It’s Monday and it is Memorial Day here in the States and I have off from work. However, I still wake up early. Way too early. It is four in the morning and I wake up out of the blue. I fluff my pillow and do my best to get some more shut eye. I am able to sleep for another hour or so and then I get up to use the bathroom. I hear the dogs collar jiggling and hear the slightest sound of people talking, so the tv must be on. I walk over to the living room and my husband and the dog are on the couch together. I pet then both good morning and head on over to the kitchen to make my morning coffee. It’s still cold this morning and it continues to rain. But the weatherman said that the day will clear up and it will be sunny this afternoon. I have much to do in the yard and need the day to get to it. I have lock of weedwacking to do and spaying for weeds and ticks and other critters. However, it is early and it’s still raining this morning so I get my coffee going and then get to my writing. I write and edit then write some more and edit. I then look at my work emails and answer to a few of them. One of them is for a response to getting a refresher laptop. I’ve had mine for a few years and it’s the lease must be up because I now need to get a new one. Good thing too. The one that I currently have doesn’t connect to wifi in the house. From my understanding, it has something to do with the windows 10 upgrade that messed a bunch of things up and the wifi does not work on the laptop. I have to have a direct wire plugged onto the laptop from the router. Right from the closet into the bedroom/office. Hopefully with a new laptop I’ll be able to use the wifi at home and not be stuck plugged into a wire in one location of the house. Maybe I can even work outside in the summer. Who knows, there are lots of possibilities. That reminds me, I must add clean the back patio to my to do list. The small table and chairs we have out there are filthy. Filled with pollen and plainly dirty from the wear and tear of the winter and spring.
It’s Tuesday and I get up and get to the treadmill. As I’m walking my tummy starts rumbling. I’m hungry this morning. After my three miles, I get my breakfast going. Today I am having cinnamon rolls for breakfast. It’s more of a dessert, but I really want some. So I heat some up and eat them really fast. There goes all of my hard work right to my hips lol actually for me, it goes right to my belly. For someone who doesn’t drink beer, I have a bit of a beer belly that I just can’t get rid of. Anyway, my day was going just fine and then I hit a wall. I got really tired and was contemplating calling in sick, but it was already nine in the morning and I have a nine o’clock meeting. I don’t want to waste the day, so I log in get onto the meeting. After the meeting, I have a little bit of time between my next meeting, so I lay down on the bed for a few minutes. I’m suddenly really cold and get myself a zip up hoodie. After a little while I log back on and get some work done. One of my meetings was very quick, so I took the time after we all hung up to make appointments for my mom. All of the doctors are so busy that the next appointments are for next month and all during office hours, so not good. I set them up anyway. Hopefully, I can get work something out with my brother and split the visits to the doctors. This puts me in a bad mood. Don’t know why, but I start getting angry. I’m getting overwhelmed with making appointments and other things that I’ve got running in my head. During my lunch hour I get to the church and get some lunches for my parents. They will eventually have them delivered to their home, but meanwhile, I am picking up the meals for them for the week. While there, I take care of dishes and clean up a bit after them. I also talked to the neighbor. She’s really nice and is willing to help out any way she can. I am glad I was able to talk to her for a little bit. She told me that what she does during her lunch hour is take care of yard work lol. I told her; same! I get to do yard work or drive over to my folks home to bring them things. Even though I had a nice conversation with her, I continue to be in a bad mood and everything irritates me. So I leave my parent’s house before I get mad at them about something. I get back home and I miss one of my meetings. Oh well, if there is anything that needs to be completed, I’m sure they will let me know. My mood decides to get better but I continue to feel tired, so I lay down again and close my eyes for a few minutes. I know I will be online until late tonight, so I feel ok taking some time to destress. Shortly after, my husband gets home from work and then we have dinner. After dinner, I get back online and work some more. It is the beginning of the month and there are always new things to post onto the website I work on.
It’s Wednesday and I wake up cranky and in pain. All of my muscles are achy. Especially my arms and lower back. It’s probably form doing a bunch of work over the holiday weekend. Or maybe I’m coming down with something. This morning, I hit the snooze alarm a slew of times. I would really like the day off and sleep all day, but I have a lot to do at work so I get up and start my day. I’m also feeling a little down mental healthy wise. I was feeling really bad yesterday and today is no different. I take some medicine but it is taking it’s time to take effect. I’m looking through social media to see if something sparks my happy thoughts. I find a lot of happy things like prom photos, birthdays, gatherings of friends and family and all of those put a smile on my face. But my heart feels dark. I probably need some time off from work and my daily routine. Something different that will bring me some spark and meaning in life. As for my new job endeavors, I’ve gotten a call back from one of the marketing jobs that I applied for. They gave me an offer and I countered it. Unfortunately, they did not go for my counter offer. That’s too bad. I would have loved to be making more that the original offer they provided. I’ve also offered to help out my current team on anything they need as I transition over to the new job. But the new boss is not into that kind of situation. The new boss would like a clean break. So no more IT for me. I will be a full blown marketing specialist. This however, is not going to start any time soon. The negotiations behind the scenes took a while and apparently what I am currently doing with the websites is very special as none knows how it’s done. Only I have all of the knowledge. My boss has had me create documentation on how to do my job and I’ve done a lot of documents and updated a lot of documentation that was old and needed new screenshots. I am exited and nervous for my new endeavors. I love to learn new things but sometimes it takes me a while to get what I need to do. I’m nervous about that portion. I want to ensure that I am a great employee not just mediocre. So I will need to plan a few days to relax prior to starting my new position. I hope that my feeling like garbage goes away soon and that I will be back to a somewhat normal self soon. This feeling like garbage comes and goes as my mental health is unstable. I take medicine for it to be stable but at times it gets to be a bit out of control. In the morning I get a bunch of work done. Then for my lunch hour I go out to my parent’s doctors office, dropped off all of their paperwork and set up an appointment for them. The appointment is two months from now. I was hoping to have it sometime this month so I could take them both there. But they are so busy that it won’t be possible. After the doctor, I passed by the carwash and got all of the pollen and dirt off the car. Now the car is nice and clean at least on the outside. The inside could also use a cleaning, but I don’t want anyone inside my car. I will take care of it on the weekend. I then get home and get a quick shower in. Then back to work as I have a meeting right at one in the afternoon. In the late afternoon I have a meeting with one of my mentors and he congratulates me on my transition. Meanwhile, he asks me what’s next for me. And I told him that I’d like to be in the managerial track for my company. I tell him that I think I would do well working in projects with a team. If there is such an opportunity, I’d love to jump on it and give it a whirl. I haven’t managed people in a long time, but I think I would be a good manager. I don’t micromanage, I let people do what they are best at and let them take care of what they need to take care of. In the evening I am beat. I have been really mentally drained all day long and am still felling like I’m dragging along. I’ve jotted down all of the things that I must do all week long and then some and highlighting the ones that have been completed. The highlighting gives me a sense of completion. It’s a mental thing. I’ve even jotted down to pick out an outfit for tomorrow as I will be going into the office for the first time since last year. I need an updated laptop and that is the only reason why I’m going in. The office is to officially open in the middle of July and I am not looking forward to it. I like working from home. It is comfortable and I get to wear what I please. Also, I get to wake up at whatever time I need and get to do my exercises in the morning hours if I’d like. This new routine will be different as we are to only go into the office a few times per week to start. Hopefully, the company has realized that us employees working from home get a lot done. At times, more that if we would actually have been in the office. A lot of us start working way before nine in the morning and stay on way passes five in the afternoon. As for me, at times, I wouldn’t even break for lunch. Especially if there was a lot of work that needed to get done. Tonight, I will go to bed early and get plenty of shut eye so I may get to work on time or even better, early enough to be there before the nine o’clock start.
It’s Thursday and I am up at five in the morning. Today I am going into the office and I can’t recall if I used to leave the house at six or seven in the morning. So I opt for six thirty. Luckily there wasn’t much traffic wise. It did start to rain so we all slowed down on the highway. I got to the office parking lot at five to seven. So I am very early. I decided that today I would put some makeup on. I have a small bag of tricks in the car and put on some makeup cream and eye shadow and eyeliner. I also put on some coverup and mascara. It’s still early but I decide that it’s time to get into the office. I had to walk in through one of the many front doors and get my temperature checked by security. I then take the elevator up to my floor and notice there are arrows everywhere for people to walk that direction. In order for me to use the bathroom, I have to go all the way around the other cubicles. There is none near me today so it is really quiet. I am cleaning up a lot of stuff from my desk. All of the paperwork from last year. I still have a 2020 agenda that was fully stopped in March. I also have a bunch of paperwork that I no longer need so I am putting a pile of papers together in order to toss them out in the recycling box. I then get to work as there is a lot to do today. Right at nine I have a meeting so I stop what I’m doing and take my mask off. It is making my eyeglasses all foggy and besides, there is none here who could breath on me. As I take my many trips to the bathroom, I put my mask on and take tissues with me in order to open doors. I also use a bunch of sanitizer. My hands are going to be all dried out by the time I get home tonight. During my lunch hour, my laptop was taken to get a refresh. The lease is up on my old one and the team is transferring all of my files to a new one. At this time I get out and get some much needed fresh air. I wanted to go out to the store and pick up tracks for my kitchen. But the location is over thirty minutes away and then another thirty minutes back. This would take longer thank an hour and I don’t want to mess with the corporate gods where they will see that I was out to lunch longer than the allotted hour. I look around and there is none, there are a few cars in the parking lot. Nice cars too. So all of the management and higher ups must be at the office. Not that many people drive expensive cars like that unless they are making a nice salary. I pass by the lunchroom and there is only one lonely person sitting in one of the back tables. I only have an hour for lunch, so after an hour I get back in and the laptop isn’t ready so I start to do some cleanup of my desk. Tossing out old paperwork and throwing out things that were cluttering up my drawers. I had protein bars that are so old they needed tossing. Then a whole bunch of teas that may of may not be flavorful any longer. Those I placed in a bag and will be taking them home to try. I will need to get a whole new set of teas when I get back into the office in the middle of summer. So I waited and waited for my laptop to arrive. It eventually came back at a quarter to five. I so wanted to get out of there that I mainly agreed to everything the IT guy said. But this took a while as I want to ensure all of my files are available to me. So I took a quick glance and it all seems good. My email is available, my files are available. All good. I got a new docking station as well and I am very happy about this as the old one was on the fritz. After the IT guy left, I packed up really quickly and made my way out of the office. That’s when I saw a couple of people by the door. Look at that, I’m not the only one here. I don’t know who they are so I don’t say anything but smile under my mask. I get in the car and drive home. The drive wasn’t too bad. There were a few pockets here and there of slowdowns but overall it didn’t take me the usual two hours to get home. Only an hour and fifteen minutes. When I got home I went straight to the laundry room and placed all of my clothes in the hamper, including my shoes. You never know what could have been brought from that place. I then go ahead and take a nice hot shower. Then get some dinner with the family. I missed being home today. I get to see my daughter throughout the day and see how she is doing. I also get to uses the bathroom as many times as needed. At the office today, I didn’t drink as much water as I usually do because I didn’t want to be going to the bathroom at every hour of the day. I think I was the only one on that floor who used that bathroom but you never know who else could be utilizing the toilet and have something that I could catch. At home I drank a bunch of water and ginger ale for dinner. We then sat on the couch and the tv was on, but I wasn’t watching. Shortly after, I got up and went to bed. Tomorrow is another fun filled day of work and I want to ensure I get all of the work that I missed this afternoon completed so I won’t have any issues with my current boss.
It’s Friday and I can’t sleep. I wake up at midnight and can’t seem to be able to get myself to fall asleep. So I turn on my phone and look through instagram. Looking at pretty photos is helpful to get my mind out of other thoughts. I eventually fall back asleep but then wake up again at two. There I go again with looking at instagram. And they cycle continues, of falling back asleep and then waking up again. This time I woke up at five. And I said, forget it, I’m getting up. My husband is still home and we chat for a bit while he is getting his things together. I get the coffee pot going and heat up a cinnamon roll for my breakfast. I then get to my bedroom/office and start to set up my new laptop. I need to get the wifi password, which I of course forgot. I finally figure out what it is and get online. I then notice that I don’t have microsoft teams on my laptop. I try to download it, but my single sign on credentials are not working. So at six in the morning I am calling the company’s helpdesk in order to help me with this. I have meetings that are through teams today and need the application on my laptop. I also need it to add all of my documentations for my transition from IT into marketing. I also notice that my excel document with a bunch of shortcuts is not available. This makes me mad. I need that shortcuts file. It has a lot of my passwords and links to pages that I need on a daily basis. I send an email to the IT guy who took care of my laptop refresh yesterday. Hopefully, he can email it to me so I can place it on my desktop. I should have sent it to myself via email or something so I’d have a backup. I really need that file. During the hours of lunch, I was in meetings. So I took my lunch later than I should have. Hopefully it won’t be an issue for the boss. So I went to my friends’ place of work and picked up a couple of items that we need for our kitchen. She designed our kitchen and I love it. However, some of the tracks are no longer working and I ordered what we need for the kitchen. I then raced back home because I thought I had a meeting in the middle of the afternoon. Turns out, no meeting. However, I have a product launching on Monday and I’ve only received content this afternoon to post. I generally request for content to be provided two weeks prior to launch so I have enough time to get everything completed correctly. This way, I am rushing through and hopefully I don’t make any mistakes. My husband gets home later than usual this evening and he wants to go out for a drive. I opt out as I am tired and quite frankly just don’t want to go out tonight. So I stay in and continue to do some work for the man so I can get ahead. But the the sites start to get wonky and I am receiving errors. At first, the developer is online and he helps out by giving me the advise to work on an incognito window, and that works for a while. But then I get the same errors and that is when I call it a night. Meanwhile I am listening to Dr. Caroline Leaf on youtube. She talks about mental health and goes over books with her guests. I am tuning in and out of these conversations but it’s something to listen to in the background so it’s not completely quiet. I turned off the air conditioner as I was getting chilly and it was really quiet as the family went on that drive with my husband. They just need to get out of the house. I get it. I then make myself some tea and have cookies with my tea. All of a sudden I feel really sleepy. So I have the podcast on and lay down on the freshly made bed, I figured for only a little while. Before I knew it, it was three hours later. So I roll out of bed, put on my pjs, do my evening toiletries and get to bed. Falling asleep was easy tonight as I was already tired from the day. I was up early and worked and worked all day long.
It’s Saturday and it is two in the morning and I can’t sleep anymore. I’ve been awake for a little while and then I start to get ideas in my head of what I need to do this weekend and what I need to get done for next weekend. I take out my phone and start sending lists out to myself. Things such as getting a medicine list for both my parents as I will need them for doctors visits next month. Follow up on doctors appointments for everyone. Clean up the closet at my parents home and donate clothing that we no longer need. Place a few old pieces of furniture for sale as we no longer need them. And so on and so on. Today I will be going over to my parents’ house as there is a team of people who will be taking care of the front yard and I am planning on helping out. I will need to take my rubber boots and gloves to do some of the hard labor. I’m also planning on taking iced tea mix, a pitcher and some cups for them so I can be a great host. I’ll see how the weather is and I may just need to get to the store and get some bottled water and sodas. Maybe even some pizza for lunch for them. We will see how long they will be there and how many people will actually be helping out. I am also planning on doing laundry and see if there is anything that needs cleaning inside the house. We had a cleaning person go to the house last week. Hopefully, it continues to be clean. I may need to sweep or pass the vacuum in the rooms but overall it should be good to go. Then I will need to clean out that fridge. It is a bit on the dirty side and I don’t think the cleaning lady took care of the fridge. Also, the cabinets need a nice cleaning. I’ll have to check and see if those were take care of. Lots and lots to do. That’s will only be half my day. On the other half I have the backyard at my house to get cleaned up. It is filled with pollen and droppings from the trees. There are also little sticks and other things that the dog keeps on chewing on. It needs a nice cleaning and the weeds need to be sprayed. I also want to organize the basement a bit. There are toys and other things all over the place and those need to be organized and maybe placed in boxes or some other storage bins. There is also a bunch of things that could probably be returned to the store that we no longer use. My husband used to make bread everyday during the pandemic but that was short lived. So now we have a bunch of flour stored that we won’t be utilizing for a long time. Yes it’s good for making cakes and pies and other items, but we’re not going to be making these any time soon. So these items are simply taking up space in the pantry. At my parent’s house I clean out the basement and there are a lot of things that can go. There is a box filled with clothes that will never fit him so I place them in bags and will be placing then in a donation box near my house. Its for the St. Vincent de Paul Society. Hopefully they will go to a good home. I’ve also placed a bunch of things for sale on facebook. If you, my friend, see anything that you like, please let me know and I will give the item to you. There are so many things just stored away that we don’t use. They could go to a good home. I’ve took a quick peak in the garage and oh my lord there are so so many things in there. There are valuable things that could be used or sold but they are all on top of each other and it is all so disorganized. I can’t make heads or tails of it. Also, there are multiples of things because my mechanic father wants to use parts from one to the other and fix them. The problem is that whenever I throw out things, they tend to grow legs and come back inside the house. For example, I placed an old mop in the garbage on Saturday as Monday is garbage pick up day. Next Saturday that I visited that old mop was back in the kitchen. I don’t know what the obsession is with keeping things that are old and broken. And this isn’t the first time. Almost every time I toss out something that seems that it could still have a tiny bit of a life, it grows legs and comes back. The worst part is that it comes back into the kitchen and it is placed on a random place like the kitchen counter. They have the energy to go garbage picking, but not the energy to clean the item and put it away. So, what I usually do is, I take the piece, place it in my trusty Honda Civic and bring it to my own house and place the item in my garbage pail. It’s such a challenging process to get something done. At my own home I was able to spray the house for ants. We have large carpenter ants that are coming inside the house. Don’t know where they are coming from, so I spray around the entire house a couple of times. I then am working on taking bleach to the playground so I can spray the weeds. I transfer the bleach from one container to another that has a sprayer. Then notice the sprayer is leaking all over the place. The rotten thing is leaking from the bottom. I pick it up to inspect it and I get bleach my the pantleg of my jeans. Darn it, I then try to make the same type of design on the other pantleg so it’ll look even. But instead it looks like a big blob of bleach. We’ll see when it comes out of the wash what kind of ugly design my jeans will have. I quickly then place the bleach back into it’s original container and try to figure out how I’m going to spray the playground so there won’t be any weeds and my little one can play outside. I will need to find another type of spray bottle of some sort in order to do that. At this point the family is tired of being at home and they opt to go out for a drive. I stay home as I still have a bunch to do around the house. The patio needs to be swept and I would like to get that done today. So I grab the broom that we have and start to sweep. The handle kept on coming out of the brush and it was becoming very annoying. Then, just as my luck would have it the brush broke in half. I worked it so hard that it gave up on me. So I go inside and get out the small broom that we have and continued with my sweeping. Then I noticed that in my husband’s truck there was a large broom that they use at their jobs. I sneakily took the broom and continued my work. This is much better, the broom is bigger and its industrial strength. It took me no time to sweep out all of the sticks and other debris from the patio. I of course had to move all of the toys around and the small table and chairs that we have in order to get everything out of the patio. After that I placed everything back and then started to pluck all of the little weeds that are growing around the patio. I pulled them all by hand. This was probably a bad idea, my fingers will be feeling it tomorrow. Once that was completed, I took out the weed killer and went to the front yard and started to spray the weeds that are on the mulched area of the property. Hopefully, these will be eliminated so I won’t have to pluck them by hand. After doing all of this, I am satisfied with my work for today. I go inside and am ready for a bath. I filled up the tub and soaked for a little while so I could relax from the day’s hard work. I gave myself a simple pedicure and manicure while soaking in the bath and my toes and hands are ready to be polished so they look pretty when I get back to work on Monday. Yes I will still be working from home, but it is nice to be pampered. I then turn on the water to take a shower and wash my hair and use a wonderful body wash called dark kiss. It’s from Bath & Body Works and it’s scent is just wonderful. After I’m all nice and clean I go to the fridge and see what I have as leftover so I can have some dinner. I have leftover rice and sausage. As I am eating I am listening to the book, The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts by Gary Chapman. I am thinking about what I have to do tomorrow, so I’m not really paying attention to the audiobook. I will have to rewind and listen to it again tomorrow. After dinner I am looking around the house as I feel like I am forgetting to do something. So I get to the basement and look around. I get some items that are needed like paper towels, sugar, napkins and a few other items. I bring them all up to the main floor and place them all away. At this point it is nine thirty and I should get ready for bed. Tomorrow is another fun filled physical work day and I need my beauty rest.
It’s Sunday and I am awake at one in the morning, again. I keep on waking up at random hours of the early morning and then have trouble getting back to sleep. I get my phone and look at pretty pictures on Pinterest. I am looking to get my hair cut in a few months and am looking for inspiration. I want to donate my hair to Wigs for Kids so a kid with cancer or some other terrible disease can have a beautiful hair piece. From my understanding, these wigs are provided to the kids at no charge. This is something that I have done in the past and it makes me feel happy that I will make a kid happy, even if its for only a little while. Anyway, I am looking for a short hair cut so that I can donate as much as possible of what I currently have. There is one hair cut that I’ve had my eye on for a while. It’s a little long at the top and shaved at the bottom on the neck. I’m even thinking of coloring it a lighter color. We will see how the wind will take me at the time. Looking through these images gives me the good feels and I eventually fall back asleep. However, I wake up again at three. I look through my phone again this time on instagram. I see my friends and family members having all kinds of good things happening. Ball games, graduations and all sorts of other celebrations. How wonderful for them. I fall back asleep but it’s short lived, I’m tossing and turning until about six in the morning. At that time I am tired of trying to sleep, so I get up and make myself some coffee. Meanwhile, I am working on fixing all of the listings I have on the items that are for sale. Updating pricing and descriptions of the items as well as adding the location on the description. All the while thinking about what I must do today and what I need to do for the rest of the week at work. I would like to take a day off next week. But I’m thinking that I have a product launch and it is still the beginning of the month so there will be lots of new price lists and promotions to add to the site. Not sure if it is a good idea. In the afternoon I head over to my parent’s house. I have added items for sale on facebook and someone is coming to pick up a toy and then later someone it to come pick up the fish tank that my husband made a few years back. I am giving away the fish tank and everybody wants it, but no one is willing to come pick it up. The first person who wanted it flacked out, the next person was waiting on a truck that never came so good lord I gave up and came home. The darn piece is so heavy that we can’t take it out ourselves. It’s well maid but it needs a lot of TLC at this point. While I was waiting, I get to my old bedroom and notice there is yet another box of stuff. This one was filled with correspondences that are plain garbage. I don’t understand, the old people get so much correspondence and they never throw anything away. We could have ourselves a nice bond fire with all of the paper that they have. And all of it is get rich quick type of correspondence. Also, my father started getting mail regarding psychic predictions and he started to buy into it. It’s so terrible how these people take advantage of the elderly. Another box that was in the closet were clothes from my college days. They are all size zero and I’ll never fit into them and to save them for my daughter will be a waste of time and space. So I cleared out the box and placed the clothes in a couple of bags as I will be bringing them to the church and place them on their charity bin. There are a couple of items that were left over that my husband had forgotten about that are useful for us like a drill that he brought a long time ago and a couple of extension chords. I place them all in a box and brought them home with me. At my parents’ I feel like I got hit with a ton of bricks. It is hot in there as they are always cold and don’t want an air conditioner. It is cooler that it is outside but it’s still a little sticky. All of a sudden I don’t have any energy to do anything. And all I want to do is go to my own home and maybe take an afternoon nap or just sit and relax for a little while. As I am driving home I am feeling a bit sleepy and that is not a good thing. When I get home I get to the laundry room place my clothes in the hamper the head to the bedroom. The room is nice and cool and I am ready to take a nap. So I lay down on the bed and sleep. About an hour or so later I wake up and am refreshed. I am then figuring out what I need to do for the rest of the day and for next week. I have to set up an calendar invite with my mentee. I’ve got to get to the big box store to make purchase. I usually go during the week because it is calmer and there are less people in the store. Especially in the evening during the week. I also need to set up set something up for my parents to get assistance when it comes to the heating for the house in the winter. The paperwork is endless but it’s needs to be done. They are on a fixed income and can not afford all of the high prices of heating oil. Hopefully filling out of this paperwork will help with cutting costs. At my own home I need to clear out a few things from the basement and organize a bit. I was to do some of that today. But as of now, I don’t have the energy to do heavy lifting. Maybe next weekend, I’ll have the energy for it. I also need to do a bunch of weed whacking in the back yard. I cleared out an area next to the vegetable garden and now it is filled with grass. We can’t get the mower back there because there is a huge branch that fell from one of the trees in the way. So weed whacking it is. Again, maybe next weekend.
Until Next time.
Stay Safe!
Best,
Isabel
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