It’s Monday morning and I wake up famished. It’s four in the morning and I get up and get myself some orange juice to hold me over until it’s time for breakfast. I get back to bed and start to think and that is always a bad sign lol. This morning I am thinking about my car. I’ve had my trusty Honda Civic for many years and it is about time to let go. However, it has some cosmetic things that could use some upgrading. Like the hubcaps for example. They are shot and look really ugly. Looking to see if it is worth purchasing new ones or not. Also, if I should get the Honda brand ones or the aftermarket kind. Plus, I was side swiped at one point and the other person’s print is on my front bumper. Should I get that replaced or not even bother. Will that really make the car worth more or will it just be a waste of my time and money? This is what I am thinking about this morning. The other think I’m thinking about is a project that I have at my parents house. I’d like to clear out the basement. There are multiple couches and desks some bedroom furniture. I’d like to get rid of as many items as possible as they are simply just sitting there and not getting any use from anyone. Then there is another side of the basement. I looked in there and holly mother, there is so much stuff in there. All leftover things from when the house was built way back when. There are small pieces of rugs. Jars filled with writing utensils. At one point my father was all about making his own wine so we have barrels and other wine making things in there, which I don’t even think I can give those away. Plus all of the extra things that he has there as extra parts. For example, there are at least four broken chandeliers that he was going to make it into one. I will have to take one out at a time in order to get rid of them otherwise they grow legs and come back inside. Much like the mop I threw away the other day. The mop is old and dirty and it doesn’t clean anything. Also the handle is rusty and it’s all around a piece of garbage. So, I tossed the thing out during one of the weekends that I was there doing the cleaning and the laundry. And whatta you know the next time I went to the house to do some clean up, the rotten mop was back in its rightful place. Right next to the fridge where the other pail and broom are located. How in the hell did this thing grow legs and come back into the house is beyond me. If it was my father, he’s an idiot because he doesn’t clean the house, so why would he need it? It it was my mother, it’s the same thing. She says her arms hurt and that she can’t help with the floor cleaning. And that is ok. That’s why I go there every weekend. To help clean the floors and wipe down the bathrooms as well as do their laundry, change their bed sheets and so on. I’m on a mission to clean up that place and throw out as much garbage as possible. This weekend will be no different. I will get to one of the rooms and do one section at a time and toss out as much as possible. As for this morning, I worked on my own basement. Moved a bunch of things, really heavy things, around and made room for my little one to have a nice space to play. I was at this for a few hours in the morning before work. This is why I’m loving to still be working from home. I get to do whatever it is that I need to do in the morning hours prior to logging online. I notice I’ve been keeping things in my basement that I no longer need or want. For example, I have a collection of shot glasses. I don’t use these glasses and the have been in storage for many years. So I am going to unwrap all of them and take a photo and put them up for sale. There are some other household items that we no longer need and those items are going to go for sale too. We also have a set of end tables and coffee table that we simply just do not use and they are not needed so I took pictures of them and will post them for sale online soon. By nine I am tired from doing all of this work and ready for a nap, but I must log on to work as I have a product launching today. At nine on the dot I log on and start my work for the day. Shortly after starting to work, I hit a wall. I got really tired and don’t have any energy left for the day. I did so much this morning already that I can’t function any more. I go into the kitchen and take my vitamins to see if my energy picks back up. From the vitamins I get a small burst and make a few phone calls. Making phone calls are exhausting for me but I must do them. I’m still feeling tired but during my lunch hour I get to the church by my parents’ house and get them their meals for the week. I take care of a few things at the house. I then drive over to the catholic school and get my little one matriculated. I continue to feel terribly exhausted as the day goes on. It is hot outside and the heat makes me even more tired. All I want this afternoon is to take a nap. But it’s time to get back to work. I’m working but I am dragging along. I do get all of my work done but I taking much longer than usual to get everything done. Some of my friends message me through our instant messaging system and I haven’t messaged them back. I’m too exhausted to socialize. I’ll do it tomorrow. I’m just so, so tired today. After work we have dinner and the family goes out for a drive but I stay home. Shortly after I am in my PJs and ready for bed. Good night all.
It’s Tuesday and I wake up at two in the morning. I keep on waking up at this time almost every day. I turn over and continue to keep my eyes closed but my brain is wide awake. It takes me about an hour or so to fall back asleep. It is then four in the morning and my husbands phone alarm goes off. I wake up instantly and try to wake him up but to no avail. He is sleeping like a rock. I turn off his alarm and turn over to get back to sleep but who am I kidding, I am now awake and will not be falling asleep any time soon. Then his alarm goes off again and this time I am able to wake him up. I then roll out of bed and take a quick trip to the bathroom. I then get back to bed. I am still not able to fall asleep so I turn on my audiobook and am listening to Year of Yes by Shonda Rhymes. After about an hour or so Shonda’s voice lulls me to sleep and I eventually fall asleep and don’t listen to almost any of the book. I’ll have to practically start listening to it again from the beginning. At six my phone alarm goes off and I hit snooze and keep on laying down in bed for another half hour. I was thinking of getting on the treadmill and then I got up and realized that I feel all achy. I did a lot of work yesterday morning and my muscles are all achy. I moved around a few bags of roof shingles and they were about seventy pounds each. I feel like I did cross fit yesterday and all of my unused muscles are hurting. So I opt out of my workout today. Eventually, I get up ad get the coffee going. I also get sliced bread and put in the toaster for toast and I have my breakfast nice and early. It’s early but I get online as I want to get some work done but I am feeling very down and out and am having trouble concentrating. Instead I do some cleanup of the bedroom like take the laundry to the laundry room, make the bed. I then get dressed and then rub retinol oil on my feet as they are also hurting from yesterdays shenanigans. Actually the heal of my left foot has been tingly for the last few days. When I step my foot down I get a bit of a tingling feeling. Is this a sign of diabetes creeping in? I sure hope not. After about an hour or so I get some energy and am back online and doing some work. I am working and working and then I get stuck. For some reason I don’t have java in my system. I need to have an old version of java in order for the system that I work on to actually work. I send an email to the IT department as I need to have a certain version of this program in order for another program to work. Crap…I should have had this particular item posted yesterday and I was going to quickly take care of it this morning. But now, I can’t do it because of system issues. While I wait on out IT system to get back to me I get to some other work that needs to be completed. Then I get a message that a couple of items that I posted on the site yesterday are incorrect. I’m working on quickly correcting these and then my email and instant messaging and other items on my laptop crap out. I have to close out everything that I have open on the laptop, and I have a lot of files open, so I could restart it. Oh brother, today is not going well at all. Plus, I a continue to feel achy. I’ve already taken a couple of pills for the achy pain, but it continues to linger. The medicine eventually kicks in and I am able to get through the rest of the day. However, I get to bed early I talked to the IT team and made a deal with them to get my old laptop back. The new is not allowing me to get my work done. So back to old faithful it is. I get to bed early so that I can get out there into the wild and get into the office.
It’s Wednesday and I need to go into the office to pick up my old laptop. This new one that I have is not responding to Java and I need it to work for updating my website. I was on the phone with one of the IT guys yesterday for an hour to try and figure out why this program was not working on the new laptop and we couldn’t figure out why. With that, I will need to work with the old laptop and that is why I need to get to the office. I get up at six in the morning and get ready for my day. I picked out my outfit last night so that this morning I wouldn’t have to rush and wonder what I should wear into the office. It’s been very hot outside and I need something to keep me cool while I’m out in the wild outdoors. I choose a loose pair of pants and a nice short] sleeved blouse. Everything is nice and loose and I feel comfortable. Traffic this morning wasn’t too bad. There were pockets of slowdowns but overall it was smooth. When I got to work the door were locked and my badge wouldn’t work. Then I noticed a sign that everyone would have to go around back to the loading dock area in order to get inside the building. I swipe my badge and it didn’t work, so I had to ring the doorbell. Someone came out and they had to check my temperature and then I needed to have a document stating that I was clear to come into the building. I couldn’t find the flipping document. I had emailed it to myself but I could not find it anywhere. So the next thing was to scan a barcode to sign in. I don’t have a barcode reader on my phone, so that didn’t work either. The last resort was to log in to a particular website in order to sign in. At that point my phone’s internet was crapping out and it just did not want to log in. Oh brother, I’m not going to be able to get get in and get my laptop today, I thought. What in the world am I going to do. Then I took and deep breath and looked at my phone again, because I could have sworn that I did not delete that email. Did I file it away somewhere, I though. So I looked at my work folder and ah ha! There it was, I was free to go to my desk and get my work done. I get to my desk at eight thirty and get a head start on my day. I have a few meetings in the morning and then I was able to get some more work done. For lunch I went to the big box store and picked up a whole bunch of things. I also returned a couple of bags of flour that we had that we are just not going to utilize. We’ve had them for a few months and it’s just going to be a waste, so I took them back and returned them. The lady at the store was trying really hard to help but she couldn’t find the purchased bags of flour on my card so she told me that I would need to make and exchange for the items. I said that it would be fine as I have a whole list of things that I need to purchase today. I did my rounds at that store and got almost everything on the list. They were out of a few things, but the majority of the items I am able to get. I then decided that it was time to go home. There was no need to get back into the office again. I would go back home and log back in from there. When I got home I had to clean out all of the groceries with disinfecting wipes and place the items away. My mother in law helped with placing the cold items away in the fridge. This was a great help as I had a meeting shortly after. I put the rest of the groceries away and get to my meeting. After my meeting I had a bunch of email requests that had come through for me to post on the website. They are very important items that can’t wait for tomorrow. It’s now way after five and I am still working for the man. By seven I stop working and we go ahead and have dinner. After dinner my little one and I played a bit with her toys and Pokémon cards and then it was time for me to hit the hay. I am tired from waking up so early and I need to get some shut eye.
It’s Thursday and I wake up with the alarm but stay in bed for a little while longer. I am glad I am working from home today so I won’t have to get up and run around to get ready to go into the office. I get my coffee going and then I start logging on for work. I have a bunch of things that need to be taken care of and I go ahead and get an early start. I am still in my pjs and then I thought, it’s still so early, I’m going to take a shower. So I did that and took my time. I put on a ton of lotion and did some self care as I had plenty of time prior to my nine o’clock start. I then logged back on to work and kept on posting content to the website until lunch. During lunch I get out to the store and make a few purchases then get back home and get back online to work. Thankfully, the afternoon is nice and easy at work. I have to post a bunch of content and do just that for the rest of the day, but those and nice and easy things to do. They are time consuming but I work on them nice and steady and get everything done. In the evening we go out for a drive. Then get back home and I still have to put the dishes away and put out the garbage. After all of that I finally get to bed.
It’s Friday and I wake up at six and decided to go for a walk on my treadmill. As I’m walking I’m also watching Ozark on Netflix. I walk for about four miles and then hit the showers. I have the coffee going and have myself an apple turnover for breakfast. Don’t know why, but I love these things. I then log on to work and get to my product launch. The team wants a couple of products launched as soon as possible, so now I have to rush to get the information on the website. Good thing I had a bunch of items already set up and ready to go otherwise I’d really have to rush to get everything done. This afternoon I have to take mom to the doctor and I am dreading it. She has become very difficult as she doesn’t want to do anything anymore. She doesn’t want to get out of the house and doesn’t want to take her medicine, she plainly is sitting on the couch constantly and barely gets up to do anything. During my lunch hour I took mom to see the gastroenterologist. Surprisingly, she was willing to go and did not make a fuss. She changed her clothes, put some deodorant on and cleaned herself up. At the doctors office, she tells the doctor that she does not have any pain and that she feels just fine. The doctor was at a loss and didn’t know what to tell us besides sending her out to do blood work. After leaving the doctors office I raced home and dropped my parents off at their house. On the way to my own house there was a detour on the road so I had to go around a neighborhood that I don’t really know how to navigate. I had to turn around a few times but I finally figured it out how to get to my own house. Then the boss sends me a message about an emergency items on one of the websites I work on. I’m trying to log on but the internet won’t work. They must have shut it off as they were working on the road. I had to reply back about that and let her know my internet isn’t working. The internet finally came back on at five thirty. I logged back on and it looked like the issue was resolved. They didn’t need me after all. In the evening the family decided to go out for a drive, but I decided to stay home. I have a lot of work to do tomorrow in the yard and my parents’ house. I need to rest today. While at home I watch a few videos online about anxiety and how the brain works. And am falling asleep while watching these videos. I eventually get under the covers and fall asleep.
It’s Saturday and I get up at six in the morning. I try to get get online and am trying to work on my blog, but my laptop craps out. I click out of everything and then select restart. It system was spinning and spinning and spinning. So I turned it off manually. And turned it back on and it was still on restarting mode and spinning. I’m thinking, did I break the laptop? Like, already? I just got this new laptop. Ok calm down, I tell myself. Let’s turn it off again. Count to ten then turn it back on. This time it worked. The laptop turns back on. It took a couple of years working in IT in order to learn that trick lol. This morning I am thinking of what I need to do this weekend. I have to clear out the backyard of the tall grasses and weedwack them. I also need to pull some weeds out of the flower beds. More like bed of bushes. We don’t have any flowers this year. I don’t have the time nor the energy to get out there and plant flowers. Maybe once my daughter gets older and I have more energy to garden. I used to love to garden when we first bought the house. Not sure what happened, but I no longer want to be out there and plant. After clearing the grasses with the weedwacker, which can take hours. I am tired and no longer want to be out there to plant. To be honest, I really want to toss all of the pots that I have in the back yard. I have a decorative pots but am feeling tired of them. I’d like a simpler yard and not have as many things back there. When I get the courage I’ll get rid of all of these items. Meanwhile, I have been cleaning out my closet a bit. I have a few items that are old and some wholes. They really should go. I’ve placed them in a black garbage bag and will be bringing them to a charity. There are a bunch of items of clothing at my parent’s house that they no longer use and I will be doing the same. Tossing them in the bag and donating them to charity. In the afternoon I got enough energy to take care of the house. I sprayed ant away spray around the house and then some roundup type of spray for some of the weeds in the front yard. Then the big job of weedwacking the back yard. I did the majority of the area but then ran our of battery. I will need to finish tomorrow or next weekend. I also want to clean out the patio but the broom broke a couple of weekends ago and I don’t have an item for bleach, so I called it a day and headed back inside. While in there, I notice there are a few things that I can take over to my parents house. Things such as picture frames. The have a few photos that don’t have photo frames. I have a few that are in boxes and not getting any use. I will take them over to their house and place photos of the kids on them. As for tomorrow, I will be going over to my parents house and showing the fish tank that we have to someone who may or may not want it. It’s a heavy piece and it was made by my husband many years ago. I am giving it away as we no longer want it. Hopefully this person wants to take it and we will get rid of it once and for all.
It’s Sunday and I get up early. I want to get a few chores completed and get up with my alarm clock. Today I will be going over to my parent’s house and placing a bunch of things for sale to plainly get rid of them from the house. The other day, I notice there was a boom box as well as a bunch of cassettes and cds in the closet at my parents house. I haven’t looked through this music in years. A lot of the cds are ones that the record companies sent to the radio station and I took them home to copy them and then wound up keeping them at the house. Anyway, at the house I did the laundry, the dishes and vacuumed. I also took a few photo frames to place photos that were plainly all over the place in the kitchen. The rest of the photos were added to the wall they have of their grandkids. They have a lot of pictures of my daughter as I made a collage on their kitchen wall with a bunch of photos of her as a little baby. Now what I need to tackle is the garage. There are so, so many things in the garage that I don’t know what to do with. I’ve found hubcaps, car seats from cars they used to own, shoes all kinds of spays and so much more. Of course there are tools as dad and my oldest brother were mechanics in their passed lives. There are tool kits and drawers filled with tools. In the main house there are closets filled with clothes. These clothes will never be worn again. I’m to blame as well. I notice that there are more articles of clothing that I still have in the closet at my parents’ house. Some of them are party dresses and coats that no longer fit. Not sure if I should donate or put up for sale as they were all very expensive and well made. After leaving my parent’s house I make my way to the bank and get a couple of bucks out as I need to make some cash payments this week. I then get home and the family has gone out for a drive. I put all of my stuff away and am feeling tired. Not much energy left after all of the work that I have done today. But nevertheless I will need to take a shower as all of that work made me all sweaty and gross. Before my shower I am feeling hungry and have leftover sushi and am listening to my audiobook Didn’t See that Coming by Rachel Hollis. I was listening to the book the entire time I was at my parent’s house and doing my weekly cleaning. For the most part I wasn’t paying attention as I was working on taking photos of items to get rid of or concentrating on clearing something out. What I did hear, I liked. I’ve always liked Rachel Hollis. She talks about her divorce as well as her brothers suicide. But she also coaches on how a person should reach their best selves.
In the evening I thought about doing a bunch of chores at home. Things like clearing out the weeds in the backyard with the weedwacker and cleaning up the garbage pails, washing my car and a few other things that are on my list. However, I was feeling physically and mentally tired. So instead, I took a nice hot bath with essential oils and Epsom salts. I was in there for a while and did my best to relax, I was able to do that for a good twenty minutes but then I got bored. I washed my hair and rinsed with clean water but left the essential oils on the skin. My skin is now nice and smooth. Shortly after my bath, the family came back home so I had to rush to get dressed. They went to the grocery store and I got out there and helped my husband with bringing in the groceries. We continue to clean out all of the items that come inside the house with disinfecting wipes. While he was doing that, I brought the items inside the to the kitchen and my mother in law was helping by putting the items away in the fridge and the cupboards. Meanwhile, my little one was keeping the dog entertained so he wouldn’t run outside without his leash. It was a team effort. We hung out for a while and then they had dinner. I opted out as I had just had some of the leftover sushi about an hour prior to them coming home. We watched tv for a little while and before we know it, it’s time for bed. The day passed really fast today. Tomorrow is another fun filled work week. I may need to take a day as the roofer is to go over to my parent’s house to fix the roof and some of the interior of the house. I have plenty of vacation days left so I my do just that. While I’m there, I may just do some more clean up of the basement and toss out some of the clothing that my parent’s no longer use. Place some more items for sale. I’m sure I’ll keep myself busy.
Until next time.
Stay Safe.
Best,
Isabel
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