while to be in the warmth of the end of the day.
It eventually gets a bit chilly and the bugs are coming out, so I head back inside. Shortly after, the family comes back home and my husband brings me a Hawaiian flavored chicken with rice. They went to a Japanese restaurant located in Port Jefferson Station and it is delicious. I eat only half of it as it is a lot and will have the rest later or tomorrow. I then sit on the couch and we are watching something in relation to food. Gordon Ramsey, I think. He is going out to different countries and eating their specialty foods, well I it looks more like it’s their everyday food, but to us it would most likely be specialty. I fell right to sleep while watching this show. I was feeling a little cold so I put a cover over me and the show watched me. After a while later, my husband calls my name as asks me if I want to take the dog outside. Well gee, let me think about this. I am laying here sleeping and you want me to get right up and take out the dog. Well apparently I always let people walk all over me and so I say, sure I’ll take him out. The dog and I go outside and the dog may sensed my sleepiness as he pees right away. He then runs right to the door and we go back inside. I then get right back to where I was, underneath the covers and get right back to sleep. After what feels like a few hours of maybe just minutes, I’m not sure. I wake up and get out of the couch and have myself a drink of water as I am really thirsty. I may have drank too much because my belly started to hurt. I took my sleeping pills and at that point so that I would be able to sleep all night long and hung around for a little while longer until my belly stopped hurting. I kiss everyone goodnight with the exception of my daughter. She doesn’t like to be kissed by her mother. My husband gets grossed out when I kiss him because I have lotion and he doesn’t like goo on my face. As for my mother in law, she keeps on having conversations with me that she doesn’t trust it when I go outside the house because she thinks I am not careful enough and may bring in disease like covid into the house. And therefore my daughter gets scared and doesn’t want to give me a hug or a kiss. Nice right? So I go to bed without a kiss from her, but I force a small hug. I’ll take what I can get.
It’s Sunday and I wake up all sorts of hot and also cold and all sorts of uncomfortable. My feet and legs and sweaty and my arms are freezing. I take off the covers from my feet and legs and pull them up over my arms. I then start to think about how my daughter doesn’t want to have anything to do with me when it comes to giving me some love. All of these reasons come to mind and I start to get angry. So much so that I have to get out of bed and take something to calm my nerves. I don’t usually wake up like this. I, for the most part have a routine and don’t have the time to think about things that may make me angry or upset. My routine is to roll out of bed, use the bathroom, make my coffee and then make something to eat like toast, english muffin or waffles, when I remember I have them. This is how I feel this morning.
For breakfast, I usually go for the bread because I forget that there are goodies in the freezer. Most of the items in the freezer are for my daughter and I don’t even think about eating them. My mother in law is the one who does the majority of the breakfast purchases for my daughter so I wouldn’t dare to eat what she has purchased for her. Don’t worry, if I even touch her breakfast items, she will remind me that they are for her and not for me. Yesterday, I cut an inch or so off my hair as it needed it since it’s becoming a little lopsided. I haven’t cut it in about a year since I haven’t gone to the salon due to covid. Today, I asked my husband if he could straighten it out and make sure it wasn’t crooked. He said yes and grabbed the scissors. Then, I feel a whole lotta hair being cut. I go look and notice he cut about three inches off my head. I was not a happy camper. I asked him why he did it that way. I reminded him that I want it to grow so that I could donate it to charity. He told me that the ends were so damaged and it needed to be cut that much. I didn’t cry, but I was sad and a little mad because he didn’t do what I asked. He of course did what he wanted.
I looked at it and it doesn’t look bad, but I wanted it to be longer so I could finally donate it and have it cut short so I won’t have to take forever to get ready after my shower. Now that it’s done, I’ll have to be happy with it. I put on a bunch of product such as detangler, slit end mender and volumizer for my roots. It’s still a bit frizzy on top. I’ll have to put on a bit of hair spray for the frizz to go down.
After my haircut, I get to the treadmill and run for a few miles. I am all sweaty and ready for a shower. I take my shower then notice that the manicure that I gave myself yesterday is already chipping. Either the nail polish is terrible or the shampoo and body wash are so harsh that it took the polish right off. Then I notice that I missed one of my nails. I missed my thumb and did not polish it. What a mess. While I’m thinking about giving myself another manicure my husband asks if I could take care of his feet. Cut his nails and rub some lotion to loosen the pain from work. I do just that. I rub some lotion on his feet in order to soften everything up and then very carefully cut his toe nails. Last time I cut his nails, I also cut off some of the skin and made him bleed. So this time I was extra careful. Yay, I didn’t chop anything off which was a good thing and then I filled the nails down as they tend to grow upward as opposed normal people who’s nails grow forward. Then he told me that the lotion I put on his feet is too greasy and he doesn’t like it. It makes him feel icky. I get out baby wipes and wipe the feet down to take out the lotion and then paper towels to take out the film that the baby wipes leave on the skin. After doing all of this I get out the vacuum and suck up all of the stuff that have fallen to the carpet. All of the nail clippings and the dusk from filing down the nails. While I’m at it, I continue to vacuum the house as it has dirt from the dog and going outside with him this morning. There are little pockets of dirt that need to be cleaned up. I then get to my bedroom/office and take care of some clothes that need to go to charity. I also look at a couple of outfits for tomorrow for the first day back at work. It’s starting to feel like the first day of school. What to wear, what to wear? One of the outfits is a dress and the other is a pair of light colored pants and a light pink top. I show these to my husband and ask what he thinks. He’s nice and blunt and tells me that he thinks the dress is hideous. I bought the dress at target last year. The fabric is really light and it’s a turtleneck with a bit of a ruffle. He said for me to take the pants instead it’ll make a better impression. I was very upset that he made so much fun of my dress. It’s not the most beautiful of dresses but I like it. It’s black with small brown flowers. It reminds me of a type of print from the sixties or seventies. He may be right, for a better impression, I will take the pants and the light colored top. It’s about three in the afternoon and I need to head out to the store to make returns and I will also be looking for skirts for work. My mother in law mentioned that it may be a good idea to wear skirts every once in a while. It’ll make me more feminine and break up the monotony of always wearing pants. It may give the impression that I am looking for a management position. They do say to dress for the job you want not the job you have. I need to go to kohls for the returns so I look online for skirts but ]do not like anything that I see. I look at tj maxx online and don’t see anything either. Once I get out to kohls, I’ll pass by marshalls and see if they have anything there. Meanwhile, I am thinking about which shoes to take tomorrow for my first day as a person in the marketing team. I have a pair of light colored wedges but these are about four inches tall. Don’t know if I should take these or something a bit shorter. I’ll have to try them on later on tonight and see what feels best. So I am at kohls and see a gray skirt that looks nice and is a material that I like. It won’t wrinkle easily and its a stretchy type of material. I like it, it’s on sale and I buy it. I keep looking but don’t see anything else that I like. Plus, they are a bit expensive for the type of products they sell. I then head over to marshalls, which is in the same shopping center. There I loose myself a bit. I see a few skirts that look Kardashian like with big hips, but I get bold with my bad self and take one to the dressing room. And hey what do you know but it actually looks decent. It’s just below the knee and it fits right. Didn’t realize I have hips like that. Guess I do.
I buy a few skirts a few dresses and a few shirts. Yes, I spent some money on myself today. It’s something that I do not do often. But, today, it was the spur of the moment kind of thing and I think I did ok for myself. Earlier this week and last week, I collected a bunch of clothes that I no longer wear or that just plainly don’t look good on me. I gathered all of them up, placed them in a few plastic bags and donated them to charity. I suppose it’s about time I get some new ones. After I get home I try the clothes all on again and send photos to my husband and ask him what he thinks. I originally thought that he may get a bit mad that I’ve spent our money on things that I don’t necessarily need. But he replied with a thumbs up and said that the selections were good and they were much better than what I had originally planned to wear to work tomorrow. I am happy about this outcome. Now all I have to do is find room in the closet for all of these new things. After my fashion show I go into the kitchen and have leftovers for dinner. Accompanying my dinner is a nice pineapple margarita with fresh mint as garnish. Ahh what a nice way to end the weekend.
It’s Monday and I wake up with a bit of a hangover. I had two glasses of Margarita yesterday for my 12 year wedding anniversary and I am not used to drinking, at all. It gave me a bit of a headache this morning. Not to worry, I have tylenol and a strong cup of coffee to get over my issues. I slept for longer than I wanted due to my headache and only have half hour to get myself together before logging on to work. I take care of my skin and my hair as well as my belly. That’s important too. I then get to work. At work I am learning all about our camera systems. There is a lot to know about our systems. My main issue now are the lens line up. There are so, so many to choose from. I am looking through powerpoint presentations and videos in order to learn more about them. It’s a good thing because I like photography, I’ve just never really had the time to look into it. So with having to do all of this homework, I will learn a whole lot about it. During my lunch hour, I head out to the pharmacy and pick up our medicine. There is construction work on the road today and the road is only one way. To leave the house, I can take the short way. But to come back, I have to take the long way home. I’m ok with this. I get to be outside with the warm air for a bit longer. In the evening, we watch Disney’s Cruella. It is a very good movie. It’s a long one this one, but I really enjoyed it. The soundtrack is music from the 60’s and 70’s and I noticed some 80’s in there I believe and it’s really good. Very grungy look and feel. Very different for Disney in my opinion. I don’t get to fish watching it as it was late and way passed my bed time. I go to bed without knowing the end of the story.
It’s Tuesday and I wake up way too early for my own good. It is four in the morning and I need to use the bathroom. The dog is already walking around the house and he follows me into the bathroom. He likes in there. He’s a crazy pup! I think it’s because the floor is cooler in there and he likes to lay down on that nice cool floor. I then wake my up my husband as it is his time for him to roll out of bed and get his behind to work. I then put on my gym clothes and am about to get to the treadmill when the dog is in the need of going outside and getting busy. I take him out and it is already really hot and muggy out there. We’re out for a while and the dog takes his time doing his business. You see he doesn’t have a favorite spot to do his business, like a lot of dogs. I’ve read up a lot on training and everything and learned that generally dogs like to pick a spot and stick to it. Not my dog. He goes wherever he sees fit at the time. He sniffs and sniffs around and then, after a very long time, does his business. But he does it on different spots every time. Plus, when he poops he walks. So he leave his poop on a two foot stretch. And then someone has to pick it up. At one point he was so exited and running around that he stepped on his own poop. Rotten doggy. Now we’re going to have to wash your feet before we walk inside in the house. After we were done with the outside world, we came back in and it was time for my husband to head out. The pupper wanted to follow him out, but we held him back and he whimpered, he loves my husband. He then went to bed with grandma and I headed to the treadmill. I was on it for a long time, didn’t even realize I was on the mill for over an hour as I was watching the last of the movie, Cruella. By the time it was ending I had to stop my walk as I was really hungry and my tummy was rumbling. I’m always afraid that I may faint as I am in the basement all by myself. So I stop my walk and head over to the kitchen and make my coffee and have myself an apple turnover. More like drank it, I ate it so fast, I am really hungry this morning. I then have some coffee then hit the showers. After my shower, I take care of my very long hair. I put a detangler on my whole head and brush out all of the many knots that I have on my hair. Then I put on a split end mender cream on my bottom half of my hair as it is very creamy and it’ll make my roots all greasy if place them there. After all of this, I have to let the hair dry before styling it. I haven’t used a hair dryer since I’ve left the office and don’t plan on using one. As mentioned, my hair is very long and I simply dry it off with a towel then put it up in a bun so it doesn’t drip down my back. I leave it in a loose bun for a while, until it is mostly dry at the ends. Once it is mostly dry, I then add volumizing spray at the roots and brush the hair out. After that, I add hairspray for the loose pieces at the top of my head. It’s a very long process. But I am planning on donating my hair in the fall and need for it to be as healthy as possible. For my lunch hour I head out to the church and pick up food for the week for my parents. I still can’t believe there is such a program for them. I am so very thankful for it. I have to hurry it up and I leave the food at their doorstep and try to fly home as I have a meeting at one o’clock in the afternoon. I leave their house with very little time to spare. According to my timing, I would get home within five minutes prior to the meeting. This would give me enough time to change clothes and log on on time. What do you know but the traffic was horrendous. The street construction on my road continues and at one point we had to do a full stop on the road as they were putting down asphalt. My previous boss sent me a text message asking me it I would be able to log in and join the meeting and I replied back with “stuck in traffic.” And then “will be on in five minutes.” As soon as I pull up the driveway, I run to the door, throw off my clothes. Get into the bedroom office and log in as I’m changing my outfit. It is now fifteen minutes after the hour. I felt so bad for missing all of that time. But, we get right into it. We went over the processes and the most used template on the website. And then we went over the items that I tended to have the most trouble with. Things like adding content to an incorrect folder and how to go around that. Also, if the incorrect template is picked when creating content, how to go about fixing that. It was a good meeting and I told the team they can always reach out if they get stuck somewhere of need any further assistance. I am always happy to help. Right after this meeting I had another with the regional team and we talked about the newly launched lens. The team talks about their regions and the feedback they’ve gotten so far from their customers. If you’re interested, the lens that launched today is the RF14-35mm f4 IS L USM ultra wide zoom. I need to learn all about this lens and the team shares a link to videos for this particular lens.
In the afternoon I receive a message from a person on facebook who wants the fish tank I have placed online for free. The person, Brian, was confirming for tonight to go to my parents’ house to pick it up. At six, Brian sent another message that he was on his way with a truck and muscle power. This put a smile on my face as the fish tank is huge and it needs a good home. At this point, I get in my car and drive out to my parents house. By the time I get to my parents house I see two guys and woman who are admiring one of the many trees that is located in my parent’s front yard. He asked me if it was a pawpaw tree and I gave him a blank stare. I have no idea what kind of trees my father planted. Apparently, he planted a fruit tree in the front yard. Until today I had no idea it was a fruit tree. I will be looking out for fruit this fall from that tree. I then took them down to the basement to see the masterpiece that my husband had made many moons ago and they were enchanted. It’s a really nice piece of art. It was all handmade and made with care. They took all of the pieces that were there. I was a saltwater tank and the attachments are all still salty. I have a small cut on my finger and I felt the burn from the salty items. The people were all so nice that I also gave them two other very small tanks that I had on the side that I was planning on selling. Then my father walks in to the basement and they all greeted him so kindly I was amazed at how kind they are to him. I am very happy that the tank is going to good use and to a good home with kind people. It took us a while to get everything out onto the truck but we got it all. After they left, I closed up the house and left the mess that was underneath the tank. I will be going to the house over the weekend and will do a bit of cleaning up. After they left, my father was in the mood for talking. So he talked to me about his army days in Angola. And talked and talked and talked. He told me all sorts of stories about his days in the force and how he fixed motorcycles and cars and how his lieutenants treated him and how much he disliked being in the force. As soon as he could get out of serving, he asked for leave. He said he was in the force for 32 straight months. That’s a lot of time, I think. At one point I had to drag myself out of the house as both of them didn’t want me to leave. But what can I do? I have a family of my own and need to be with them. So I leave them and I get home and I am all by myself lol. The family has gone out to play pokemonGo. I changed my clothes one more time and changed into my PJs this time. I then noticed my feet were all dirty from the day and I get into the tub and wash them out. What I really should have done is taken a full shower but my laziness got the best of me and I just washed my feet and then headed to bed instead of taking that needed shower. I then sent a message to my husband that I was going to go to sleep. I have no idea when they got home. All I know is that my husband tapped me on my shoulder to request that I turn off my light so he could also go to sleep.
It’s Wednesday and I wake up at the bright hour of seven in the morning. The alarm went off at five but I hit snooze. There is no need for me to be up that early so I get back to my dreams. But by seven I had to get up as I couldn’t lay there any longer. I get to my coffee and breakfast of an english muffin. Today I added jam to the muffin. The one that I can reach in the pantry today is the pumpkin flavor jam, so I go with that one. I’m not picky, I’ll take almost every jelly that we have. I’m not liking the grape jelly nor the tomato jelly that we have stored. Otherwise, I will have whatever is available. I was actually looking for the lemon jelly that we have, but I couldn’t find it, so pumpkin it is. I then get online and work on my writing. Shortly after, it is almost nine and I need to get online for work. It is my second week on the job and I need to be in on time and be ready for whatever comes my way. Today I continue to read through all of the camera lines and lenses. There is a lot to learn and a ton to read. I continue to do this throughout the day. I do this until my eyes start to cross and I need to take a break.
It’s Thursday and I wake up ready for the treadmill. The alarm goes off at five thirty, but I stay in bed for a little longer. It was so comfy in there. I eventually roll out of bed and get my gym clothes on and head over to the treadmill. I walk for three miles and am watching Ozark on Netflix. I watch a few episodes and then I head on over to the living room and do my sit-ups. Haven’t done these in a while and it is not easy for me to sit up. But I get them done and the I stretch for a little while. I get my coffee going and place my bread in the toaster oven. While my breakfast is worked on I hit the showers. I took my time today in the shower, it was so warm and delightful that I didn’t want to leave. Eventually I did and lathered up with pearberry cream. It smells so good, it makes it feel like summer. As I’m getting dressed, I log on to work as it is already eight thirty and I want to make sure I don’t miss anything. I don’t have any meeting for nine o’clock so I take my time getting ready for my day. I lather up on lotion for my face and then take care of my long hair with a bunch of hair product. I am satisfied with the outcome and then log on again. I still don’t have any messages nor any meetings, so I do a bad thing and I lay down for a little bit and take a little nap. For some reason I am very sleepy today and need to lay down for a little while. It is a cooler day outside today but the air conditioner keeps on going off and I am getting very cold. I change the temperature on the machine and feel more comfortable now. I will need to change the AC back to how it was before, before my husband gets home. He is working all day out in this awful heat and he likes it very cool inside the house when he gets home. After my little cat nap, I have a few meeting right before noon and some more after that. There are so many meetings that I only have a half hour to get something to eat before my next meeting. These are good meetings. From one of the meetings I learn that I will now be reporting to a different person than when I was hired. I hope this is a good move and that the new management is good to me. I learned that there are many internal changes, but I believe it is for the better of the company. More streamlined in my opinion. My job description won’t change from my understanding so I will be ok. I am simply waiting to hear what else I can do to be of help to the team.
It’s Friday and I could not sleep at all. I woke up at two in the morning and got up and out of bed. Used the facilities and then headed to the kitchen to eat a snack of peanut M&Ms and some milk. I have a meeting with my new boss today I am very nervous about talking to her. This particular individual has been with the company for a very long time and know her stuff. I have to be on top of my game and am very nervous about this event this afternoon. I eventually get back to bed but can’t sleep so I am looking through my social media but I’m not really paying attention as I am starting to get sleepy again. I eventually fall back asleep and wake back up at five thirty when my alarm goes off. Shortly after, my husband came into the bedroom and turned the lights on to put on his clothes after his shower. Shortly after I roll out of bed and put on my gym clothes. It was so early in the morning that I have plenty of time to get my walk on the treadmill. Prior to that though, I took out the garbage. I generally take it out the night before but last night it was pouring rain and I did not want to get soaked. So this morning it is. I get outside and the garbage is all over the place. The raccoons had gotten to the garbage and there were packages and food everywhere. I had to get inside, put on a pair of gloves and place all of the garbage in the pail. I took the pails out to the curb and prayed that the garbage men come today as the garbage was not picked up last week due to the road construction and the northbound road was closed. After taking out the garbage, I get to the treadmill and walk for over an hour. I walked nice and slow this morning as I am a bit sore from yesterday. After my walk I get to do my floor exercises and stretches. Then I eat and eat as I am very hungry this morning. Before my walk I had an english muffin, then an apple turnover after my walk. After my stretches and situps I have a slice of Louisiana Crunch cake. All ultimately delicious. I then hit the showers, lather up in lotion and then log on to work and am continuing to learn all about our systems. Today, I skip lunch as I need to head out to the drug store to pick up my medicine. When I get home I feel so tired that I lay down in bed for a little while before I have to log back on to work. At two in the afternoon I have a meeting with my new boss and I am oh so nervous. After my nap, I take some medicine in order to calm my nerves. All that did was make me even more sleepy. But it did eventually make me calmer. Prior to the meeting I drank and drank water in order to be able to talk without having a dry throat while talking to the boss. Funny, but during the meeting, I wasn’t nervous at all. We had a nice conversation and I think the meeting went well and I am very happy to be here. My boss told me to continue to look to my coworker in order to get work completed. I will lean on her in my future endeavors. I thank God this was a good meeting and a good day overall. In the evening, I am felling tired and sleepy again. The family takes the dog to a vet appointment and I continue to work until five. After that I lay down in bed and take yet another nap. I am awakened by my phone ringing to let me know of my mother’s doctors appointment on Tuesday. The doctors office is sill requiring masks and id. So on Tuesday I will need to get to their house nice and early and get them both, mom and dad, ready to go out to the doctors office. Dad wouldn’t dare stay home. He always comes with her. I them can’t help myself and log into my work email and there are a bunch of messages that came in way after five. I look through them and will make a decision that they can be taken care of next week.
It’s Saturday and it is raining. I wanted to get out there and do some weedwacking but it looks like I’ll have to stay inside today. I also wanted to get to my parents’ house and take care of some of the weeds as well. But I won’t be out there while it is raining. I will probably go ahead and take care of some clothes as I have a bunch of clothes that need to go. They are ok for being at home but they are all pilled and don’t look so great. I’m surprised as most of these pieces of clothing were purchase at H&M and some have lasted a long time, others, not so much. I will be putting a bag together and giving the clothing off to the church. I am planning on doing the same with some of the clothes over at my parents house. These two have four closets filled with clothing that they do not wear. Some of them are really old and will never be worn. Others are just ready to be placed in the garbage as they are all yellow and just plainly need to go. By eight in the morning I go to my parent’s house and do just that. I clean out a lot of things from their closet and place them in a large black bag and place inside my car so I can bring them over to the church. A lot of the items will actually go into the garbage as they are really old and I bet that even the charity program won’t want the. However, I can’t toss them at the house as things tend to grow legs and head back into the house. Guess my old folks can’t see color anymore and they don’t recognize that the items are all yellowed out and not good to wear. While there I also clean their bathrooms and do their laundry. I hand clean the floors as they do not have a mop that is capable of cleaning their floors. Some of the spots I clean with a small towel and use my foot in order to scrub the dirt out. I keep on having issues with the rotten floor as it keeps on being sticky. Especially the kitchen floor, can’t get the stickiness out. Before doing the laundry I convince my mother to take a shower. She tells me that she is very tired and that she doesn’t want to do it. I told her that I would help her, to my surprise she did it. I helped her with her back and legs and she did the rest. I then helped to dry her up and then lathered her up with lotion and helped her to get dressed. It’s funny how life is. She at one time was doing the same for me when I was little. Now that she is old, I am doing the same for her. And that is how the world turns. Shortly after it was two in the afternoon. I wanted to get some of the outside taken care of, but it kept on raining, so I just take my things and go to my own house. I get home to an empty house. The family has gone out, probably to shop and play pokemon. At home I have the time to get some of my ratted clothes and organize my closet a bit. I notice a few work pants that I have that are I can no longer wear to work and some shirts that I used to take to work can no longer be. I take these pieces out of the closet and place all of them in a bin. I then hang all of the nice work shirts that I have and get rid of all of the shirts that I no longer wear. This takes me a while to do as I have didn’t realize how much stuff I’ve accumulated over the years. And then I work on the gym clothes that I’ve located in bins underneath the bed. I have a bunch of old t-shirts and pants that have seen better days and I place those in the bin as well. Then I go through my drawers of socks and underwear. I see a lot of clothing that I simply no longer wear. I get rid of all of them. I then head to the basement and do the same. There are a few pieces hanging in the basement that I will never wear again, I take those out and toss those in the bin as well. Then I notice that I have some summer capris hanging and I bring them up so I can wear them now and maybe even take them to work when we get back to the office. While doing all of this work, I am drinking my favorite drink. Mango juice with a little bit of seltzer water. I drink so much of it that I am constantly in the bathroom. I love it so, so much. Later on I go ahead and play a bit with my camera. I have a macro lens and I am trying to figure out how it works. I’ve been looking through all of these videos for work that now I want to play with the camera. I’ve been brave and taken it out of automatic mode and changed it to portrait and other modes just to play around with the settings. I haven’t looked at my results yet. But I am looking forward to seeing what kind of photos I can creatively take with this lens.
It’s Sunday and I am up at four in the morning. I can’t sleep anymore. So I get up, put on my gym clothes and lather up on lotion especially on my feet. They need a nice massage and some TLC. Then I lather some more on my face and arms. I want to keep nice and smooth. Plus, as I am on my walk, my pores will open up and soak up all of that goodness. I then hear the dog running around the house. He is most likely going to go outside and go for a pee walk with my mother in law. I don’t want to disturb so I get online and look through my social media. I am looking through vintage photos and pictures of flowers and anything that puts a smile on my face. Once the dog and my mother in law are back in and they I know I won’t disturb the peace, I head to the kitchen and eat an apple turnover. I know, it’s probably not the best food to eat prior to going for a walk or a run but I am hungry and that is the first thing that I see and I love my apple turnovers. That gooey center makes my mouth water every time. Today is the 4th of July and independence day over at good old USA. Not sure what we’ll be doing today to celebrate. But I’ve checked the weather and it is perfect for a BBQ or for gardening. It’s not going to be too hot, so it will be perfect for me to get there and take care of my plants. Especially on the side of the house by the neighbors fence. That area is filled with weeds and I want to get rid of some of those weeds and maybe even transplant some flowers over there. There are a couple of azalea bushes on that side but they don’t get enough sun and they are still small. There are more weeds around the bushes than there is of the actual azalea bush. There are also iris’s that are growing randomly in one particular area. And all around them there are weeds that I just can’t seem to get to. I think I’ll be transplanting those to a different location and leaving that area for the azalea bushes to give them enough room to grow. While I am on the treadmill, I then hear my husband walking around the house and I automatically want to get off the mill and go say hi. However, I stay on until the I am on for a full hour and then I get off and go see the puppy and my husband. We talk a bit about getting insurance for the puppy and then I lay down on the couch since all of a sudden I am feeling tired, and take a nice hour nap. I then get up and have my coffee and heat up waffles for us to have for breakfast. After breakfast I get enough energy and go ahead and take my shower. I then towel dry my hair and take care of it. Lots and lots of product. After I take out my camera and take some photos with my macro lens. I wanted to take a look at the photos and what do you know, but my new laptop doesn’t have a sd card reader. And the camera that I have is older and doesn’t have wifi. So I can’t see the photos that I took, besides of course on the small screen of the camera itself bummer. My husband decided that he didn’t want to bother with having a barbeque today. So we opted for takeout. We both ordered ribeye steak for a late lunch but early dinner. I must have been very hungry because I ate the entire steak. I usually only eat half of it and leave the other half for the next two days. But not today. Today, I ate it all. We then hang out and watch tv. I’m not watching anything as I am not interested in what they are watching. My little one is playing roblox and I am looking through my social media. We then decide to head out for a little while and play pokemonGo. We head out to the town that is nearby as we thought there would be a lot of traffic today due to the holiday. Turns out there wasn’t any traffic at all. So we head out to a town further away that is has a lot more pokemon things play with. We notice there wasn’t much traffic there either. It was strange. Every year there are cars lined up on those roads to head out the Hamptons on Long Island. Today, nothing. I wonder if everyone took Monday off and are skipping the traffic today. After a few hours of playing we head on home and we hear fireworks going off everywhere in the neighborhood. My little one wants to see them so we go outside but there are many trees and we don’t see anything, only the loud booms. I was surprised, but the dog wasn’t all that concerned with the noise. I know some dogs are very fearful of the loud sounds, but not my Rufus. He is happy to just be with us. It’s eventually nine in the evening and I fall asleep on the couch. I had too much fun today with my camera toy that and my walk that I am pooped and ready for bed. Tomorrow, the office is closed and I am planning on getting out to the yard and getting some gardening done. Happy 4th everyone.
It’s Monday and today is my first day working in the Marketing department. I am so anxious, exited and nervous that I wake up at two in the morning filled with anxiety. I get up, use the facilities and then get to the kitchen for some chocolate. I had a hand full of M&Ms. The peanut and peanut butter kind. I go back to bed but can’t sleep. I’m looking through social media and eventually fell back asleep. I woke up again at four in the morning. I then rolled around in bed for the next couple of hours. Then it was time for my husband to get up and go to work. I woke up as well and started on my day.
My feet are hurting from yesterdays yard work, so I got some lotion and gave myself a nice foot massage. I then am looking through social media and looking for inspiration for first day on the job jitters. I hang out for a while and then eventually get out of bed and make my morning coffee and have some doughnuts for breakfast. I then fix my hair and take my time to make it look good, just in case I have video conferences today. I sprayed some morocan oil and hair spray and parted it to the side. I then pull it back so that it wouldn’t be in my face. I then look at my nails and they look terrible. I have enough time, so I take off the ruined polish and put on new layers of a light blue color and an orange party nail. Meanwhile I am listening to my audiobook, Killing Monica by Candace Bushnell.
As my nails are drying, I make a few phone calls for some of my credit cards. I then call the vet to set up an appointment for my poor dog who has an ear infection. We will be taking him in at five this afternoon to get him checked. Then I remembered that my tires need rotating, so I make an appointment for Saturday. I’m glad all of these places are open prior to nine in the morning so I won’t have to call during company time. After my nails dry I put on a bunch of lotion on my skin to prep it for some makeup. I then picked out my jewelry for today. I then have some more coffee, cold this time. I’ve put it over ice with sugar and whole milk. By eight I am ready to get to work, but there is nothing for me to do at this point. My new boss sends me a message at eight thirty asking if HR has any plans for me this morning. I told him that the team hadn’t gotten any messages to me regarding the transition. He told me that we would reconvene at nine thirty. I continue to listen to my audiobook as it is almost completed. So at nine thirty I talked a bit with my new boss and he requested I send him a note of what I like to do during my leisure and some other personal information. It took me some time to do this as it is very difficult for me to talk about me, especially in a positive way. Anyway, I sent the boss the information, I told him that I like to garden, do all sorts of activities with my daughter, listen to lots of audiobooks, previous jobs and what the fun things I used to do in college like work at the college’s radio station and how I did sports way back when. Shortly after that it was noon and I went over to the church to pick up meals for my parents. I passed by their house and it was so hot in and muggy in there that I turned on a bunch of fans so I would be able to put the food away. They are always cold and they were actually comfortable being in that warm weather. After a little while, my body adjusted and I was fine. At one point or another I would stand in front of the fan and cooled down. I then washed their dishes and cleaned up a bit. All the while my mother was sleeping on the couch. She eventually woke up at basically at the time that I had to leave to get back to work. She was very upset that I was leaving so soon. But I told her that she was sleeping while I was working. This actually made her laugh and it made me happy. Haven’t heard her laugh in a long time. I used the facilities and then was on my way. I will need to get to their house over the weekend to clean up a bit as their bathroom needs a cleaning as does the kitchen. Especially the floors. They keep dropping things and spilling others. After I left their house I passed by the animal shelter as I have cat food that was delivered to me by mistake from Sam’s club. I did pass by the store to try and return the items that were sent to me, but they did not take them back. I should say, they would take them back if I did not want them. But then they would just toss them. So I decided to keep them and donate them. I called the local animal shelter and asked them if they could use the food and they said yes. So on my way home, I dropped off the food. It was two box store size boxes with purina brand food. Not the store brand but the good kind. The shelter was very happy with the donation. And I am very happy that I was able to do some good. This afternoon was really hot and muggy, it was threatening for rain, but the rain never came. It was simply hot and muggy and down right gross out. After all of that I finally got back home and logged back onto work. Today there wasn’t much for me to do. To tell you the truth, this gave me a bit of anxiety. Not being busy makes me anxious. The person who’s to let me know what I need to do is out sick today, but set up a meeting for us for tomorrow. So as for today there isn’t anything for me to do besides read a report that was sent over to me. The report is very large and there are a lot of numbers. The boss sent it over and said for me to get back to him with any questions. I became a bit overwhelmed as the report is a few pages long and has a lot of information. Question is, what exactly do I need from this report? Do I need to know all of the information for my job or do I need all of the information to create campaigns? I’m sure I will eventually find out what I need to pull from these reports. I also received some emails from my old boss with questions for the new person who is replacing me. I don’t mind helping out, so I send out detailed information. In the evening, my dog has an appointment with the vet as the poor thing has an ear infection. I took him in my hot car and I think he enjoyed the ride. We have a harness that has a large loop where we can put the seatbelt on him just in case, God forbid, we get into an accident, the pooch won’t fly out the window. He’ll be held by the seatbelt. When I get to the vet, my husband is already there waiting as he wants to go inside and talk to the doctor about a few things regarding the dog. As we are waiting, my mother in law also shows up with my little one. The entire family is there for our little guy. It was cute and odd all at the same time. I’m not used to having the entire family care so much for each other. I come from a family that is not like that at all. Everyone is very independent and doesn’t talk to each other much. Unless it’s some kind of emergency, we keep to ourselves. Being in a family that is genuinely happy and caring has been a very big change for me. I have to try hard to take it all in and not feel strange around it. As my husband was inside with the doctor, I was outside in his truck ensuring none would steal the tools that are in the back of the truck. Plus he has AC, so I was in there the entire time. After the vet, my husband went home and I passed by Kohls. I have a few returns for amazon and I tried the Kohls rout this time. I had to go all the way to the back of the store and I thought I had to go to the customer service line. After a little bit, I noticed a sign with the amazon logo and an arrow to the right. I left that line and wondered around the store a bit and then found another line for the amazon returns. I get on that line and had a very easy experience. All I had to do was to show the qr code that amazon emailed me to the teller. The woman scanned it and I gave her the merchandise. A receipt came out for the products, then another receipt came out for me with a coupon for 15% off my next purchase at the store and that was that. Easy peasy. Go amazon for making this a pleasant transaction. I then walked around the store a bit, I did have a coupon after all. But I don’t need anything at this time. So I left the store. Then noticed that marshalls is in the same shopping center, so to marshalls I go. I need hangers for my clothes, the really thin kind so I can fill my closet with more clothes. I’ve been using some of the hangers from the dry cleaner as those are thin as well but they leave creases on the arms. The ones from marshalls are much better. I walked around the store but did not find what I was looking for so I went home instead. When I got home, I couldn’t help myself but to log into work to see if I received anything while I was out. There are a few emails from my old boss, but these can wait for the morning. So I log out as I need to restart my system as there a few updates the system is claiming it needs to do. We then have dinner and after dinner I take out the trash. It’s still hot and muggy out there even though it’s seven in the evening. We then all sit on the couch and watch a movie, well they did. I was so tired from waking up so many times that I fell asleep while the movie was on. As I was trying to sleep the dog walked over me and put his little snout on next to my face and woke me up, then my lovely daughter ran a feather on my nose which of course made me itchy and that also woke me up. She is a silly one and the family was laughing at her being mischievous with mommy. Eventually I got up and got ready for bed. It’s odd, when I get ready for bed, as it perks me up a bit. I brush my teeth and wash my face all of this perks me up a bit and takes some of my sleepiness away. I then lather up in lotion change into my PJs and get to bed. Now I’m kind of awake and am looking through my social media for a little bit until I’m too sleepy to keep scrolling. I put the phone down and get my beauty sleep. Good night all.
It’s Tuesday and I wake up all groggy. I was way too exited and anxious yesterday for my first day of work that I worked energy out too much and now I am paying for it. I stayed in bed until about seven even though the alarm went off at six. I eventually roll out of bed and wash my face with retinol cream to get all of the gunk out. I then make my morning coffee and have my breakfast. At first I have a cup of hot coffee but then I get way too hot and decide that it’s an iced coffee kind of day. I get out my plastic cup and add ice to it then the poured the hot coffee into it and then the creamer. Ahh, perfect! I then get online and look through the leftover emails from yesterday that were sent over from my previous boss. It’s seven thirty at this point and I am still in my PJs answering emails. I then tell myself to cut it out and stop doing this. To only get onto work during working hours and not during my time. This is when the man starts to take advantage of you. Oh if you’re online this early, then you can start to do things for us at this time in the future. I don’t want my new job to start off like that. I need to control myself and only work the hours that I am paid to work. I’ll go above and beyond when it is appreciated and recognized. I tell myself to slow down and take it one day at a time.
At noon we had a meeting to go over what is needed to get done and I feel a bit better knowing what it is that I need to do at my new job. I take a whole bunch of notes on my notepad as my laptop froze and I wasn’t able to take notes on the computer. My coworker mentioned that I’d be invited to a meeting at three in the afternoon to talk to some of the sales teams. By two fifteen I hadn’t received any invitations so I reached out to my coworker and let her know. She told me to talk to the invitee and he sent me the invite for the second time as he said that he had already sent it. My system must be acting up, maybe it’s the weather as it is pouring rain out there. Before the meeting starts I restart my system, just in case I have any issues. Don’t want for it to get stuck again. The meeting went really well. The team introduced themselves and were very welcoming. They are very happy that they now have a marketing team together. We are a team of three and next week we will be a team of four as one of the lady’s is coming back to work from leave. My anxiety is slowly but surely going down as I am getting things to do. In the evening we have dinner of corned beef, cabbage and potatoes. I love this kind of food. It is simple and delicious.
The family went out and I opted to stay in. I am becoming a homebody. My husband needs to head over to home depot, which is my personal hell place, and make a few purchases. I really don’t like going there or any hardware store for that matter. The people that work there see me and they never want to help as I am a short lady and will always need the help of a strong person at those sorts of places. I call it my personal hell because when we were fixing up our house about ten years ago, I would have to go to home depot by myself, in my husband’s very big truck, and bring home sheets of plywood and other very large items that were needed to fix up the house. I’d go to home depot and all of the people who work there would see me in the wood isle and they would scatter like aunts. I’d have to figure out how to get the stuff we needed and then have to go around and around the store to get a few people to help me to load the truck. This type of stuff is exhausting for me. So every time I need to go to a ‘manly’ place, it drives me up the wall. But the stores are getting better. I had to go to the car store the other day and return an old battery and the people there were cool and didn’t lowball me. They took the battery back and even gave me gift card for recycling it, as they should. In the past, the auto parts store would want to charge for me to take the battery back for them to recycle it. Um hello, do I look stupid to you? You’re supposed to take these back for recycling and not charge me for this service. Some locations charge 25bucks in order to recycle your car battery. I just laugh shake my head and say no thanks. So this evening as the family is out shopping I am at home and I decide to put on Luca the Disney movie. It’s really cute. As I’ve heard it being described on some radio station, the movie is a kind of love letter to Italy. I enjoyed watching it. Shortly after it is time for bed. Tomorrow is another work day. We will see what is in store for me.
It’s Wednesday and I sleep and sleep this morning. Don’t know why, but this week I’ve been very tired in the morning hours and don’t want to get out of bed. Maybe it’s the heat that’s been getting to me. I don’t know what the matter is with me but I’m not into getting onto the treadmill. My plan for the week was to get to walking at least a couple of days this week. So far, I’ve been waking up later than planned and don’t have enough time nor energy to get walking. I’ve learned that I will be having lots of meetings in the afternoon.
Meanwhile, I am feeling tired and a bit low. I’m very worried about my parents and don’t really like that they are at home by themselves with none to be with them. I think they may need some supervision soon but not sure when. This weekend, I am planning on going to the house and doing some cleaning on the inside as well as the outside. I plan on cleaning out one of the flower beds that has weeds and transplanting a few plants from one side of the flower bed to the other. I would love to be able to plant a few other items but not sure what to plant. I like to garden, I’m just not very good at it. In the afternoon I head out to my little ones school to hand in some of the items that we had at home. I put on my mask and head on in to the school. I then head over to the other school so I may get her books for next year. It turns out the account is locked up due to a verification issue. I have to contact the public school who hasn’t received the paperwork that I had provided to them last week. Go figure. So I have to provide the paperwork again, but to a different person this time. In the evening I go to the big box store to do our shopping for the house. It is chillier today but it feels great that the weather has cooled down an bit. I am brave today as I get a few things from the store that I have been eyeing for a while. I purchase the retinol eye cream that I have been having my eyes on for a while. I’m usually allergic to a lot of products. We’ll see how this one reacts with my skin. I then get home and wipe everything down with bleach wipes. I brought a lot of heavy things such as boxes of water, seltzer, a bunch of paper towels and toilet paper. I filled the trunk, the back seat and the front seat of my trusty honda with all of these purchases. Glad I went by myself, otherwise we wouldn’t be able to fit anything in the car. While I was putting things away in the basement, the toilet flushed. There is no one home so that scared the living daylights out of me. I turned on all the lights and starting to tell it to ‘go away.’ Shortly after I call my husband and ask when they were coming home. For some reason I felt really scared to be alone at my own home. I’ve been home alone many times but this time it felt different. They took a while to get home from playing pokemonGo. They met up with a friend of ours and were talking and playing the game, meanwhile I am home pooping my pants and all sorts of scared of what may be inside. When they came home I gave my hubby a big hug and told him the toilet needs to go lol. He just laughs at me. Shortly after I go to bed as it is late. During the night, I had a lot of trouble sleeping. I kept on waking up and tossing and turning. I’d get hot and take off the covers, then get cold and put them back on. Then I kept on having wild dreams of people being naked on the streets. Another was when I worked at a retail store, it was closing time and I was by myself and it got robbed. Luckily, a couple of friends came by and helped but the store got robbed nevertheless. I kept on waking up and having one strange dream after another. It was a rough night.
It’s Thursday and after the six o’clock alarm went off, I continued to stay in bed. I told myself that I would go on the treadmill this morning. But, I am not feeling it at all. I then continued to be in bed. I am half asleep and half awake, but I don’t feel like moving. The time kept on moving forward and all I want is a vacation. But I have to eventually wake up and get moving. By seven thirty, I eventually roll out of bed and get myself some coffee and toast some waffles. Today, I don’t feel like moving. But I must! I need to go take a shower and get online to get to work at my new job. It’s only my first week after all and I refuse to be miserable this week. I pull myself together and take my shower then get dressed and log on.
I notice that I don’t have any meetings today. But the day is young and I will most likely have some later on today. I also notice that my coworker keeps on sending emails at nine in the evening. Yesterday, she sent me an email at eleven at night. I hope I don’t have to log on at those times for my new job. This means that I will always be on and I don’t think that is a good work life balance. This makes me a bit nervous. But hopefully, it won’t always be like that. Plus, we have a launch coming up, so this may be why she is online at all hours of the day. In the evening, I work on viewing and looking through a slew of items that were provided to me this afternoon regarding products. For my job, I’m not certain how much information I need to know about the products. Hopefully I won’t need to memorize all of this information as there is a lot to know about the products we sell. I’m at this until about nine in the evening and then turned off my laptop and headed to bed.
It’s Friday and we woke up at five in the morning as I need to give my husband a ride. He dropped off his car at work for it to get worked on and I followed him there. I had the dog in the car and he was whining all the way there. As soon as my husband got in the car, he stopped and wall happy wagging his tail. He missed him.
We then went home and I made breakfast. We have fluffy waffles this morning and delicious coffee. Today is my little ones last day of school and she is loving it. For my lunch hour I head out to my little one’s school and pick up the items that she has done throughout the year. Plus, the teachers gave her little gifts such as a small beach ball, sunglasses, coloring book and more cute things.
I then headed home and we played a bit as it is her last day of school. And then I re-arranged my closet a bit. I got rid of all of the big bulky hangers and replaced them with the thinner kind so more clothing can fit in my closet. I also notice there are a few pieces that can go. They are ok for home or maybe just the summer time when I am at home but they are no longer presentable to take out or take them to work. Quite frankly they need to go. I need to let go of sentimental things and just let them go. I’ll always send them to a shelter or charity, but I really need to clean up. In the late afternoon I have a meeting with my entire new team. It’s really nice to see everyone and get to talk to all of the ladies in the team. We are a team of four and I look forward to working with them. In the evening I look through my notes and keep on studying the products and reports that have come my way. I want to do a good job and want to ensure I know what I am doing so I keep on looking through everything.
It’s Saturday and I get up early so that I can get my car to the shop. My trusty Honda needs at tire rotation and I have made an appointment for this morning. I was planning on going to the store next door and do some clothes shopping. Unfortunately or fortunately for my wallet, the store was closed and would only open an hour later. I stayed inside the waiting room instead, looking through my social media and then reading a book. It smelled like rubber and diesel in there. It brought back memories of my father working on cars when he was a younger man.
After the shop I head over to my parents’ house. Rats, I was going to bring my father a gift and I forgot it at home. It was his birthday last week and I’d like to give him some wine for his 83rd anniversary. Oh well, I’ll be going there next week to bring them they food anyway. I will bring it then. At their house I started off with laundry and then got to cleaning the bathrooms. I also had to clean the carpet in my parents’ room as they spilled something on there. The rug is a light brown, so I sprayed with some bleach and scrubbed the hell out of it. It all came out but the rug changed color a little bit. It’s ok, the carpets will need replacing soon anyway, so it’s not a worry. I continued with laundry and then cleaned out their kitchen as it was a big old mess. I used baking soda to clean out some of the dishes as they were getting discolored and the baking soda brought them back to life. I cleaned their sheets and made their bed. I also placed a different cover on their bed today. I noticed it in my old bedroom and wondered if it would fit on their bed. It does, now they have a green colored bed cover. I placed the blue one to wash and we’ll switch them next time. Believe it or not, doing just this took forever, before I knew it, it was one in the afternoon. I them a chicken salad meal with peas and mayo. They liked it. Although my father has always something to say. This time he said it was too salty. Told him, I didn’t add any salt only the mayo. He grunts a bit but keeps on eating. While doing all of this work, I am listening to Ariana Huffington’s book On becoming Fearless.
I cleaned and scrubbed and washed, but I didn’t get to the floors today. I will leave that for next weekend. I wanted to vacuum and clean the kitchen floor. The darn floor keeps on feeling sticky. Everything that I have placed on that floor and it continues to feel like I’m at the bar. I’ve been advised that maybe ammonia would help to clean out the stickiness. I will need to get my brother to go to the store and make these purchases for me so I may do the cleaning. After I left their house I head over to the drug store as I need a few ice packs and need to return a bunch of things. I’m also looking at makeup at the drug store. I am getting older and feel like I need some coverage. The makeup that I currently have is getting old and I may need new very soon. I wonder around the store for a while, but I wind up only purchasing the ice packs and nothing else. I get home and decide that today is a good day to get out there and cut the underbrush from my front yard. A lot of the plants are getting overgrow and I want to clear out a bunch of them. It took me the entire afternoon, but everything that I wanted, done. I received the cutting scissors the other day and I am loving having them. I also received a couple of the little shovels so I may plant flowers and some gloves that I do not need and are way too big for me. I cut so many branches off that my hand is hurting a lot from all of that cutting. It’s seven in the evening and the bugs are coming out. I get rid of all of the branches, put my tools and way and make my way inside. Inside, my daughter wanted to play. I told her that I needed a shower first and then we would talk about playing. I take my long shower where I have to wash my hair a few times. There were a lot of flower and plant debris in my hair. I then get dressed and go play with my little one for a while. Shortly after it is bed time and we are still going strong with our playing. Daddy has to intervene. Plus we need the kitchen table in order to place drops on our little dog. He has an ear infection and we need to place drops in his ear. To do this, we lay him down on the kitchen table and give him treats so he’ll be still. We place her toys away and then lay the pup down on the table and get to work. The pup is not a fan, but he lets us do what we need to do. I then do a bit of cleanup in the house and head off to bed.
It’s Sunday and I just can not sleep. I’ve gotten up a few times in the middle of the night and got myself some chocolate. Then at one point my tummy was rumbling, so I went to the kitchen and ate a yogurt. Then at six in the morning, I couldn’t lay there anymore. I get up and start my morning routine. I use the facilities, then get my coffee going. This morning, my husband and everyone is asleep, so I take the dog out to do his business. Our key word for him is to get busy. Sometimes he gets busy, sometimes he’s too exited to be outside and doesn’t do anything. Then pees inside on the rug and we have to tell him that he is a bad boy for peeing on the carpet. Today is our 12th wedding anniversary. We’ve been together for 19 years, but married for 12. It’s funny how time flies by so quickly.
As of this morning we do not have any plans to go out or do anything. We may just simply relax at home and watch a movie or two. I can’t just sit still during this beautiful day. I go outside and take care of some of the flowers and bushes, but only for a little while. I then tackle the office. It is filled with toys and other items that can be placed in the new basement shelves that my husband made and I do just that. I take all of her board games and place them on one shelf then all of her paydough, and she has a lot of it and place it on another shelf. Then the miscellaneous items on another shelf and there is still room for more. We then have sushi for dinner. Chinese is one of my husbands favorite foods. Although I was in the mood for tacos, he mentioned Chinese and my mouth automatically salivated for the tuna pizza that our local restaurant offers. I also had a cocktail with my dinner, a pineapple margarita. Mmmm delicious. Really smooth, didn’t have a bitter aftertaste like some other drinks do. It was really good. So good, I had two glasses of it. Shortly after dinner, I head to bed. Tomorrow is my week two and I want to look refreshed. No all tired and droopy.
It’s Monday morning and I get up at six in the morning for absolutely no reason. I did a bunch of work yesterday at my parent’s house and I’m feeling the aches. I was able to get rid of a few things like a couple of paintings we no longer need. I noticed I still have an old boo box in my old closet along with cassette tapes and a box of cd’s. I also have a couple of cd holders. I no longer need these items and don’t want to bring them to my own house, so I put them on facebook marketplace and was able to get a couple of hits right away. Some of the paintings went and the music went as well. Overall it was a good selling day. As for the fish tank, the guy who was to go there to take a look never got back to me. So that one is a no go. I had to go up to the attic and notice there is more junk up in there. An old car radio a couple of record players. A few records, bed frames. And lots and lots of books. My father has a thing for books, especially from readers digest. Most of the books are about how to do things. Manuals per say. Others are regarding how to make money quick. I too want to get rid of these items but they are in heavy boxes and it is hot up in there. However, in the basement, I’ve gotten a bunch of things cleared out. In the farthest corner of the room there were a bunch of boxes filled with random things. Such as clothes, old lights, electrical kitchen appliances and so much more. The things that seem to be good I have added to the marketplace for a very low price hopefully someone will need these and pick them up. As for today, I will need to contact the person from meals on wheels to pick up lunches and dinners for my parents for the week. I will be doing this during my lunch hour. As for my little one, school for this year is almost over. She has been doing exceptionally well. All thanks to grandma really. I am always at work or taking care of items for my parents that I don’t have much time for much else. Grandma has been doing the majority of the tutoring and making sure she does her homework and gets everything in order. Today is my last day in the IT world. I am feeling very exited and nervous at the same time. I want to make sure that I do a good job in my new job. For lunch I went to the church and picked up meals for my parents and brought it over to their house. Then the roofer came over in order to get the down payment and to sign the contract. I made a booboo. I signed the contract. I should have my dad sign it as it is for his house and not for me. I will need to request for us to redo the paperwork. Tomorrow the team will go to the house and get started on fixing the roof as well as the inside wall that has some water damage. I will need to get over there nice and early so I can open the door as my parents sleep until mid morning. I’m usually up at that time anyway so it’s no big deal to be there early.
It’s Tuesday and I am up early so early that my husband isn’t even up yet. It’s a shame because I took off today from work as I need to get to my parents house. They have doctors appointments that I need to take them to plus the roofing people will be coming over this afternoon to get some of the roof replaced. There is a small leak in the house and we can’t figure out where it is coming from, so the whole section needs to be removed and replaced. Meanwhile I will try and be outside and rake up some of the leaves and do some yard cleanup. I’ve already cleaned the bathrooms, the kitchen and vacuumed the house over the weekend so it is time to get outside and do some of that cleanup. The garage also needs a cleanup but that garage overwhelms me. There is so much stuff in there that I don’t even know where to start.
I’ve gone to the store and bought some drinks and then went to the doughnut store and bought a dozen for them to eat. When I got to the house, they were already there and working on the house. I went in through the back and noticed my folks were still in bed. I was at the house all day as it took a long time to get the roof done.
In the evening as we’re having dinner I chewed on something really hard. I looked at it and it was my tooth!! One of the teeth that I’ve had a root canal on came right off. I took it out of my mouth, ewww, and put it in a tissue. I’ll have to call the dentist tomorrow and set up an appointment to get this fixed.
It’s Wednesday and I called out sick from work. Wasn’t feeling so well. After a while I got bored and went over to my parents house as they had a team at the house fixing the wall. The guys removed some of the sheetrock and replaced some of it as well. They also primed it and painted the wall. This also took all day. This team was much nicer than the team from yesterday. I brought them doughnuts as well. And in the afternoon, I got them pizza for lunch. I also offered them all of the water and soda they could drink. I had a cooler inside the house filled with drinks for them as the house is hot. My parents never have the air conditioner on as they are always cold. My father is always wearing a coat. While everyone is wearing t-shirts and shorts, there he is in a winter coat. In the afternoon, I get a burst of energy and get to the basement and start to clear out some things. There are a lot of posters and wall hangings that are just sitting there. So I cleaned off the dust took pictures of them and will see if the brothers want any of these. If not, they are going to be for sale. I hope somebody wants them, I hate to place these types of things in the trash. They’ll just go to the landfill and they will never decompose. I then noticed there are a lot of leftover pieces of carpeting from years ago. They smell like mold, so I took them all out to the trash. I then went to the attic and noticed that I still have a lot of stuff up there. Books and notebooks from high school and college. No idea why I’m holding on to this stuff. I brought a bunch of the boxes down to my old bedroom and looked through all of the items. I really don’t what why I was holding on to this stuff. It all went to the curb. I did however found a lamp that I made in shop class when I was in either junior or senior high. Not sure exactly when. But the darn thig still works. It’s a wood peace sign that is fluorescent. That relic went to the curb too but I made sure to take a snapshot of it for sentimental purposes.
I also took out an old mattress and found a box filled with paper plates and plastic forks and knives. The best thing I found was a small cooler filled with writing utensils. This cooler is filled with pencils, highlighters, pens, erasers. Why are all of these things being held on to in the attic? My people are so odd. Little by little, I’ll be tossing out things from the house and soon it will be clear from all of the leftover garbage that is not needed.
It’s Thursday morning and I have to get up nice and early as I have a dentist appointment at eight this morning. I also have a meeting at nine in the morning with the boss. I send the boss a message that I am at the dentist and may be a tiny bit late to our meeting. As for the tooth, it was a seriously easy process. All the doctor needed to do was to cement the tooth back on and not chew anything for about an hour. Easy peasy! I tried to race home but I was stuck behind a truck, so we drove nice and slow down the roadway. And on top of that, there is roadwork being done on my road. So more slowdowns. Eventually I get in the house, but I still need to get to the laundry room to remove my clothes, you never know if someone who was at the dentist has covid. So I change and then log to the morning meeting about ten minutes after it started. This meeting is for knowledge transfer. I will be moving into a new department next week and the team finally hired someone to replace me. We now have to quickly transfer all of the information that is in my brain into this person’s brain. Not going to be an easy task. Plus this new person is in India, they are many hours ahead of the US. The poor lady was online with me at ten. For some reason I thought it was the morning hours. It was noon over on our end and I told her that I would take a quick lunch break so I could eat something and we’d reconvene in a little while. That’s when she told me that it was ten in the evening over there. I then felt really bad for her. She is doing all of this learning at ten o’clock at night. Poor woman must be exhausted. I though we would continue in the afternoon but no she will be sleeping at that time.
It’s Friday and I wake up all sorts of groggy. I’m feeling very tired and droopy. My alarm goes off and I hit the snooze button and kept on sleeping. I eventually get out of bed and go ahead and make my morning coffee and english muffin. I have a very long meeting this morning with the person who is replacing me. The meeting starts at nine and it eventually ends at one in the afternoon. We took a fifteen minute break in between but holly molly what a long meeting!! I had to talk the entire time. This is exhausting for me. Meanwhile, I keep on having to excuse myself to go to the bathroom. My belly keeps on aching and I’m drinking so much water that I gotta go every half hour or so. Not good while in meetings that are being recorded. During my lunch hour I go over to my little ones school and pick up work for her and drop off some canvas paper that we donated to the art teacher. We’ve had this canvas for many years as my husband was going to use it for his art projects. He’s since decided that he’s no longer interested in doing this. So instead of tossing it out, I called the school and asked if they would have any use for it. I’m glad it’s going to get utilized and not going into a landfill. Today is my last day in the IT department. I worked hard today to ensure that all loose ends are all tied up. I’m thankful that I worked with a great team and had a very understanding boss. I will continue to work at the same company but a different department. I don’t think I’ll have any contact with the IT department in the future but you never know. There may be a project that may need IT’s help and I will know the individuals who can help with such projects. I am looking forward to my new endeavor in the marketing department. I am also very nervous about starting a new job with a new boss and new coworkers. The thing that makes me feel better is that I continue to work for the same company and already know people and don’t have to start all over again. I do know a couple of people in the new department and I like them as individuals and have worked with them before. We worked well together. Not sure what I’m so worried about, but my anxiety is working at it’s best. Looking forward to Monday morning.
Today is Saturday and I sleep in until ten thirty. I have been so tired lately that I slept so much this morning. Not to worry though, the rest of the house is also resting and will continue to rest up until eleven or so. Everyone is so exhausted from we weeks activities that we all need our rest today. For today I am planning on getting out to the yard and getting some weedwacking done. I started last weekend but haven’t had the chance to complete it yet, so when I get the courage, and the patience, I’ll get out there and take care of the yard. As for now, I am sipping on my cup of coffee and am working on figuring out what to have for breakfast. At this point it’s more like brunch since it is so late in the day. In the afternoon I take care of washing out the garbage pails. They are so so dirty and stink. I spray on some beach and scrub the garbage pails with a broom and clean them all out. After that I take a break and walk around the yard and take a look at the pretty flowers that are growing in the front and back yard.
After my break I have something to eat, a tuna fish salad and some nice and cold water with ice. I eat my late lunch outside with the bugs as there were many out there on the garden table. After lunch, I get the weekwacker out and get to work. I clear out the weeds that are around the house and then get the ones that are around my little ones play area. After that, I am in the woods clearing out the tall grasses that bring ticks to the yard. It then gets dark out and I look at the weather and it’s calling for rain in the evening. I finish my weedwacking and then put all of my tools away. It’s time to get indoor and do some self care. Put a mask on the skin of my face and color my hair.
I need to get ready for my new position on Monday morning. As of yet, I don’t have any meetings set up but I want to be prepared. I’m also going to be fixing my nails and giving myself a manicure. The family has gone out for the afternoon and I stayed behind to get all of my things done. Meanwhile I’ve been listening to an audiobook called When No One is Watching by Alyssa Cole. It’s a thriller but I’m not following it too well since the weedwacking machine is on, I can’t hear half the story, but nevertheless, it keeps me company as I am working outdoors. After doing all of that work I get inside and take a shower and wash my hair with shampoo a few times in order to get it ready for processing. After my shower I dried out my hair and then got the hair color ready to put it on my hair. It’s the same color, a dark brown. My hair is very long and I need two boxes of color in order to take care of the full head. I place the dye on my hair and leave it on for about an hour.
I then wash the dye out and spray a hair detangler. My hair is so filled with knots that even the detangler didn’t help too much. I brushed the hair out and a whole bunch broke off and was on the brush itself. It’s now really late and I’d like to get to bed but my hair is still wet and I don’t want to go to bed with it like this. Going to sleep with a wet head is very bad for your hair. I also don’t want to blow dry it tonight. My arms are hurting from doing all of the yard work today and I just don’t wanna do it.
I’m having trouble sleeping so I am listening to Brene Brown and a bunch of interviews she’s had with multiple people. Until I eventually start to get tired. I love listening to Brene, she brings me a calm peace as she talks about shame and vulnerability. I then get to listen to Orpah and her Super Soul Sunday with Iyanla Vanzant. Listening to Oprah also makes my soul calm. She is simply the best. I was up for so long that my hair dried out before going to bed. My forehead has a bit of color residue left over, but I am not a professional and that happens. After a few showers, the color will come off. I’m not worried.
Now that my hair is all dry, it’s time to get into bed and try to get myself some shut eye. It’s fathers day tomorrow and I don’t have any plans for the hubby. The only plan I have it to go over to my parents house and get rid of that humongous fish tank that is in the basement. The person who is interested in the tank would like to come by and take a look at it in the afternoon. We’ve been going back and forth on the time to meet for over a week. I give up and tell him to message me half hour before going over. This is so I have enough time to get over there and open the door for the guy to see the tank and hopefully take it out of my hands.
Its Sunday and it is Father’s day. I woke up way too early and can’t get back to sleep. I make my morning coffee and make some toast and eat my breakfast at five in the morning. I then get back into bed and am listening to my audiobook The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It sounds like its a book from the 80’s. It keeps telling me to tend to my joy and to be a giver and not a taker and of course the law of attraction. It’s filled with powerful affirmations. However, the audiobook has many voices and quotes and some people are practically shouting at you. Meanwhile, I am looking for another book to listen to that is far away from this subject as possible. I’m not feeling anything this morning, it must be that it’s way too early. For breakfast, I get out and get the family doughnuts and bagels. We all eat and then have a seat. I couldn’t sit still so I went outside and picked flowers and placed them in the house. Then my daughter wanted her nails done. So we get out all of the nail polish and polish her hands and toes with all of the colors of the rainbow. In the afternoon, the family went out for ice cream and I stayed home as I wanted to get yardwork done. I transplanted a bunch of iris’ from one area of the yard to another and did the same for some daylilies and other plants that I have in the yard. As I was planting away, the soul of my sneaker gave up on me and it unglued. It’s funny because when I do yard work, I put on my garden boots, but today I decided that sneakers would do and what do you know, they can’t handle the work. After doing all of the planting, I turn on the hose to water all of my plants and the dang hose breaks and I get all wet and dirty. I try to water the plants with the broken hose but it’s no use. Plus, I’m getting more water than the plants. I turn off the water and grab another hose. This one looks promising as we’ve had it for a long time and it’s worked well for all of these years. I drag the hose from the back yard and place it onto the spigot in the front so I may finally water the plants. I stretch the hose to farthest parts of where I was planting and there we go again. This hose breaks too. I get yet another shower. What is happening to today everything is breaking on me. Now I will need to get the hand bucket so I can water the plants. I had to take a couple of trips in order to be able to water all of the plants that I transplanted. It doesn’t look like much but I was out there for hours taking care of the plants. Now that I’m all wet and dirty I’m ready to get inside and take a shower. The family is still out as I get in the shower. I take my sweet time getting all of the dirt off my hands and feet. I did my nails this morning so tomorrow they would look nice. After all of this work they now look terrible. I will need to redo them tonight. As soon as I’m out of the shower there is a banging on the door. I put on my towel and run to the door and there is more and more banging. I open the door and it’s my husband. He doesn’t have house keys and has no patience to wait. It sounds like he’s banging the house down. I then get dressed and am online doing some shopping as they are watching a movie. They already ate so I go ahead and make myself a sandwich wrap with salami and turkey. Shortly after it’s nine o’clock and time for bed. Oh well guess I won’t be fixing my nails after all. It’s way too late to take of these now. They’ll have to go as is. I’ve already picked out a couple of outfits for me to wear on my first day on the job. I will see which one suits me best in the morning. One of them is a pink shirt the other is a black and white stripped shirt. I will probably be wearing shorts as it is hot. But just in case I have any meetings I will be ready with a shirt that has a little bit of a sleeve. I am a bit nervous for tomorrow. I have no idea what is in store. I don’t have any meeting or anything set up so I have no idea what I’m doing tomorrow. I’ll simply have to log on a bit before nine and see where the day takes me.
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