I really enjoy listening to Rachel Hollis. She keeps me inspired and keeps me going. I really enjoyed her first motivational book, Girl, Wash Your Face. I thought her book was all about a hot mess with sprinkles of fashion and beauty and it turns out they are about the beauty inside all of us.
I am now listening to Girl, Stop Apologizing. She says that “confidence matters.” Even if confidence means wearing hair extensions and makeup. I tend to lack in confidence an am always looking for some sort of inspiration and confidence and Rachel gives me just that. She tell us @msrachelhollis that a “Morning routine is EVERYTHING. When the world around you feels uncertain, your daily habits are the way to feel centered.” This is why I do my best to have a morning routine that I can follow. Running and coffee are my morning routines. I run every other day and have my morning cup of coffee every day. I have gratitude for my coffee pot and the fact that it has a timer on it. My husband is so helpful and places the coffee in my thermos so it stays nice and hot. He does this every single morning. Thank you, husband! I give thanks that my mother-in-law bought the coffee maker for us. I think she bought it for us for mother’s day no less. What a treat. Thank you mother-in-law!
In the book Rachel also says to, “Replace your to do list with a Results list.” I follow her advise and have a journal with just that. I write “I am Successful, I am Worth It, I am Enough.” I also write “Today is the best version of me.” I write these every day and the more I write them down, the more I start to believe them. In the book, she also goes deep into her personal life and I feel like we are good friends. What she went through when she had her first kid, and the twins and also some other personal beauty things. Read the book, you’ll know what I’m talking about. However, no judgements here. Fake eyelashes, fake hair, fake whatever…you do you sister.
She says that she wrote this book for “the community who is hungry for their dreams. It’s for my hustlers who are up till 2am working towards their goals. It’s for my mamas who are being pulled in ten different directions and are still making time for their personal goals. It’s for anyone who is striving to be the best version of themselves.”
She also gives me inspiration and states that “It’s not your job to fit into anyone elses’ ideal. It’s your job to start believing who you are and what you’re capable of. It’s time to be yourself, unapologetically.”
And then she says that “It’s time to stop apologizing for who you are. It’s time to become who you were meant to be.” And that spoke to me. I feel like I keep on hiding my true self. I like being my weird self and having people laugh, with me, at my weirdness. At times I feel like I have stop it and be “normal.” I don’t want to be normal, normal is boring.
She also does gratitude through meditation at the very end. If you are listening to the audiobook, make sure you are in an area where you can sit for a little while and feel a moment of gratitude.
I’m still at home and still loving it. Some of my coworkers want to go back, I am happy as a clam staying put.
Happy Monday! This morning I did my Monday routine, get up at 6AM, be with my husband for a little bit. Go for a run, shower and then yummy coffee! Having a Monday routine is good for me. I know exactly what I need to do and I only concentrate on doing it. I don’t have to think, only do. As for work, I have 500 emails to look through. I would of had more, but I cheated during my week off and looked through about another 400 emails. One of the emails, I notice is a last minute product launch and I have just one day to prepare. Usually, we request for the teams to provide me all of the assets two weeks prior to a launch as it take a while and a lot of coordination with my IT team to get everything up and ready. Just one day to get everything ready, means no lunch break for today and I have to keep on hustling to get everything ready for tomorrow’s product launch. Plus, I have another huge launch for the Camera team that I must take care of as well. We are launching about 10 products and about 30 or so accessories. I’ll let you know when the product launches, for right now it is a secret. Even to me. The product group doesn’t tell us much about the launching products, which is OK. They want to make sure there aren’t any leaks about the products. And keep it a surprise for everyone. I will know about them when everyone else knows about them. After looking through all of the emails and sending a few back and forth, I start getting drained an I am looking for some motivation to keep going with my workday. I look through Twitter and find the below that I really like. This motivation gets me through a few more hours of work. Also, feel free to follow me on Twitter, I will follow you back.
I’ve been listening to the song death bed by Powfu featuring beabadoobee. Truly listening to the lyrics. I will be totally honest and say that I dislike it very much lol. It is such a sad song and it almost makes me cry every time it comes on the radio. Here are some of the lyrics, you tell me if this is sad or not. “Don’t stay awake for too long Don’t go to bed I’ll make a cup of coffee for your head I’ll get you up and going out of bed. I don’t wanna fall asleep I don’t want to pass away I been thinking of our future ’cause I’ll never see those days I don’t know why this has happened But I probably deserve it I tried to do my best But you know that I’m not perfect…”
This is one of the saddest songs I’ve heard. Why are we playing this on the radio when the pandemic is going on and so many people are sick or passing away? Or cancer? Or anyone with a chronic condition? This song is surely going to speak to some people and they will need their daily dose of depression medication to get over the hump. As for me, thankfully, I don’t have anyone in that predicament. However, when this song comes on the radio, I have to move on. I’ve listening to the lyrics more and more and now that I’ve actually read them, it’s even worst. At first I only heard the “cup of coffee for your head” part and I thought, yes, that is me, I need that cup of coffee for my head. And then, I paid attention to the rest of the song and I wanted to cry. What do you think of this song? Like it? Don’t like it?
The family and I went for a drive over the weekend and saw a place that is famously known as “The Witches Hat.” located in Aquebogue on the North Fork in Long Island. For a long time I’ve wondered what its purpose was. It’s located next to an animal hospital and I’ve always wondered if it had anything to do with the hospital. It’s such a small little structure and really adorable that I decided to look into it further and find out more about it. The Riverhead Local newspaper stated that it was a small store that sold candy. Apparently, the owner decided to make the structure look like a hat so that it would attract passersby who were going from the city to the Hamptons’. I would stop there to buy candy, wouldn’t you? Smart owners!
Another thing I saw on our drive was the Free Little Library. Not sure exactly where it is located but it is next to a bus stop on the way to Mattituck, Long Island also on the North Fork. I think it is so flipping cute. I just adore these little free libraries. To me, they look like little bird houses with old books in them. If it wasn’t for covid-19, I’d be looking at all of the books and reading all of the covers. And probably smelling them. I love the smell of old books. It brings me such joy. For now, I’ll just enjoy the view and what the little libraries represent.
As for work, holly molly what a day. We had what our department calls a “town hall meeting” conference call and we learned that there are many changes in our department. As for me, I am continuing to do the same thing and reporting to the same manager. Everyone else however, looks like they’ve been shuffled around doing different things and reporting to different management. Hopefully this shuffling is a good thing for my colleges. Meanwhile, I have been hustling all day to get my work done. But not before I get my feel goods done in my notebook. Today’s feel good is started with “Go for a Run” followed by “I am enough.” Then I keep on working hard to get all of my work done. I hustle and hustle and hustle all day. It’s now 9:30PM and I am still working on the product launch for tomorrow. I am tired, my back is hurting and I am jonesing for a sweet treat. I stopped working, grabbed a pack of Oreo cookies and a cup of milk and had a feast! I will continue my work tomorrow morning.
It’s Tuesday and I have skipped my run this morning, instead, at 6AM I get out of bed and get to work. My husband got me up and going and I am ready for the day. There is much to do today for work and little time to do it. After a little while, about an hour or so, I pause and reflect, and look for motivation. These are what I found today: “Trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainty. Enjoy the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, anything is possible.” Another one that I like is: “My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some humor and some style” -Maya Angelou. OK, now that I have some inspiration, I am ready to tackle some more work. Today I learned some sad news, one of the friends that I’ve recently made at work is moving on and will no longer be working for my company. We’ve been working together for a short period of time, but we became fast friends and we could talk for hours about nothing and laugh at everything lol. I am glad she’s gotten an opportunity elsewhere but I will sure miss working with her.
It’s Wednesday morning at the crack of dawn and I am so excited, I DID IT! I reached my goal and was able to run for a whole 30 minutes. I did my warm up by walking uphill, and then I started to run. I was able to reach my goal of half hour nonstop. Woohoo! Since I am always reaching, I already have another goal in place. I’d like to run for those 30 minutes at a faster pace. Currently, I am running at a 3.0 pace on the treadmill. I want to reach 4.0 by the beginning of the fall season. I’m sure if I keep working at it, I am confident I will be able to reach that goal. Slow and steady wins the race. After my workout, I looked outside the living room window and saw our little fawn feasting in the front yard. I recorded a video and will work on sharing it with you. Check it out below.
Our Fawn
Yes, I am whispering because they can hear me, even through the window. One of them saw me open up the blinds and stared me down for a little while before going back to eating. They have very sharp hearing. My daughter thinks that they are both girls and thinks they should be named Snow Ball and Fluffy. That is what we will call them from now on. Today is my nieces’ birthday. And I was invited to take part of the birthday car parade. I went to their street and got on line behind the other cars. I’m glad I went as there were only 4 or 5 cars to celebrate her birthday. So, me and my loud car were the last on the line. You see, my muffler has broken and the car is very loud. Also, the air conditioner went kaput. It hadn’t worked in the past and then it got fixed and then it broke again. The car is an old one and it needs replacing, but who had that kind of money during this pandemic?! So, no air conditioner and loud exhaust. Might as well roll down the windows, pump up the music and pretend it is done on purpose! So we all honked as we drove by, waved and yelled HAPPY BIRTHDAY out the window!! It was so nice, the entire family was in the front yard waving at everyone. I was so emotional that I was starting to tear up. I drove back to their house and said my hellos and a happy birthday again to the baby girl and then I headed back home as I had to get back to work. I only have one hour for lunch after all. As I was driving home, I started to hear metal hitting the asphalt. What this means is my muffler has really broken in half and is bouncing around on the ground. As I drove through bumps, I could hear the muffler scrapping the ground. This isn’t good, I thought. I had to start driving slower. On the Long Island Expressway, I had to drive on the right lane with my blinkers on nice and slow. At one point, it happened! The muffler completely broke off and it flew off my car. It bounced off the car and landed in the middle of the left lane. Thank God there wasn’t anyone behind me who had to swerve out of the way. No accidents on the highway! So now, there is half a muffler in the middle of the LIE in Suffolk county. And I need a new muffler. So, what should I do? Fix the air conditioner and replace the muffler or get a new car? Of course the answer at this point is a new car, but again, who’s got the money for that?! Sure I can lease now, by the way things are going I will be working from home for a few more months and will not have to worry about adding miles to any car. And who knows, maybe my company will start to allow us to work from home more often after the pandemic is over. That would be a blessing for me. My commute is about an hour and a half sometimes two hours depending on traffic. For the last few months, I only drove my car for a few miles. Once to wash the green pollen off of it, the other was today, for my nieces’ birthday. My other option is to buy a car. But then we will have to figure out if it’s best to buy a bigger family car or a hybrid for me to drive into work. Of course the family car will be more practical, but the hybrid will get me to work faster and it’s less on the wallet. My husband and I will have to meet and discuss our best options.
It’s Thursday and I woke up in a terrible mood. This is due to the dream I had right before I woke up. My dream was that my brothers and I were in a car driving in the city. The two of them were bickering about a construction site. They were going on and on about the history and why it was built that way and then why it was under construction and why it was taking so long for the construction to be completed. And they were going on and on about it. All I wanted to do was tell them to shut it, but instead, as per usual, I just let them bicker it out as I was in the back seat and it was annoying the hell out of me. Thank goodness it was wake up time and my husband woke me up and asked me to give him a hand this morning. I was in such a foul mood that I asked him “what for, you’re not even dressed.” He looked at me angrily with a questioning face. So I thought about what I said and it didn’t make any sense. Of course he’s not even dressed dummy, I thought to myself, that’s what I’m here for, to help him. So I apologized and told him I had a bad, very annoying dream. I told him about it and he laughed at me. I helped him dress and told him to have a nice day and he grunted back at me “it’s never a nice day at work.” I told him I was sorry to hear that and he left for work. It’s now a couple of hours later and I am still annoyed at the dream I had. Rotten siblings getting into my head. As for work, I to get right on the laptop as we have Camera products launching today. If you are interested there is a video online about all of the products we launched. Everyone at that “office” are very exited about these new products. They are exceptional for photographers an videographers in the field. From their testimonies, they love these new products! The rest of the working day was all about updating the websites. As I am working away, I am also listening to Girl, Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis. She says that “confidence matters.” Even if confidence means wearing hair extensions and makeup. I like Rachel, she gives great advice and makes me feel greatfull for what I have and how I am doing. By 3PM I take a water break and see my daughter in the kitchen. I give her a big hug and kiss and she asked, to please, pretty please play with her for a little bit. So we played Hungry, Hungry Hippo for about 10 minutes. She was laughing, yelling and screaming, “oh yeah!” when she got the special yellow ball. I’m laughing too! I’m having a ball playing with her and hearing all of her comments. She is so funny! My little love dove! After a while of playing, I tell her I am very sorry, but I need to get back to work. I would play more Hungry, Hungry Hippo with her after work. So today, I have worked from 6AM until 6PM…I am cooked. It’s 6:15PM and the and instant messages keep on coming. Forget this, I am going to turn off the laptop and check the messages tomorrow. After I close the laptop I look around my bedroom/office and notice that I never put my PJ’s away nor did I make the bed. I didn’t clean up anything. I only changed my clothes from PJ’S to work appropriate clothing because I had conference calls where we all turn on our cameras. Other wise, I would have been in PJ’s all day. Long day! Now, I’m going to have a slice of cake and de-stress for a little while until bed time.
It’s now Friday and I woke up with a raging headache. I think my husband tried to wake me up this morning, but I did not budge. I woke up to my 7:30AM alarm and then continue to stay in bed until 8:30AM or so. I rolled out of bed and I felt the heals of my feet were on fire, ouch! I then walked, excuse-me, limped to the bathroom as my feet were not cooperating and limped again to the kitchen. I then had some of my morning coffee. The delicious coffee made it for a better morning. I took some Tylenol for my head and the headache went away and then I sit down on my victorian chair in my bedroom/office an to work I go. Today I am feeling the love and look for inspirational love quotes. I found one from Mother Teresa: “I have found the paradox, that if you love util it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” And another by Maya Angelou “Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurtles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.” Another one that spoke to me is, “Love cures people – both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it.” – Karl A. Menninger. At the end of the workday we had a team meeting with our new team members. We learned a little bit about each other and noted that we are all doing some sort of exercise to keep our heads and hearts on straight during this pandemic and staying put this season. Most of the women are doing yoga at home. I love yoga, but doing it by myself is a little boring. I’d rather go for a run. Today, and over the weekend, we have tropical storm Fey coming through. It is already raining and it apparently will continue all weekend long. Hopefully the winds will not be so bad and dear God no trees down. We have a couple of trees that are close to the house and they are big! They unfortunately need to come down. I will miss them very much once they are gone but they have to go, for the sake our safety and the safety of our home.
I’ve been blogging on a private section on my isabelsworld site. This blog is for my daughter to see when she is a grown adult. It’s a diary of things that happen to me on a daily basis so that she can understand my mindset enduring this time of her life. I remember how my mother was at this age and it wasn’t so great. I know now she had a few issues such as depression and anxiety. Back then I didn’t know this. All I knew is that mom needed some time to herself at times. And a lot of times she’d leave me with my brother to watch me. He was a teenager and didn’t know any better. Or did he?
But I digress, I’m working on being better for my little one as I have the same issues my mother had. I’m working on the blog letting her know about good days and bad days. Today was a good day and I made a video for her to see when she is older. She will see how much she is truly loved.
Happy Independence day! This week I have been off from the office and have worked in my garden instead. On this 4th of July, I have step outside my front door and see the two faun in the front yard feasting on the grasses. They are both laying on the grass and eating. Once I get outside and make a bit of noise, one of them gets up and is ready to run. The other one keeps on sitting there eating away. She is not scared of us at all. My husband and I drink our coffee and watch them eat, its a beautiful thing. At one point my daughter joins us and we all watch each other. It’s so cute to see these little creatures in their natural form.
The deer then must have gotten some energy and got up and started walking towards the berm of the yard and they both walked towards the street. My daughter got scared, she asked daddy to please get the deer away from the street and into the backyard. The cars drive way too fast on this street and we thing their mama was killed on this road. So, he got up and went to the street and got the deer back into the yard. They didn’t go to the back yard as we had hoped, instead,they went to the neighbor’s yard. That’s OK, at least they are not on the street. My daughter loves them so much and said “oh, thank God they are not on the street anymore.” Such a sweet soul she is. For lunch we feasted on BBQ’d steak with salad on the side. Later in the day we installed our air conditioner in our bedroom. My bedroom/office is now ready for me to work on Monday morning without me sweating it up. I cleaned the window where the air conditioner is going to be placed. And let me tell you, this window is filthy. It still had the green pollen from the Spring. Once the inside was all clean, I realize that this type of window can be manipulated so I can also clean the outside. I figured out how to pull the darn thing apart and I get cleaning. This one is absolutely filthy and has cobwebs. Many paper towels and window cleaner were used on this one. Once all is clean, my husband places the air conditioner on the window and I tape all of the cracks so the bugs won’t come in. We then turn on the machine and instant cool! My husband finally slept comfortably. I on the other hand had to wear a long sleeve t-shirt as my pjs and put on a small blanket. But that’s ok, I’m used to being cold all the time. Having a blanket is actually soothing as it is a little heavy and it keeps me sleeping better. In the evening we go and play pokemonGo. We play and play and play some more. We drove by East Hampton and were surprised at how many people were not on the road. Being the 4th of July we were thinking that there would be traffic, but no. No traffic at all. We enjoyed the scenery as we played the game. Then our friend Frank came and joined us and we all played the game. We avoided BBQs and all other parties as we are still weary of the corona virus. So we play and stay put as a family.
It’s Sunday and it is a relaxing, lazy morning. Looking for morning motivations and saw this one that spoke to me.
I need to tell myself everyday to be proud of the person that I have become. I have gone through some tough times, and good times too, but the tough ones stay in my head longer and I tend to put myself down a lot. Being proud of the things that I have done, overcome and become are great accomplishments and I need to keep telling myself these things every single day. Another one that spoke to me is the elimination diet.
I tend to worry about everything, that is my anxiety talking to me. One of the things that tend to keep me worried when I am out of the house is that my house is going to get broken into and all of my possessions are going to get taken from me. I tend to get very attached to my things. I work very hard to have what I have and get very upset when I no longer have them. I’m getting better at this but for a long time, I would not get rid of clothing because I had such great connections with them. Not a hoarder type. I would get rid of things that are ripped or broken. But, if the clothing simply did not fit, I would place them in a box and have them for later. Sick right? After my daughter was born and I almost passed away, I have made some changes. So I have gotten a little better with possessions. As for clothing, I have gotten the ones that no longer fit me and are in good condition, placed them in a bag and have given these to my niece. She is a gown beautiful girl and she will fit into the clothing that I have stowed away. The other clothing, I have placed them in another bag and give them to the church at Sts. Peter and Paul Roman Catholic Church. I feel better about donating as opposed to just throwing it out. As for other things, such as baby items, I have posted them on facebook to sell. But I am thinking of simply donating them to those in need. I will need to figure out how to do this as I am very skeptical. I don’t want to simply post something online and have someone get it and then sell it for themselves. I would rather give it to someone who needs it now. Yeah, I don’t trust people and my faith is a little off kilter. I’m trying really hard to change my ways and have more faith in people, but I’m not there yet. Maybe some more time will do. In the afternoon, the family goes out and I stay home and study for my SCRUM test. I write and rewrite my notes. Studying hard.
It’s Monday morning and today is my day off from work. Nevertheless, I have been up since 5AM and am on my knees helping out my husband. He and his sciatica are not friends, so there I am helping him put on his socks and shoes. I then have to go outside and clean up after the raccoon. It went into my garbage pail and left a mess. One of the garbage bags was open and all of the garbage was all over the place. The darn thing left everything all over the place, disgusting. Listen, raccoon, if you’re going to go into my things, leave it nice and neat, OK?! So I got out a pair of gloves, who know if it has rabies, and got to work. I picked up everything off the floor and swept all of the garbage back into the garbage can. How lucky for me, the garbage was filled with glitter from one of the projects that I did with my daughter over the weekend. Needless to say, everything was filled with glitter. I swept up as much as possible but the glitter will be there until the rains come and wash it all away. Once that is gone I get inside and empty out the dish washer. I’m trying my hardest not to make too much noise, so I won’t wake up the little one. I of course was noisy, but luckily she surprisingly, she slept right through it. I then get to work on my running. I push hard again today and run for a full 25 minutes. It’s not easy, but I get it done. I then do my daily situps and stretches.
I realize that I have plenty of time as after doing my workout to do whatever I want. Usually, right after my workout and shower I’m just on time to start my work day. But since I am off today, I have plenty of time to go outside and water my plants. Once they are nice and hydrated I come inside and take a nice cool shower and then do my feel goods on my notebook. “Today is the best version of me” is my first on the list. I then go to twitter and look for some more motivation quotes for my notebook such as: “Behind every strong, independent woman stands a little girl, who had to learn to stand up alone without depending on others.” This is so, when I am feeling down or just simply off, I can look back and get some pick-me ups. Last Friday was my daughters last day of school and I just want to say that we are so very proud of her. She did all of her school work while at home and she is learning how to read, write and do math while at home. Grandma has been a big help with teaching her all of these things. She is a good learners and memorizes everything she can. She memorized all of her sight words and is now memorizing her addition and subtraction. I am a proud mama. Her personality is also fantastic. When she does something wrong she becomes very sorry for doing such a thing but when she does something right, we always praise her and tell her how fantastic she is and how proud we are of her. She absolutely love it and I love her to the moon and back again. Let me tell you how silly I am; for today’s lunch I had what I thought were leftover meatballs and spaghetti. The meatballs looked a little off, as in, they seemed a little smaller than normal. Hmm, I thought, no worries, I’ll just put some extra on the plate. After they were all heated up, I took a bite and whatta you know; the meatballs are not meatballs but, little potatoes! So for lunch I had spaghetti and potatoes lol! They are both delicious in their own right so it wasn’t too bad. But I was looking forward to eating those meatballs with along with the spaghetti. In the afternoon my little one and I played board games. But the one that stood out the most was UNO. We played that one for hours. She learned the concept of skipping a turn and kept on playing that card over and over again. She beat me plenty of times. She learns fast. Such a smart cookie! At one point in the day my mother-in-law opened the front door as she wanted to clean the front stoop, and saw a gift bag just sitting there. This story is so sweet; my daughter’s teacher left her a little gift at the front door! She was so excited about the gift and that one of her favorite teachers brought it over for her. She was a little sad that she didn’t get to see and thank her teacher in person. The teacher didn’t ring the door bell or anything, just simply placed the gift bag on the stoop and left. I too wanted to thank her. My little one now wants to write her a thank you letter. I’m so delighted she did this, it put a great smile on my little one’s face. And that is all it takes to make me happy. In the afternoon we decided to go out for a drive. But not before we noticed our two little deer friends eating the soft grass in the front yard. The little fawn were close to the driveway and we had to walk over to the edge of the front yard shoo them away towards the back. We don’t want them to be scared by our car and run onto the road and potentially get run over. The road tends to get very busy and people are a**holes. They drive way too fast on my road. While trying to shoo them away, one of the fawns is scared of humans and ran right away, the other, not so much. My husband said it was looking at him and moving its paw front to back like it might charge at him. He wasn’t scared and was able to get them moving to the backyard. In the backyard, we’ve left apples and leftover bread for them to feast on, hopefully they will eat them. After we knew they were safe, we were on our way out of the house. On our way into town, we noticed a new park. Well, new to us. We drove through a narrow path into a clearing, then noticed there was a walking path into the woods. We were thinking that it will most likely bring you into the Peconic River. But, we didn’t dare! The bugs were out! We could see them buzzing out the car windows. Plus, the grasses around the path are tall and we are very cautious of ticks at this time of year. So we watched the scenery for a bit then noticed a pretty deer in the distance feasting on the tall grasses. When we were back on the narrow path to leave the park, my husband stopped the car abruptly and said he would be right back. We were looking around to figure out why he did that. “What is he doing?” We all said out loud. He walked over the to the path and picked something up off the ground. There was a turtle on the path. It was right where the car wheel would pass. If he would’t have seen it, we would have run the poor thing over. He brought the turtle over to us so we could inspect it. We saw it, pet it and he put it back on the ground, but on the grass this time. We did not want anyone to run it over. It is very sweet to see wildlife around the island. We love to show our daughter that we can live harmoniously among the wildlife and still be able to be human.
It’s Tuesday and my husband did not wake me up this morning. Sure I heard the alarms on my phone. I turned them all off and I slept in until 10AM. It’s still a bit dark outside and it looks like it is going to rain, so all my sleepyhead feels like doing is sleeping in a little more. I had to convince myself to get out of bed and do something. The day is wasting away… “get out of bed!” I told myself. So, I did and I had my first morning’s coffee…mmmm delicious! After my daughter woke up, we did unicorn surgery. My little one’s cute little plush ripped and the bag of beads inside it ripped as well. There were beads that needed to be placed back into its little baggie and the baggie needed to be placed back into the unicorn’s back. Then the back needed to be sown back together. I did surgery on my little one’s patient and my assistant did a great job assisting. After the surgery and recovery time, we got to decorating the house for Summer. It’s a wired day do this as it is a little cooler and dark out but nevertheless, we get to it. I have a bowl on the kitchen table that has decorative balls, twirls and flowers in it and I wanted to change it from Spring flowers to Summer sea shells. I removed the flowers and washed the bowl, it was very dusty, and went to the basement and got the sea shells that I’ve picked up at various Long Island beaches. My little one and I placed all of the shells in the bowl and called it art. There are some shells in the mix that are long and have a spiral shape that she, of course, called it a unicorn horn, and of course, wanted to add it to her toy collection. And I said, “no way baby girl!” These are for decorative purposes only. Plus, they can get really sharp and rip her sensitive little skin. There is no way we are going to be going to the doctor nor the hospital at this point in time. There is more corona virus at the doctor’s office than in the grocery stores. No way jose! We must be safe and stray away from the virus. So we decorated with some more Summer and 4th of July items and then got to coloring. She has a new coloring book, of what else but unicorns. It’s the one that her teacher left on the front stoop yesterday. It’s actually a really cool book. Not only does it have the coloring pieces but it has activities as well. We are working on getting her to read more, and since she loves all things unicorns, she is reading the instructions on the pages and pronouncing words. Kicking and screaming for now, but we will get there. I don’t understand why she’s not into reading. I am always reading or writing around her. Either a reading a real paper book or reading on my electronic device. Grandma also reads in front of her and to her. And daddy is always reading something. It’s online, but reading nevertheless. I’m not understanding why she’s not into it. Hopefully it’s just a phase and she will enjoy reading just as much as I do. It’s almost July, and we need to file our taxes and are not able to physically go to our CPA; corona virus and all. I called the office and asked what now?! Thank goodness, we can get them done via email. I’ve scanned everything that we have and emailed it over to our guy, Ken Higgins. If you’re looking for a CPA for personal or business reasons give him call 631.656.0480 or go to his website https://www.kenhigginscpa.com/. Let him know that I recommended him to you, I won’t get anything from it, just a smile and a thank you from the team. We have been using him and his company for many years and are very happy with the results. They are quick and very professional. Highly recommended. It is thundering like crazy out there. And, here comes the rain! Of course on my day off is when it always rains. I’m usually good like that! Whenever I plan any type of vacation or time off, there is always rain. It’s funny, I remember one time that I visited Portugal, many years ago, they were having a drought in the town that my mom was born, Folhadosa, near Cuimbra. And guess what, when we were there visiting my mom’s family, it rained! They didn’t get as much as they needed to cover the drought, but enough to water the gardens for the day. I remember, this other time that I planned to go to Fire Island to Cupsogue Beach County Park with my friends. I had never been there before and was so exited. We planned to take that Friday off and all go to the beach for the day. And guess what? No Fire Island for us as it was pouring. We never made it there after that. We were all so disappointed that we just forgot about our outing and had a BBQ instead. In conclusion, someone else has to pick a date, I have the knack for picking rain dates.
It’s Wednesday, the 1st of July. We were visited by that raccoon again and the garbage is all over the place once again. After helping my husbands with his socks and shoes, I had to get outside and clean up the mess the raccoon left overnight for us. After the cleanup I changed from my t-shirt pjs to my t-shirt workout clothes. They are one in the same. Instead of having two shirts to wash, there will be only one. Conserve and save!! I did my workout and ran for my 25 minutes and walked the rest of the hour that I was on the treadmill. I did a whole 3 miles today in total. I remember, I used to do a 5k, 3.1 miles, in under 25 minutes. But that was back in my college years. After my workout, I decided to get out into the yard and put down tick repelant on the grass. We have deer and other critters in our yard and it is filled with bugs, especially ticks. While doing yard work, I am listening to Girl, Don’t Apologizing by Rachel Hollis on my Overdrive app. I really like Rachel Hollis, she gives me good advise and her voice soothes me. I listed to her on youtube all the time as well. Usually as I am writing my blog or doing my daily work, I am listening to something. It’s usually Rachel.
Girl, Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis
But I digress. While I was outside, I noticed that I have pretty flowers that I can decorate with. I picked clematis, day lilies and hydrangeas. These were placed in an old pair of rain boots that my daughter has grown out of. I’ve been eyeing them to decorate the front stoop for a long time. Today was the day, I’ve finally used them to decorate. Check them out.
After all of this work and decorating; coffee! After my coffee I take a nice warm shower get dressed and blog. My daughter gets up and wants breakfast. After breakfast, we write a letter to her teacher who dropped off her gift on Monday. She writes a nice thank you note and then she shows it to Grandma. Grandma is very proud of her letter to her teacher. In the early afternoon my mother-in-law and I get outside to the vegetable garden and clean out all of the weeds. While we were both puling weeds, I was constantly sniffling as I was having some sort of terrible allergic reaction to something. My left eye is all red, everything is blurry and my nose is dripping. I constantly have to blow my nose. As we are pulling weeds, we notice a bunch of fat wholes on the ground and I am hoping that it’s not snake wholes. They are most likely voles, moles or field mice. I am glad that I did not see any of these critters. We did however, see one of the baby deer feasting on my plants in the front yard. My daughter and I were staring at it for a little while and it did not pay us any mind. It just kept on eating away. So we kept on looking at her and then she got scared of something and ran off. We went back to the vegetable garden and kept on working on those weeds. At one point, my little one was tired of being outside and wanted to come back into the house. I stopped pulling weeds and was about to go inside with her when she found a puddle of water. She called it a “muddy puddle” and started to jump in the water with her garden boots. This worked out well. The boots needed cleaning and the water puddle did just that. Shortly after Grandma was also done with the vegetable garden and started making her way back into the house. She cleaned her boots and my little one’s boots and I opened up the garage to get out the weed wacker. They went inside and showered and I was clearing out the weeds in the back yard and then the front and took care of those weeds. I was at this for a few hours and now my arms are tired am ready to call it a working day. I get in, take a shower, wash all of the dirt away. Weed wacking got me all filled with dirt everywhere. I get dressed and am inspired to write. My little one is watching TV, my mother-in-law is working on dinner and I am in my bedroom/office writing away. My daughter is clearly bored as she comes over to my bedroom/office and places her pink snake on the bedroom floor. Now, I am petrified of snakes. I don’t know why, but I have this terrible phobia of them. So, even the darn toy being pink and “cute” it still creeps me out. So I freak out and start to yell for her to get her rotten toy out of the bedroom floor. I have to beg her please to remove it. She throws a plushy toy at me, laughs and then removes that nightmare of the toy off the floor. Oh my God, just writing the word, snake, gives me the creeps! The little one is now being entertained by Grandma and has decided to not be a “jokester,” as she calls herself, and lets me be write without throwing the toy snake at me. Let me tell you the story of how we got such toy. It’s a quick one, I promise. We are at Chuck E. Cheese’s and she is playing games with daddy. Daddy and daughter win a lot of tickets. They go to the ticket station to pick out a toy and my little darling saw a pink toy and thought it would be the perfect one. So daddy and daughter come back to the table where Grandma and I are sitting waiting for them. She decides to sit to me, how sweet right?! Then unzips her hoodie and there it is, right on her chest, a pink cobra with its twisted tongue sticking out. I don’t know how I didn’t scream like crazy or fainted. It must have been a brave day of mine. Anyway, I started yelling at my husband, asking him why in the world he would pick something like that for her. As he and my mother-in-law are rolling on the floor laughing at me, he tells me that it was all her idea. She wanted to prank mommy! If it wasn’t me, I’d also think that its pretty funny. But since its me, I rolled my eyes and had to pretend that it didn’t bother me so much. Oh, but it bothers me lol. Now we have a rotten cobra in the house that spooks me every time I see it. Oh also, there are mini cobras that she got from another location Safary Adventures, I think, that she likes to place in random locations for me to find. At one time she left the little cobra on top of my bed…It took me about an hour to get the courage to get it out of the bed and into her toy basket. My little jokester! Gotta love her. And the jokes keep coming tonight! I was wearing my contacts today to do the yard work. I don’t wear them often, since every time I wear them, I get some sort of allergic reaction. It’s wired, because it’s always on my left eye. Anyways, when I was out pulling weeds and weed wacking my left eye kept on getting blurry and tearing up, but I kept on pushing to get the job finished. After my shower, my husband had just gotten home and asked why was my eye so swollen and all red. I didn’t realize how bad it was. So I took off my contacts and my nice husband helped me to put medicine in the eyeball and got some gauze and medical tape over my eye. And then, what else but an eyepatch to keep it all in place. I looked really attractive with that eye patch on. With one eye patched and the other without my glasses my vision was crazy blurry and I was walking a little side-wards. Not drunk sidewards, but vertigo-ish sideways. At this time, my daughter wasn’t done with me! Oh no, now she put the rotten pink cobra on the bed. I asked her politely to please remove it. We had dinner and then I went back to the bedroom to collect my water bottle and the thing was gone. Yay, I thought, she did as she was asked. So I called her over and told her “thank you very much my love for removing the cobra from mommy’s bed.” And I reinforced to her of how scared I am of that kind of animal. She said, “but mommy, I want to prank you. It’s a lot of fun.” I told her that she sure did prank me and it was funny and all but now it was all over and we can go about our day. So she says “ok mommy” and starts to giggle. Uh oh, giggling is not a good sign! What are you giggling about, I thought. Then I ask her if she can go on top of the bed and give me the decorative pillows. At that one she complied, she loves to mess up my bed. So she threw the pillow around and removed all from the bed. Then I asked her to pick up my sleeping pillows and what do you know, the rotten cobra was underneath my SLEEPING PILLOWS! Right on top of my PJ’s. Now I’m angry. I know its only a toy but darn it, enough is enough. So I yell for her to get it out of there. Then I see my husband in the kitchen and I smack his bottom. I knew it was him that put her up to that. I know how she pranks, and the pranks are always right where I can see them. He, on the other hand is a sneaky brat and is the one who hides things for me to find and scare the bejesus out of me. So picture me, with a pirate eyepatch yelling at everyone because of a rubber snake. What a scene lol.
It’s Thursday and my husband woke me up early like I asked him to. I then help him with his footwear and wave goodbye and for him to have a nice day at work. Which he grumbles back, yeah ok! He never has nice days at work. They are always tough long, hot days, usually filled with yelling. It must be very stressful. So then instead of going to the treadmill like I had told myself. I get on my laptop, and then I do a bad thing…I check my work email. I have just under 400 email messages that I need to look through. So I looked through them all. I see that I have plenty of word to do on Monday when I am back at the “office.” Now, I am going to try and convince myself to get to the treadmill. So I was able to convince myself to go. I only walked, but I walked uphill, for a little more than an hour. And watched a couple of episodes of How to Get Away with Murder on Netflix. In the afternoon, I took some time off, really off. I sat outside on a chair and put my feet up on another chair and lounged for about an hour or so catching some much needed vitamin D.
It’s Friday the 3rd of July and everyone is home today. The office is closed, there is no school and my husband is also home today. He made us a loaf of bread and coffee. By the time I woke up, the bread was ready to eat and the coffee was ready to drink. Yay, for the hubby. I had myself a cup of coffee and a warm slice of bread with butter. We talked a little bit then when on our separate ways. He went to the couch to watch The Flash on Netflix and I went to the basement and got on the treadmill. I wanted to watch my show as I ran, but since we only have one account on Netflix. I had to figure something else out. So I remember that I have Amazon Prime now. So I looked into that and watched The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel instead. So on the treadmill I ran and ran until I couldn’t run anymore. Basically my regular 25 minutes and then walked the rest of the time. After a while we had lunch. Everyone for themselves, there are plenty of leftovers and we all took whatever we pleased. Myself, I had a sandwich with nutella and banana along with a cup of milk. I used to have this as a snack when I was a kid. I haven’t had it for a long time and I reminisced a little bit during lunch. In the evening we go pokemoning. It was pouring outside and we played away until 10PM. If that is not determination, I don’t know what is. The game goes up to level 40 and I am almost there. In the car we sing to Sunday Best by Surfaces. This song has become our favorites to sing together in the car, “Feeling good, like I should.”
Today is our 11 year anniversary. We have been together since 2002 and it has been bliss ever since. Sure, we’ve had our ups and downs. But which couple hasn’t? We met through mutual friends and at first I thought he didn’t like me. I think that feeling was mutual at the time. Little did we know. We eventually knew we liked each other and were meant to be. After all, our birthdays are one day apart. And they are both right after Christmas and we both understood that all of our family and friends would give us one gift for both occasions. We both understand the feeling. Also, everyone is tired from their Christmas activities and don’t really want to come out and hang out for our birthdays. Except for our mom’s. They are always up for it 🙂 Anyway, we understood each other and become instant friends. We then grew to love each other and eventually marry.
Our wedding day was an exceptional day filled with love. Our family and friends were all part of it and we loved the hell out of it. Our family was there every step of the way. Except for my parents, they weren’t too fond of me leaving the nest. But what can you do…when you find love, you have to go for it.
We went to the park and took lots of pictures. Some of our family and friends came along too.
Our reception was right on the docs at Sunset Horbour and it was a beautiful afternoon with a beautiful sunset. A fantastic reception, lots of fun and drinks and delicious food too.
I hope everyone who came had a good time. And had as much fun as we did.
It’s Saturday, June 27, 2020. It is our 11 year anniversary! We have been together since 2002 and got married in 2009. It has been a crazy roller-coaster of a ride. But I wouldn’t have it any other way.
We have been though many ups and downs. Our ups were during our years of courtship and engagement. Those times we were so happy that we couldn’t stand it. The downs were after I had our child and got really sick. I was in the hospital with upper respiratory distress syndrome. It was a fancy way of saying, I have no idea what happened to you, but now your lungs have collapsed, are filled with liquid and we need to bring you back to health. I was intubated for three months and in an induce coma for about a month. Of course, I don’t remember any of this as I was out like a light. My husband, my family and friends had to tell me the tales of this horrible time. While I was out for the count, I got to miss all this time with my newborn, and that made me very sad. She was born before her time and also had to be in the hospital inside a tube for her lungs to grow strong. By the time I got better and left the hospital, I had to go into rehab as my limbs gave up on me and I had to relearn how to walk. I had no strength left on my legs and hips that I needed a walker to get around. Not to mention, an oxygen tank. I won’t even tell you what I had to go through to figure out how to use the bathroom all over again. It really sucked! All the while, I was not able to be around my baby because what I had was initially considered to have pneumonia. And since she was born so small, the doctors, and my husband, wanted to make sure that she did not catch any of this herself. Once I got home, I continued to have to gather my strength back. I didn’t even have enough strength to hold my child. I would have to sit down on the couch and have my mother-in-law give me my baby to hold. Thank goodness she was here at the time that she was. Both my husband and I were under so much stress that we probably would have placed that baby under a lot of stress as well. At that time everyone was always surrounding me to make sure I was able to hold her and ultimately not drop my baby. As you may imagine, this made me very angry. Not at those surrounding me, but just the fact that I basically had to be supervised around my very own baby. All the while, I had nurses and physical therapists coming to the house to help me along with my recovery. What I really should of had was a psychologist as at this point, I became very depressed. I felt like a terrible mom/person. Everything was just very wrong. I wanted to breast feed my child and I couldn’t because I had what they thought was pneumonia and I was very weak. I wanted to be home with my daughter and I couldn’t because I was in a very bad state with my health. I finally get home and I continue to not be able to be the mom that I’ve had imagined to be while my baby was growing inside me. It was a terrible time and my husband got the brunt of it. He tried to help me feel and get better, but my brain wouldn’t have it. It took a long time to get back into a good state. It took a lot of therapy, a lot of medicine and a lot of patience. I felt that all I needed was time. But the years passed and I continued to be in a bad state. We finally figured out how my brain was acting and reacting to my trauma. And, we got me on the right medication and it started to work. From my coma and my trauma, a lot of “bad” things that I had pushed to the bottom of my brain and heart came back up and I kept on ruminating on those things. This placed my marriage and my child in the back burner. I hated feeling like that, but I couldn’t help it, the terrible things were right in front of my brain constantly knocking and the brain keep on answering the door. I don’t know why, but I had a terrible phobia of snakes. I was never a big fan but after my trauma, just looking at a photo made me really scared. Also, my trauma of being molested, by someone close to the family, came up. My trauma of being inappropriately touched by an old man, who was a large part and very liked of our community, came up. I became all sorts of paranoid thinking someone was out to hurt me and I would cry at things for no reason. Plus, I was angry all the time. Hello depression! Needless to say, it was a very shitty time in my life. Everyone was trying their hardest to help, but I simply couldn’t shake it. All I kept saying is, I need time. And a long time it took. But now, I am in the path of recovery. And, I see how hard it was for everyone around me to simply be around me. So now on to the good times. My daughter is healthy, my family is healthy and I am still in the path to recovery, but I am also healthy. We have a wonderful home and a great marriage. My husband is my best friend and he tells me how it is and is always looking out for me and his family.
Now that I’ve spilled all of my deepest, darkest secrets to you, I will let you know what we did for our 11 year anniversary 🙂 We said screw the corona virus. Covid-19 has nothing on us as we are going to stay put and not be around others. I didn’t say we don’t respect it! We meanwhile, are having a shipment of groceries being delivered and are getting ready to clean everything up with our trusty wipes and bleach. Gloves and masks on, we will be. So this was our morning; clean, clean, clean and then a nice shower. It’s pouring outside, my plants are getting watered outside and inside we are doing crafts. My daughter wants to color, draw and use glue and glitter. The glue and glitter are a nightmare. It is everywhere. She has glue all over her hands and then…touches the glitter that is on the paper. Her little mind thinks; to get rid of this from my hands, I will wipe my hands on the table. So now there is sticky glitter all over the place. I’m trying to wipe is down and now I have glitter all over me. What a nightmare!! We are going to have glitter in the kitchen for another 5 years because who can get rid of this stuff?! After she was satisfied with her craft we both washed our hands and arms as they were all sparkly, and then she went to the couch to be with daddy. Meanwhile, I’ve got the vacuum out to suck up all that glitter. I then wipe the glue, glitter, marker and everything else that was left on the table with a clorox wipe. That wipe was filthy! All blue from the marker and filled with glitter. At the end of the day we go and play pokemonGo, from the car, far away from everyone. Something for us to do in the afternoon as the rain comes down. The rain makes the characters more powerful and boosts their power. Hooray for us.
It’s Sunday morning and the little deer that lost their mama are again in our yard eating leafy greens. We’ve left apples for them to eat, but they won’t touch them. I feel for them as they are alone. But at least there are two of them and they have each other.
Wow, 15 weeks already. Time is flying by. It is already summer and my company still wants us to work from home. This morning my husband woke me up at 5:30AM, well, because I asked him to. I want to get a run in before the morning rush. Actually, he work me up way much earlier than that, I thought it was 5:30 and then what felt like 20 minutes later, it was 5:30 again. What just happened? Last night, he must have been really tired because he was snoring up a storm. I couldn’t sleep at all and had to put a pillow over my ears. At one point he stopped his loud snoring and then all of a sudden, the birds started chirping, really loudly. What is up with the darn birds? Don’t you sleep? The sun isn’t even out yet. I am so confused this morning, I must have been up since 3 or 4 and am slightly all over the place. I helped my husband get dressed and make up his lunch cooler and then I get dressed and go to the basement and get onto my workout. I start off by walking for about 20 minutes then I start to run. A few more minutes of running this time. I have been building up my time on the treadmill. I am up to 22 minutes. I initially wanted to go a little longer, but today, I thought I was going to pee my pants. So at the 22 minute mark, I went back to walking. After you have a child and reach a certain age this type of thing just happens, you feel like you need to pee all the time. Thank goodness, no accidents today lol. While on the treadmill, I finished watching Good Girls on Netflix. Season 2 is over and I can’t wait until season 3. Actually, I have to check if it wasn’t cancelled. That would just be my luck, I find something I like and it gets cancelled. I checked, it wasn’t cancelled…yay! Next, I will be watching season 3 of How to Get Away With Murder on Netflix. I watched seasons 1 and 2 and got a little bored with it as it was becoming the same story over and over again. But since I haven’t watched it in a while, I’ve missed it and will be returning to it. It is a fast passed show and that is what I like to watch when I’m on the treadmill. Today I had the day off from work and all I did was study for my certification for Project Management Agile with Scrum. I re-wrote all of my notes down and this type of studying took all afternoon. Meanwhile, my little one was practicing her reading with Grandma. It was a quiet afternoon for us with lots of learning.
It’s Tuesday and I was awakened at 5AM to get my day started early. I helped my husband out with his footwear as he is still hurting from his sciatica. This morning, I was still feeling a little sleepy so I went back to bed. I only wanted to sleep for a little while longer, like 20 minutes. I have the alarm for 6AM and another one for 7:30AM. The 6 one is to make sure I am up, the 7:30 alarm is to make sure I am in the shower so I can get my workday started by 8AM. With all of those alarms, I am certain to get out of bed at any one of those times. Well whatta you know, my alarms did not go off. I woke up and noticed my phone’s battery died and I got up really fast from bed and looked at my laptop for the time. It was 8:45AM! Darn it, I wanted to get the day started early so I could go over all of the items that I have to take care of for work before 9. Now I have to scramble to see what I need to do and get my kid online on a conference call to speak with her teacher and other students, as well as get overdue items on the website that were due yesterday. Since I don’t have a backup yet for my work, I have to ensure all is done in my websites on a timely fashion. It’s barely 9AM and I’ve already gotten complaints about items not being on one of the websites. The site I work on takes a long time for systems to talk to one another, so it will take at least half an hour to get the item on the site…if all works well, of course. Because with my websites, you never know what can suddenly break and not work. Luckily all worked out well and I had everything viewable on the website. Thank goodness everything worked well within the systems. By 11AM, I have a ton of work completed and the teams are, hopefully, happy with the results. My little one has a lesson at noon and bad mommy, I logged on a little late as I was sending out an email to my team to let them know about a couple of enhancements to one of the many sites I work on. I am so exited about the enhancements that I overlooked the time. So, now it’s noon and time for my break. I have already done a lot and am ready for a break. During my break, I make the mistake of going outside. It is a hot day and a beautiful day for tanning lol. I pickup the garbage pail that is out on the street and bring it back in to it’s proper location and get back to the cool inside. My bedroom/office is still hot as we haven’t gotten a new air-conditioner. Thank goodness the other bedroom’s air-conditioner is working. That one is turned on and it cools off my bedroom/office. Forget about opening the windows, its hot out there and it will make the room hot and stuffy. I’ve already tried that and it failed miserably. As for work, today has been all about the hustle. Since I didn’t start my workday at 8AM like I originally planned, I have to hurry and get all of my work done and the keyboard is on fire with all of these emails flying out to people.
It’s Wednesday and I have reached my goal for the month on the treadmill. I have ran nonstop for a full 25 minutes. I am very happy with my results. Next month my goal is to run continuously for 30 minutes. After that, I am going to up my pace from 3.0 to 3.2 or so. We will see how I can handle going at a faster pace for the same duration. My ultimate goal is to run at a pace of 4.0 for a full 30 minutes. By 9:30AM I have a lot accomplished for work. I have worked on all my emails and wrote my feel goods on my journal. Things such as “Today is the best version of me. ” ” I am strong.” “I have an exceptional memory.” Actually, the truth is, my memory is terrible. But, if I keep telling myself that it is great, maybe I will start to believe it and it will get better. The experts say so, and I believe them. I have an entire journal page filled with these positive vibes that I put out there for myself. I think, the more positivity I put out there the better for me and for those around me. Watching the news an learn that we are on to phase 3 of re-openings in NY state. Beauty and nail salons are now open. As for us, we are still staying indoors and practicing social distancing. The risk is too great for us and we are staying well away from all of that, for now. Yes, we are being extra precaution. But we feel that it is necessary to stay healthy. I notice that I do something that I think is funny. Every time, after I wash my hands in the bathroom, I clean my hands on the hand towel and then I pull the curtains and look out the window. Not sure what I’m looking for. Maybe to see the wildlife; deer or woodchuck Norris or racoons. It’s funny, I just realized it now, that I do that. I don’t look out the window in the bedroom, kitchen or living room but the bathroom…that, I always look out of. Am I weird? As for woodchuck Norris, if you’ve read my other blogs you’ll know that he is a woodchuck or groundhog, we are not sure, who lives underneath our shed. We named him and he is now our free-range pet. We don’t feed him, but there are plenty of plants in the yard for our little friend to eat. Clearly he has plenty to eat as he is a chubby little guy. Also, we have little baby deer every year in our yard. This year we have twins who look like they are all by themselves. I don’t see a mama with them. They are usually alone in the yard. I will do my best to take a snapshot of these cuties when they come back to the yard. Hopefully, I don’t scare them away.
It’s now Thursday and today is my little ones last day of virtual school. Today was her last conference call with her teachers and friends and she is on her way into first grade. Such a big girl! She is the apple of my eye. This morning, I heard a little cry outside. Not sure what it was, maybe a new type of bird or some sort of animal crying. It turns out, it was the little deer. Today, it was alone. They’ve been coming in a pair. But not today. It let me get little close as it was crying….for food, its mama, its sibling…not sure. As I got closer, it got scared and ran away. But I was able to get out my camera and take a snapshot before it did so. Isn’t it so cute?! Little Bambi with its spots. I can’t help but smile when I see these precious creatures.
As for work, I am training someone on how to work on one of the many sites I work on. This person has worked on many different sites before and I am confident she will get it on the first go around of training. As a result, the training was half and half. My backup got most of it but it took some time to get all of it. It’s a process with many steps, a lot of those steps are quite redundant and do not make much scense. More training tomorrow. It’s 11:30PM I woke up suddenly remembering that the car payment is due…today. Crap, I forgot to do this during the day. So I ran out of bed, got online and payed the darn thing. Then, of course, I had a hard time falling back asleep. I logged on to Instagram and started to look at pretty pictures of houses, home decorations, hair styles, plants and all other things that make me happy. No politics, no opinions, just pretty photos.
It’s Friday morning and I’m helping my husband out with his footwear. He is still hurting from work and I gotta help him with his socks and shoes. After that, I had some bread for breakfast. It’s banana bread, so technically bread, am I right?! It is delicious. It was made by my mother-in-law yesterday and it was on the counter calling my name. I heard it loud and clear and had a slice. After that, I got my gym clothes on and got on the treadmill. Today I did 5 more minutes than I have been doing for the last, I don’t know, 6 months or even more. I’ve been running for 20 minutes for a long time and now I am up to 25. Doesn’t sound like its a lot of time added, but trust me when I say, after the 22 minute mark I am struggling and pushing hard to get to those 25 minutes. Then I do a 10 minute cool down. After that, I come back upstairs and do sit-ups on the living room floor. I have been working on my abs so I won’t have an apple shape. I look like I have a beer belly, without having any beer. But who am I kidding, having the type of breakfast that I had today, I’ll never get rid of this gut lol. I don’t think I burned off the slice of “bread” calories during today’s running, much less getting rid of the spare tire that I have around my waist.
Me, after my workout!
Still I keep pushing and get all of my exercise done for the day. Then it’s time to shower and get to work by 8AM. I have a lot to do and only 7 hours to do it; 8 if I don’t take my lunch break. Today I am doing some more training as I will be out all of next week from the office. I really hope that I won’t be called to log in and help. I’m hoping that I have a nice week off at home in quarantine.
While I work I am listening to Jay Shetty. He is explaining “How to Find your Purpose and Build a Life, Not a Resume” on youtube being interviewed by Lewis Howes. He is also talking about his book “Think Like a Monk.” He is such a powerful force of positivity that it gets me pumped up for life. “Don’t think that you are at the peak of where you’re supposed to be.” Is something that speaks to me. It’s now 7PM and I am still working. I have a large amount of products launching on one of my sites and need to get it taken care of so I am doing that. Also, our evaluations are due for work and I need to concentrate and take care of that too. My old boss used to take care of this for me in the past. My new boss wants me to do this myself and she will review. This is a very nice gesture, that I get to take control over what is written on my evaluation, I’m just used to not having to do it myself. So I get to work and get it all done within an hour. After work, I get on the couch and watch Below Deck: Mediterranean and fall asleep to it. It’s been a long day and all I can do is relax.
This Saturday morning my little one and I are doing school work. Today, she’s got the attention span of a bunny. We get to do one small thing then she is off to doing something else. We have to do two more lessons and she is not having it. Then I just start playing the video that she needs to see anyway. She hears it and now she is interested and so we do our lesson. I’ve noticed she’s always practically on top of me. Always wanting to sit on my lap. Is this normal for little kids. Do they not understand personal space? Not or mommy! lol We take care of a bunch of school work that we did not get to do during the week as I am working and can not take care of my job and schoolwork at the same time. But Grandma helps her with reading, writing and arithmetic! Today, we are tackling a whole bunch of home from work online that she should have been doing at school. I feel really horrible for all of the kids who don’t have their friends around them during this time of the pandemic. I see my own little one, she misses her friends and being around other kids and really misses school. Having a routine and being around her peers. We then are pokemoning from home. There are little pokemon characters to catch and we are doing that until late afternoon. Dinner was all of the good left overs that are still in the fridge from the left from the week.
On Sunday morning, we looked outside and saw two little deer in the front yard. We must have scared one of them off as the poor thing ran into the fence. Before they ran off however, these little cute devils were feasting on my flowers. So much for having a pretty yard. Today is Fathers day and we do not have much planed for the day. We are still in quarantine and are not planning on going anywhere. We may go pokemoning at the end of the day. I’m not sure what the day will bring but hopefully it will be a good one. In the morning my little love and I do some more homework for school. The school year is almost over and we need to get all of our assignments done prior to the end of the year. We will need to continue doing assignments, especially reading an writing throughout the summer.
Reflecting on father’s day, my husband is the best daddy to his daughter. He will do anything to put a smile on her face. Even when he has bad days at work, he is always happy to see her. Daddy is always talking about “carinho” meaning that he needs some love from our little love.
While he is relaxing and watching The Flash on Netflix, I am taking care of the mail and the little one is coloring on the living room floor right by daddy’s feet. She really wants to be next to daddy all day long. It is a relaxing afternoon and I’m loving it. My love love dove then wanted to go outside for a little while in the afternoon. It started getting cooler and she wanted to run around a for a little bit. At that time we saw the little deer again. Of course, eating my plants. They are truly really cute with their little spots and their little voices. We were able to get a close to them. My daughter wanted to pet them and I told her it was not a good idea because as cute as they are, they carry ticks. Plus, just because they were by themselves doesn’t mean their mama isn’t nearby. However, they seem to be all by themselves. We were near them for a few minutes and did not see an adult. I hope their mama isn’t the one that was run over the other day on my road. Anyway, they found a nice place where they can find some nice food and they kept on coming back to feast at our house.
In the evening, we play pokemonGo and watch a beautiful sunset. While we were pokemoning, the song Me Too by Meghan Trainer was playing. My baby girl loved it! She loved it so much that we had to play it and replay it, over and over again. We then listened to some hip hop music and then back to Meghan Trainer. We have satellite radio and can replay songs. It’s a nice feature to have when you have a little one who wants to listen to the same song over and over and over and over again.
At nigh, we had a dance party. We listed to Me Too all over again and me and my little one were dancing in the living room. She even got out her microphone with “Frozen” characters and was singing and dancing. We must have listed to that same song at least five times before we both got tired and had a midnight snack with some milk. My little one has a piece of chocolate and I watched as I am dieting. All the while my husband is making bread for tomorrows breakfast and lunch for all of us to enjoy. Such a good hubby, even on fathers day!
I hope everyone had a happy fathers day. I hope that you had a dad and not just a father. I see how my husband is with his child and I’m sure she will cherish the days for all of her life. I hope it is the same case for you. As for me, we had bit of a hard childhood. My dad did the best he could with what he had. He was working overseas for most of my childhood and I only got to see him once or twice per year. The time I’ve spent with him was pretty good but he was always working trying to make money for us five to be able to eat and live. We’ve had to live by the generosity of others for a long time. But we pulled through and did not have the need for offerings of others. Today we are better than we did when I was a child. And that is a good thing. I thing this is where I get my work ethic from. Onward and upward.
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