It’s Monday morning and I am hungry. It’s about four thirty in the morning, I get up and out of bed and go ahead to the kitchen. I take out a large spoon and get myself some peanut butter right out of the jar. So delicious! I then drank what felt like a gallon of water and then I wondered myself back to bed. I couldn’t sleep so I put on my audiobook and am listening to Be Happy Always by Xandria Ooi. The book is about her life and how her mother is an inspiration to her. She explains how her father was leaving the family due to an infidelity, and her mother helped him pack. She even gave him a six set of utensils. Because, what if he has company over?! This is all crazy to me. There is also a part in the book that explains that if you want to be happy and a clean bathroom makes you happy, then you’re going to have to go ahead and clean it yourself. Even if you have house mates that are not as clean as you. If you want to be happy than you must make yourself happy. Go ahead and clean that bathroom. She also talks about forgiveness. There is a section in the book that talks about a friend of hers who’s brother sexually abused her when she was little and her friend forgave her brother for it. I personally couldn’t do it. There is no way a brother is getting forgiven for abuse. It’s too fresh in the mind. Can’t do it. The book goes on to talk about more forgiveness and I can’t listen to it anymore today, it’s making me very irritated. Good thing, because it’s close to eight in the morning and I need to get ready for work. I turn my audiobook off and get ready for work.

Work is very busy today. One of the sites isn’t working and I need to get on the horn with the team in order to get it back up and running. I’m on the line with a team from Vietnam and a team from Mexico. And, here is little me in NY orchestrating. All sorts of different time zones working together. We eventually figure out what the issue is and all is working well. I still have no idea what the issue is, but not to worry, the team in Vietnam fixed something and the team in Mexico saw the fix. My eyes crossed for a little while but it is now good to go an I uncross my eyes. While all of that was happening, there was some more fun for one of the other web sites where a dealer was not able to purchase an accessory. While talking to the offshore teams I was also talking to the team inhouse to ensure our partners are able to make their purchases. I am all over the place this morning. I feel like I’m juggling a bunch of pins, that are on fire. Everything is an emergency. By noon I am huffing and puffing. I’m very stressed so, I decide to take a little break and have lunch. I have a leftover bean salad for lunch it has egg and beans and some greens, plus olive oil and vinegar. There is so much to do that I only take about fifteen minutes for lunch and then get back online and continue with my work. The afternoon is filled with more and more requests for updates to the websites. I work and work and work, when the clock reached five, I log off and get dinner. I have a bunch of leftovers as the family are watching something random on tv. After I finish my dinner, I can’t help myself but log back onto my work email. Good thing I did because there is an emergency type of request that was sent over. I couldn’t fix it right away but I was able to answer to the request. The boss is on the email thread and I like for the boss to know I am online way before and way after the ‘office’ hours. It makes everyone look good. And that is what I’m all about. If I do the work and make the boss look good, then I look good to the team and the team looks good to upper management. Hopefully this vision is the same as upper managements.

It’s Tuesday morning and I am refusing to log on to work before nine in the morning. So I am reading back what I wrote yesterday and Wow! Reading back my Monday morning makes me dizzy. Some days I just don’t know how I am able to function. I’ve been so stressed out with work that I am all over the place. Plus my husband has been under the weather and my baby has been having a fever on and off. I’ve been staying away so that I don’t catch anything. My mother in law has been making sure my little one is attended to and I have mom guilt. All sorts of guilt. Guilt that I can’t do more for my baby girl, guilt that she is sick and I can’t do anything about it. Guilt that I have to work and not tend more to my family. Guilt, guilt, guilt.
With all of this guilt I log on to work and notice I have plenty to do today. I have a few products launching next week and a few things to update on the other website I work on and, as they say, the show must go on. I am doing a few tedious things today for one of the websites, so tedious that I have to pause after an hour and do something else because my eyes are starting to cross from looking at the same two pages for so long. It got to a point where the site itself got tired and it stopped working altogether. At this point it is time for lunch. So, I give myself and the laptop a break. Reflecting back, this morning, I basically did one thing for a very long time. The afternoon is no better. The items for the new launch aren’t working right on the content management site. I tried and tested and poked and prodded and nothing worked for these images. Some of them were just not doing what I need them to do. Eventually, I gave up on how I was handling them and I saved and renamed one of the items. I tried this to just one of them and look at that, its working. So I had to follow the same process for all of images. Open the image, save it to my desktop and rename it. I had to do this for all of the images provided. I could have sent them back to the team to fix, but that would have been a whole process and it would have taken a few days. Instead, it took me a few hours to figure it out and fix. So the whole day was basically wasted on these little but yet, big issues. Once my images issues is resolved, I go ahead and take care of all of the templates for the launch and then work on some more items. I stayed online until about eight in the evening. This unfortunately, is becoming the norm. This is why I don’t want to log on before nine in the morning any longer. I know I’m going have to stay on way passed five. I know I don’t have much of a life and also it’s covid season. Where else am I going to go? But still. And especially this week that my little one is under the weather. This covid season just sucks!!
I’ve been going on tiktok and the videos that keep on coming up for me are for side hustles. How to make money on amazon, or how to make money with affiliate marketing or how to make money here or there. I’ve tried a few of them and they are all horse crap. For affiliate marketing, you need to give them your credit card information, plus you need a website. For all of the other side hustles, you really need to do a lot to get somewhere. For example, amazon has a site called turk where a user can log on and do a bunch of things for requesters. And they do pay, I’ve already made five bucks on it. But most jobs pay only five cents. A person has to do a lot of work and take a lot of time on these minute little things that pay pennies on the dollar. My take, not worth it. Better off looking for a better full time paying gig than to do these little things on the side. But hey, if anyone has a nice side hustle they want to share, I’m all for it.

The rest of the week is a blur. My baby girl has gotten very sick and we at home are all on high alert. I worked on Wednesday and did as much as I could while all in the back of my mind was my little one and how much she is suffering. On Thursday, I logged on to work but couldn’t do much. I had a tremendous headache and my head was spinning. I was so worried sick about my little one that I couldn’t do much. I was in a couple of meetings and the more people talked to me the more my head ached. By the afternoon, I mentioned to the boss that I couldn’t do it anymore and that I would need to take the afternoon off as well as Friday. The boss understands and wishes for my little one to get better soon.

It’s Friday and I sleep in as I am not logging in to work today. My little one is still not well and we are all continuing to be around her to make sure she is comfortable. She is a trooper. Being sick and all but she is still wanting to play. We ensure that she is hydrated and resting. She doesn’t have much of an appetite but is eating a little bit. By mid morning, we notice the poor thing now has a rash all over her body. It doesn’t end for her. We call the doctor and he said for us to give her Benadryl or any other type or allergy medicine for the rash. After taking the medicine she feels better and gets some rest. She is on her tablet and playing roblox. And then is watching some videos. We got Disney+ so that she could watch movies and any other show that she may like on the app. It’s been a rough few days but we’ve all survived.

Until next time.
Stay Safe.
Best,
Isabel

Over the weekend I had to take a bunch of Benadryl to calm down the ‘covid arm’ rash that I have on my arm. I had my first covid vaccine last week and was feeling fine. I am still feeling fine. No symptoms at all, I simply have a red arm. Check out my my video from last week.
The area on my arm continues to be a bit itchy at times, but I put on some cream that I have for eczema and I am good to go. So, the Benadryl makes me sleepy and that’s basically all I did all weekend. My husband was on the couch watching some bad Netflix, my little on was also on the couch playing on her electronic device and grandma’s also on her phone while reading the news. I was listening to to the very long book Kiss the Girls then Make them Cry by Mary Higgins Clark. I kept on falling asleep while listening to it. I eventually woke up when the music was going off at the end of the book. I don’t even know what happened. I have a feeling, though, that I’ve listened to this book before and went though the same thing of falling asleep while listening to it. As, some parts of the book I vividly remember, some others I do not. It could be my memory being stupid. But I’ve heard some of this story before.

It’s Monday morning and I wake up at six in the morning. This morning I am not getting up and out of bed. This morning, I am staying and relaxing a for a little while before getting online. I’ve been online for work at all hours of the day and night and for today, I have decided; I’m only going to log on at nine. Meanwhile, I am listening to yet another book called Persuasion: Convincing Others When Facts Don’t Seem to Matter by Lee Hartley Carter. I’m going through my library and downloading books to my phone and listening to them as covid is ensuring we stay put. Ok it’s 8:30 I’m up and getting breakfast, but God help me, I am not logging in before nine.
My little one is off this week from school and she is with grandma as I work. The boss is out of the office this week and it is calm in the office. I have a few products launching next month and I am working putting that information together. As for today, I’m feeling under the weather. Not coughing, sneezing type. But a feeling down, type. I’m not liking work too much lately. I feel a bit lost on what I need to do and I don’t like feeling like this at all. I like to know what I’m doing and know exactly what I need to do. As for my new responsibilities, I am not enjoying the transition. I’m not sure what I need exactly at this point. But I need something to help me to acclimate to being part of the IT department at my company.
As for my vaccine reaction, since I took the Benadryl and rubbed the eczema cream, the rash has gone down. I’ve taken more Benadryl this afternoon and am ready for a nap.

It’s Tuesday and I am ready for a vacation. The morning is a normal one, but I’m feeling tired. But here we go…breakfast, emails and more emails. Then I noticed that it’s not even nine in the morning yet and I am already knee deep working on my items. I’m not happy about this, so I log off and then turn on youtube and listen to Oprah. She has a Super Soul Sunday series that I’ve been watching on youtube. Today I am watching Oprah with Caroline Myss. She tells Oprah that ‘If you have life, you have purpose.’ Working on finding my purpose.
As for work, it was a bit slow today. I have to work on a technical document and have a meeting with one of the other business analysts to help me out with the technical information. I’ve already started on the document but need more information. Otherwise, all of the websites I manage are working perfectly fine and nothing crazy happened today. Kind of boring really. In the afternoon, I showed a coworker how one of the sites I work on works and she understood about half of it. It’s so convoluted that I don’t know where half of the information comes from to that site. It’s all a guessing game at this point.
In the evening we have leftovers and then everyone is in each corner of the house. I am in the bedroom listening to my audiobook. My little one is in her room playing with her toys, my husband and mother in law are watching movies. We are all in our perspective corners. We then get together again and say good night to each other. The sun has set and so have my eyes.

It’s now Wednesday and I am in a funk. I’m having some trouble with my new position at work. My boss wants me to know certain things and I don’t know those certain things. I’m working on learning them, but not sure who can teach me nor where to turn to learn them. These things are company only information and it’s not like I can learn how these items work on youtube or Google. Believe me, if I could, I would have done them already. So, I am reaching out to my mentors and asking them what my next steps should be. I feel like singing the 80’s song ‘Should I Stay or Should I Go’ from the Clash.
So, I spoke with one of my mentors and she says, stay. She tell me ‘you are doing a good job and you should stay put.’ She also tells me to not beat myself up over not knowing how to do the things just yet. It takes time to know and understand how everything works. She gives me some more advise and I am very happy that she does. I’ve been freaking out about a few things and she has calmed my nervous system down a bit. I’m glad I have a mentor to reach out to.

It’s Thursday and I continue to be in a funk. I feel there is a dark cloud over my head and it is dark.

It’s Friday my black cloud continues. I am in a really bad mood and can’t control my moodiness right now. In the morning hours before work starts, I am thinking of talking to another coworker about my work dilemma. I eventually catch up with her and I tell her about my issues. She tells me to hang tight. She also told me the company is about to be making some changes and they may need my knowledge in some other manor, maybe even in a different department. She also advises me to have a conversation with my boss about this. By mid day, I get the courage to talk to my boss and I let her know about my issues. She tells me that she understands and that there my be something they can do to accommodate. This is a relief and it makes me happy. Hopefully there is something that can be done to make it easy on all of us. While all of this is happening, there is a lot to do on the IT side of the job. We are testing an application as the backend will be updated to a new server. I test and test until I break the site lol. I really didn’t break it, but I did find a bug that is only happening in the backend and not in the front end where the people are actually working on. Hopefully the developers will fix the bug but, until then I will continue to test and test. As for my marketing job, there is also a lot to do and post on the websites. It’s the beginning of the month and all of the promotions and price lists are being updated. So all of the websites I work on need new or updated items. This work keeps me very busy during the day. So much so, that I cannot think about my bad mood and therefore, the moodiness goes away on its own. I’ve been so busy that I haven’t listened to anything today. I usually have music or a podcast on during the workday. But not today, today was a very busy day and had no time to even check my personal email. I took a few minutes for lunch, checked my personal email really fast during my fifteen minute lunch break and the rest of the time was all work.
I continue to post content on the sites until about six in the evening. And then I call it a day, I am hungry and plus, there is more time on Monday to get these done. As my old boss used to say, if you can’t get it all done between the hours of 9-5 then there is something wrong. And there is something wrong. I’m working my business analyst job between the hours of 9-5 and from 7-9 in the morning and then 5-7 in the evening, I am doing the marketing work. That’s not right at all. Something’s gotta give.
After I’ve had enough of work, I turn to the iheartradio channel of the Elvis Duran show and listen to the show from this morning. I’m also being old and surfing the internet as I am listening to the show. I get hungry and get some leftover pizza and heat it up. The family had already had dinner as I was working away. We are all in our perspective corners of the house. It’s a Friday night and we are still in quarantine.

Until next time.
Stay Safe!
Best,
Isabel

It’s Monday and I woke up at three in the morning. I got up and headed to the bathroom and then tried to get back to sleep. I instead was on my library site for a while trying to figure out what next book to listen to. I’ve been feeling a little down so I settle for ‘The Science of Positivity: Stop Negative Thought Patterns by Changing Your Brain’ Chemistry by Loretta Graziano Breuning. It’s supposed to help me look at the world in a different way. So much so, that I fell asleep listening to it. But no worries, I will listen to it again. And then again for a third time if I continue to fall asleep to it.
Today was to be a running day but since I got up at three and couldn’t sleep again for a while, once the alarm went off, I was just too groggy to get up and do anything.
At about seven thirty I get up and log on to my work email. I have a job to get done this morning and would like to get it started earlier than nine so I can get my other items taken care of. Well what ya know, the website is not working properly. I can’t log in. No worries, I have plenty of other things to do. So I get to it. A little while later I take a break and get myself some coffee and something to eat.
By my lunch the site continues to not work properly. I can give access to users but users can’t log in. And some of these users are a pain in my behind and they want to log in NOW!! Um, sorry lady, I don’t have access to the backend systems and can not help you. You’re gonna have to wait.

It’s Tuesday and yet again, I am awake at three in the morning. My husband is up too but he doesn’t come back to bed again this morning. He must has just thought, forget about it, going to go on the couch for a little while then get ready for work. Meanwhile, I get on the floor and do some sit ups and yoga posses, anything to get myself tired again so I could go back to sleep. Nothing is helping. So I log on to my laptop and put on ocean waves and look for a book to listen to. I eventually start yawning. I leave the ocean waves on and go lay back down and turn on tick tock. Don’t know how the algorithm is working for this site, but the videos keep on being about side hustles. This gives me anxiety, I would like to have a side hustle, but I want something that I can do easily and quickly. I don’t want to have parties like pampered chef or sell things. I’m not a good sales person. Plus, I’ve noticed that for most side hustles, you have to pay to play. Hello, pyramid scheme. Not interested in that. I would like for my money to make money. That would be nice. I wonder how the wealthy do it. There must be a secret somewhere.
Anyway, today is national puppy day. We were thinking of getting a pup but I’m not sure. Having a pup is a lot of work. It’s another family member. The pup will need a lot of TLC and medical and a hair stylist and all of the other things pups need. The only pet I’ve ever had was a fish. They don’t need daily attention. Although mine used to let me pet it. I’ve never had a pet that would need daily care so I wouldn’t know the first thing about it. My mom is afraid of any and all types of animals so we never had any sort of pet as a kid.

It’s Wednesday and I am awakened by a very odd dream. I was in a doctors office from back in the fifties where everything was a pinkish peach color. I was barefoot and in an nightgown. There were mirrors everywhere. The crazy part was that I couldn’t see anything. Everything was blurry. All I could see in the mirrors was my blurry self, long brown hair and a white nightgown. I was screaming because I was so devastated that I wasn’t able to see anything. Hearing myself scream woke me up. My audiobook was still on from last night and the author was talking about how we should choose all of our words carefully when we speak to others. Since I couldn’t go back to sleep I kept on listening to the audiobook until it was time for my husband to get up and ready for work. I tried to stay in bed but I just couldn’t. Not being able to see in my dream really spooked me so I got up along with him. As he was getting himself ready, I made myself toast and started up my coffee. I then had my toast with butter and blackberry jam. Yummy. I wash the dishes that are in the sink and then my hands start to itch. I have eczema on a couple of my fingers and they are itchy. Every time I wash the dishes they tend to get worst. It’s odd because the eczema comes and goes. It’ll be on like, my pinky finger this week and then next month or so it’ll be on my pointer finger on my other hand. Anyway, I always have eczema cream ready for these kinds of days. So here I am at five in the morning awake but no motivation to get down to the treadmill. Nor to get some shut eye. Meanwhile, I have the sound of ocean waves in the background. It’s a very special sound for me. I love the beach and the sites and sounds of the shore are some of my favorite sounds.

Good morning everybody, it’s two in the morning and I am very awake. I’ve gotten up at midnight and got myself a midnight snack of peanut butter and nutella and then tried to get back to sleep. Of course I couldn’t as I have work on my mind. I’ve gotten up again and made a few mockups for one of the sites that need to work on. It’s not fantastic, but I’ve gotten it done. Meanwhile, I am listening to the sounds of a creek and some zen music. So far it’s been keeping me calm. What I need now are some sleeping aids in order to get my behind back to bed so I can have a better day tomorrow…well a better day thank yesterday. Yesterday, there were a couple of items that were not working on one of the websites and I was at a complete loss. The ftp or sftp or some other acronym wasn’t working properly and there were emails and instant messages contently going back and forth and my anxiety was on overdrive. I had no idea what to answer to first or even if I should respond at all. So instead I panicked and basically placed my thumb up my behind as I no idea how to respond to the majority of the issues that were going on. It was not a good morning. As for this morning I was able to get back into bed and back to sleep until six in the morning. And then, back to the laptop I go. I am now answering emails rapid fire. I am getting a bit annoyed that I feel like I don’t know what the f*ck I’m doing and I am getting more and more twisted as the days go by. It feels like rapid fire emails makes me sound as if I know what I am talking about. I hate it. Rapid fire is not my thing, I like to think about what I’m going to say, not just simply fire off the first thing that comes into my mind. Believe me, it’s not a good thing. Usually the first words out of my mouth is ‘WHAT?! That is now how it works you dumb sh*t.’ So I have to be careful to not call people names and keep my cursing down. I can be a sailor at times and that does not jive well with corporate America. One more time…I hate this sh*t.
Today I spoke with my mentee and she is a fantastic young woman. She is the one who told me about the use of the free site called canva. And how to the covid vaccine faster if you’d go into the city. Today we spoke about how some bosses can be complicated and some can talk from both sides of their mouth. I told her that I’ve had a boss who told me that I did not need to know processes but then told me that I need to know the process. For real?! What the hell does that mean? It’s a funny relationship, I feel like I talk more to her about my issues than she does to me about mine. We have a great relationship and I hope that I have been good mentor to her. I’ve also mentioned to her that I’ve been harassed at work by an old gross man. Then I told her that I never went to HR about this because my boss at the time said she does not trust them and that it may do me more harm than good. She said the person is in a high position and that he may know someone in a high position which may then put me in a bad place. Basically make me a complainer and that is not a good position to have. I told her, never again. Next time I will go to HR and make my complaint. Apparently, this disgusting man has made gross passes at other women and they all know about it. This a**whole should get fired. It’s funny, I remember telling my story to another manager and the manage didn’t know what to do with himself. He told me that what the gross man said was “strange.” No m*therf*cker, that is sexual harassment. Anyway, thinking about this makes want to throw something. Luckily I don’t have to work with this guy at all. He works with the finance department and I don’t need to deal with him for anything.

It’s Friday and yet again I am up at the crack of dawn. I am up with my husband as he is getting ready for work. I make myself some toast. Watching him eat makes me want to eat too. So buttered toast with blackberry jam it is. We get his rain gear and some other items for his work day. Oh yeah, and the kitchen smells really, really bad. He likes to eat soup for lunch so he heats up a can or two of soup and then places it in his thermous. But good lord the smell of a tomato type of soup right in the morning is not for me. Nevertheless, I am hungry and eat my toast anyway. He then leaves and I head back to my bedroom office and I have a message from my co-worker from VietNam. They are, I don’t even want to know how many hours ahead and they send messages at all hours of the night. We are talking for a bit and then I get annoyed. I’m probably still tired. But, I am annoyed because I have been working at all hours of the day and night and it feels like the company doesn’t care. I only get payed to work a certain amount of hours per week and here I am at five in the morning working away. I say f*ck this and get back into bed. Problem is, I can’t sleep. So I am looking for an audiobook to entertain me. I decided on Kiss the Girls and Make Them Cry by Mary Higgins Clark. It’s about a girl who is journalist and she does things. No idea what happened because I fell asleep. By the time I woke up she was in Aruba investigating why a girl went missing. I then turned it off because I’m going to have to listed to it all over again since I must have missed an hour or so of the book. At eight, I get up and get my coffee ready and log on. My boss gave me a treat today, as I no longer have to present in a meeting this afternoon. She wants it postponed. Yay. Now all I have to do is write up all of the other technical document for the other requests that I have coming my way. Do I know how to write technical documents? Nope, but this is what the boss wants me to do. She does not want me to write one liners to the developers such as, the business would like for the website to do this. The boss wants me to write well that, plus where the information comes from where it will go. Technically this technically that. Technically I don’t have a f*cking clue. I’ve created one before and the boss came back with so many questions that I had missed on the document that I was a bit confused why we needed such information. I literally needed to state that a button should be next to the other buttons. If I would not have written that, then the team wouldn’t know where to put the button. Who the hell knows best practices here? No I need to know user interface and user experience as well. I think this is all I need to know. Meanwhile, where do I learn all of this information? No one is teaching me how the systems interface. Then I’m told that I don’t need to know how they interface. I ask if I’m supposed to know this. I get an answer that we don’t need to make any of these particular updates right now, so I don’t get informed of how the system works. Holly hell. By the end of the day my head is spinning. I’m going to take another piece of medicine that will calm my system and see if I can some of my other work done.

Until next time
Stay Safe
Best,
Isabel

Hi friends!

So, I’ve received the covid vaccine on Thursday of last week. Today is Saturday and I have a nice rash on my arm. Check out the video. I’ll keep you updated.

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It’s the weekend of my fiftieth-something week of working from home. I’ve basically been working from home for an entire year. My hair has grown a few inches and I am ready to cut it and donate it. My husband is not too comfortable for me to get out to the hairdresser. And to think of it, I’m not sure if I’m ready for it either. I am ready to let the hair go to a good charity, but not so much on the going to get it cut ordeal. Maybe I’ll do it home. How hard can it be?

As for being at home I have been very bored. The family has been playing pokemonGo and I just can’t do it anymore, I am basically bored with everything.

Yesterday, we took my old car out to the mechanic as the car needs a lot of work done. A new muffler, oil change, inspection, light replacement and so many other things. Hopefully the car will be done next week. I would really need the car today as today would have been a great day for me to go out to the beach and listen to the ocean waves. The waves give me peace. I get to go out to the beach and leave my bad thoughts out there. As I have many bad thoughts in my head. I’ve had lots of trauma as a young child as well as when I was in a coma in my 30’s. It hasn’t been the easiest of lives. I have a lot of issues and I work really hard on them on a daily basis. I work so damn hard on them daily that by the end of the day I don’t have any more energy left. I feel terrible, because at the end of the day is when I have time to be with my little one. I have to push from the depths of my being in order to be able to focus on being a good mom. I luckily have people around me that accomplish all of the house work that is shared. I get to take care of a few things but the rest is taken care of.

As I am working from home, I am looking for a side gig so that I may be able to make a few extra bucks. I used to have a job where I’d do merchandising for a few companies but during covid season, I am not willing to go to any of the stores to do the merchandising. A side hustle would be something that would keep my mind out of my own mind. My current issue is that I keep on ruminating all of the shit that I just can’t get out of my head. At times I feel like I have a few people in head one of them telling me to do good the other to just say fuck this and move on. Like the old cartoons where the angel and the devil would be on the cartoon’s shoulder and they would tell the cartoon what to do. Today the devil character is winning. My other personality is telling it to shut the fuck up. But the devil is winning. This is why the family has gone out for a drive and I have styed home.

I am listening to the book Unf#ck your Intimacy. Using science for better relationships. I’ve already fell asleep listening to it. There are a couple of things that make sense to me like trauma and how it’s continuously in your head. It’s a hour hour book and I am listening to it as I make my bed and clean the bedroom as well as take a nap. I’ve not listed to it for a little while as I took my nap.

While working from home I am feeling like I don’t know what I am doing at work. If I was actually at the office I would probably be a bit better off as I would have a better relationship with the boss as well as my coworkers or would I? Being online is a nice way to also be with people but we don’t get to see each other as we don’t turn on our cameras. And that is ok. Some days I am not camera ready. But I’m sure neither are they. I remember the people in the IT department. No one would doll themselves up. Actually some people would be at their desks with sneakers on even though my company has a dress code of business casual, so no sneakers and no capris.

I do however, miss going over to people’s desks a saying hello. If I don’t see them online or on facebook or something like that, I completely forget to get in touch with them. Not because I don’t want to, but I am so busy during the day, I even forget to have lunch. In the future, I hope my company will give employees times off to work from home. They can save a lot of electricity and us workers can save a lot of time on our commute. Speaking of which, instead of being in a car on my way to work, I am online getting work done. Hopefully this will turn into a positive for the employees.

This week I was reading my performance documents and it sound like my boss is thinking of grooming me to be a leader. I am looking forward to this. I haven’t had a team report to me in a very long time, but I am sure I can handle it. Otherwise I have a mentor who can give me a hand on how to be a good leader.

I’ve been utilizing Roc Retinol Correction MAX Daily Hydration Creme for a few weeks and I really like it.
I’ve tried multiple brands of retinol lotions and they’ve been moisturizing however, they’ve gotten into my eyes and they make me cry.

This lotion does not get into to eyeballs and it stays put in my skin.

As for it being deep winkle formula…I don’t think so. I’ve been working very hard at my job and have been working early mornings and late nights. The deep wrinkles continue to be there. however the rest of the skin is very soft.

The scent is very soft and lovely. The texture is also very nice and it is not greasy.

The lotion goes on nice and soft on the skin.

All you need is a small amount in order to get it all over the skin and tap, tap on your eyes.

Now gently glide all of the creme all over your skin and again tap, tap, tap underneath your eyes so the lotion gets into the skin.

As a fourty year old woman I am satisfied with this lotion. I like this brand and will continue to purchase more items. I understand there are more items this brand has for undereye solutions. I will be looking into these. I will continue to let you know my thoughts.

Until Next Time.
Stay Safe
Best,
Isabel

I’ve purchase Gloss Boss by ‘Artistry Studio’ which is a beauty line from Amway. I’ve tried a few another item from this line and I like it very much. If you’re interested in making a purchase let me know and I will send you over to my friend who is an entrepreneur for the company.

This cleanser and exfoliator has a clean tangerine scent and it is very lovely.

The box has a pretty iridescent side and it states ‘Glow get it girl’ Love it.

On the inside of the box there is a zen and energy message. What a way to wake up in the morning.

All you need is a small amount in your hand. Take in that fresh scent and place it on your skin.

Slather it all of over your skin. I took into the shower yesterday and absolutely love it. Today, I’ve slathered it all over the skin on my face and I absolutely love it.

It takes out all of the impurities and buildup.
All clean.

Now it is time to place on the Hydro.Prime and get ready for my day.

This week was a total mess. I felt terrrible and I performed terribly at work. I even received an email with a frown face because I responded to something in a way that I should not have. The boss was not happy.

It’s Monday and I get up in an ok mood, I’m up at seven and I am a little grogy but I go ahead and make my morning coffee. I’m not hungry this morning so I skip breakfast. I then get online and see there are a load of emails already from our friends from Viet Nam. They are many hours ahead and they are working hard already. We have a call with them at nine in the morning to go over the new site for our friends in Mexico. There were some issues last week that we must talk about. The only issue for me, is well the heavy accents. And then, the subject matter. They are speaking something about our systems and how they did or did not interact and that is why we had the issues that we had. I am trying to keep up, but I have no idea what they are talking about. I am listening carefully to hear if my boss tells me to take care of something. My boss eventually tells me that I need to follow up with business on this. Great, I have no clue of what ‘this’ is but hey, what the hell. I’ll send them a message.
Later on in the day we had an issue with another site where users were not able to see their dealers’ information online. I sent emails to the developers for them to look into the issues. And here comes the questions of what systems are they supposed to be able to view and what other systems are the users not attached to? These types of questions drive to drink. I was not tought about systems so I have to send seperate emails to the boss to ask such things. The bosses reply is that I along with my previous boss were the business users and I should know how this works. I had to bad mouth my previous boss a bit and let my current boss know that I was never taught about systems. I learned how to post content and only know about that end when it comes to systems. As for how systems interact with each other for the site to work, I simply do not know. My mind was screaming…I have no f*cking clue. So I nicely asked if we could have a session on how these systems interact with each other. Surprisingly to me, the boss said sure. Again the boss mentioned that I should have known this when I was working for these sites for many years. Of course that made me feel like a bag of garbage. But that was my entire day.

Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were a blur. I had a bunch of product launching and there were a lot of them. One group was so backed up that they provided me with their content the day before. The content was in the incorrect format and I had to send them all back. About an hour later or so, they were provided again. Now, we are already at six in the evening when the updated content was received. I didn’t even look at them closely, I simply downloaded everything to my computer, and then uploaded them to the system and pushed them through a workflow. As I’m creating the templates I am noticing that they are not working right. Damn it, they are in the wrong format, again. I had to send out another message to the provider to make the updates one more time. At this point I logged off. I’ll take care of them in the morning.
The next morning I couldn’t sleep, thinking about the all of the work that I need to do for my marketing job. I get up at five in the morning and think about getting to work on these items. I make my morning coffee and get to work. I work on these until nine in the morning, the time they are due to be live on the site. I don’t completely finish placing all of the content on the site. But the main items that need to be ther are where they are supposedto be. I sent a email to the developers to replicate the site and we are all good. An hour later, I have another set of products launching on the website. This one runs smoother. Thankfully the team provided me with the content a few weeks prior to the launch, as we always request them, and they did as such. The launch went off flawlessly but I had to request for the developer to replicate the site for a second time. For this I must create tickets in order for this to happen. So, I need to create a spread sheet with launch information. One spread sheet per launch. So I had four launch spread sheet opened. I then have another spread sheet for tickets that are created for the developers. That’s a fifth spread sheet. I then have yet another spread sheet where I have all of the content that is posted so that my boss and the other bosses can see how much work I’m actually doing or working on. Seven spread sheets opened up at the same time on a sixteen inch laptop. That’s a lot of lines.
If you’re interested this is what we launched at Canon this week. EOS M50 Mark II Content Creator Kit for mirrorless cameras. Captures high resolutuiona and 4k videos. Remote cameras CR-N500 and CR-N300. We also launched a few accessories for EOS camera, EOS Webcam Startet Kits. These are great if you’ve already have and EOS and transform it into a powerful webcam. And last but not least, we also launched the imagePROGRAF TZ-30000. A large multifunction printer that does it all.
Needless to say, I was very busy launching all of these product and trying to also be a business analyst for all of the websites I am responsible for.
There was so much work to do and I was so stressed out that after I finished my work, I had dinnner than went right to bed. All three days. My colleagues were also stressed. I received emails from coworkers at one in the mornig some at six in the morning. Everyone is working way overtime and everyone is going out of their minds. It doesn’t make me feel better, but at least I know that I am not alone on this crazy journey.

On Friday, I am playing catchup. Since I wasn’t able to do much of my other work during this week due to the launches, I am looking through 200 emails that I have not responded to. I have a lot of content to post on the websites and not much time to do it as I also have to ensure that my business analyst work is being worked on. I have a big analyst job coming up that I keep on pushing off because there are system that I am not too sure about and need to have answers for the boss. Yes, I am procrastinating this one. I hate not know what I’m doing. Flying by the seat of my pants is not the way I like to go. Meanwhile, there are meetings upon meetings that I must attend.

Needless to say, this was a very frustrating week.

Until next time.
Stay safe.
Best,
Isabel

One of my dear friends is an entrepreneur and she is now working for Amway. Being a great friend 😉 I went ahead and made a couple of purchases from their beauty line Artistry Studio.
I purchased the Hydro Prime/Base. Here is my take on this product.

I like the packaging as it is in a pretty pink and white package.

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When you open the package, there is a message right on the flap ‘Hi, I’m your new BFF.’ How adorable!

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Open the flap, and there are more messages.
‘Zen, Skin Conditioner’ and ‘Energy, Citrus Blend.’

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The inside of the box is a beautiful green. I love this green color. I is a calming color for me.
The size of the package shown on the website is a little deceiving. I thought the item was going to be a little bigger. I should read the fine print as it size is 1.7oz. I will read the description more carefully next time.

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The lotion is a jelly like substance and it is pink in color. It’s sent reminds me of passion fruit. It is very delightful and refreshing. It really is zen and energy all in one.

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The lotion itself is mainly clear and it goes on the skin very smooth.

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Most lotions, for me, make my eyes irritated after a few hours of wearing them. I wear glasses all day long and most lotions run into my eyes making them tear up after a few hours of use.
I wore this lotion all day yesterday and it did not do such bad things to my eyes. My skin felt smooth all day long.
I have combination skin, oily on the t-zone and dry on the cheeks. This lotion did not make me look greasy. It is quite lovely.

This is the result without any makeup on. #no filter.
As you can see I have some adult acne. This lotion did not irritate the skin. It simply glides on.

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Have you tried these products. Leave me a comment so I may send it to my friend.

Until next time.
Stay Safe!
Best,
Isabel